Yep…again great recommendation…i can’t perform in gym with broken shoulder and knee…so yes I will run paragon solo till i heal from my pain
Thanks mate …your intellectual helping me winning the game of life
I want to write other experience too but since all these replies are not grouping but creating multiple post i will write them with my PC
Sub Day 1
Right now I am feeling very internal calm
partner showing too much affection
In the gym, people were nice to me
tried to talk to one girl at the gym but her response wasn’t that great
the most important thing was my posture was like steel till now…my shoulder was back & I was standstill like a real fucking alpha male
this was most notable incident after kissing scene with my partner
other than that I just showed some of my intelligence to my frenemy without any fear
I also notice I am not telling any rubbish to my family friends which I usually did in past…now I am thinking is it appropriate & then only speak
continually taking care of my knee & shoulder issues by putting ice on them
other important changes I observe I am not snapping on very small things like I was doing for many years & too much from the last cycle
I don’t know why my internal becomes too much aggressive with DR & khan put together, are healing bringing bad things to the surface? @Athanaxos
Confidence, Don’t give a fuck & intelligence I feel on my 1st day of Khan ST2 & Love Bomb
I again changed my stack right now it consists of
Day 1
Love Bomb, Khan ST2
Day 2
Rest Day
Day 3
Paragon ( for shoulder & knee injury)
It sounds like Khan ST2 and Love Bomb agrees with you. Makes me happy to hear that! 
Ah right. Man that really sucks. 
But you know… for what it’s worth you can always recover from that loss… and remember you are currently in the process of putting yourself in a better place than you used to be… You’ll be able to gain it back, even if it sucks right now.
And that sucks even more. I am sorry to hear that. It’s a bit outside of my expertise… And while I don’t know about your situation or relationship or what you were fighting about… The thought that pops up in my head is that is that you are in the process of getting yourself together… and that you might be able to negotiate from that position once you’ve made some initial progress? Just a thought 
I would say Yes to that. The purpose of DR ST1-2 and Khan ST1 is to bring the mucky shit up to the surface so that you can deal with it once and for all, and f that becomes too much to handle all at once it “destabilizes” you.
Stuff like mood swings, bad temper, depressive thoughts, anxiety… or recon. It can express itself in many various ways, which is why it’s important to walk the golden path of “just enough” - and pairing it with Love Bomb for example which makes that whole process so much easier.
So yes, bringing out too much of the deep stuff all at once could trigger a defensive response, because you are feeling unstable and vulnerable. And at the same time it’s all subconscious so you really don’t know where the “threat” is coming from, so the defensive response can come out as “aggressiveness” or general douche-y behavior. Indeed, at times we can almost see if someone has gone into recon or overexposure by how they express themselves here on the forum 
So again, self-compassion, understanding, and self-observing is king.
I’m glad you found a method that works for you right now.
( And really, the thought of running Khan and Love bomb together makes me think of Temperate Steel in all kinds of metaphors 
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Yes, I wanted it but there’s sudden anxiety emerging…situation like these in the past I rather deal with aggressively or act like too much needy…after all these subs…I just don’t know…how to handle situations like these anymore…
I am being too careful to do anything…because in past I just do it right away whatever I feel like…but now I am holding myself back & thinking of consequences my words or action brings
I act like a foolish person all my life in front of my family…I know I have to maintain my own self-respect but inflow All I acted was childish…forgiving people immediately which they think afterward…whatever they did to me was justified…heck I am even googling most of the stuff to get tips on how to deal with the particular situation
the same approach I want to take with my dad’s issues…I just don’t want to burst into anger again…I just want don’t want to be angry again…being angry is one thing but shouting like a mad dog is another…I just don’t want to be a mad dog but a human with self-respect honor dignity…I want to show my angriness in a good way or shape
I hope love bomb just calm the fuck me down
I can feel it right away…even after one loop of love bomb & khan st2…today I am feeling a little miserable again not that much but miserableness is there
ditto…I should have a love bomb in my stack since I run regeneration rebirth multiple times in cycle…poor me…I didn’t know how to exactly pair subs with each other & even heck how important it is for our own good…
I wanted to ask a question here…if we run love bomb with healing sub…did they interfere with healing…I mean if you could elaborate it…one sub is bringing past traumas & another sub teaching to love…I mean how do they both work on the subconscious mind…after trauma came to surface our mind will ease with the love bomb & make us realize its okay…etc etc…please just elaborate so that I can understand how exactly sub works
mine is recon with overexposure right?
yeah, & tonight I will listen to paragon…i have heard it helps with sleep too
Do you mean when stell is hot & we add water into it…to calm down or brain?
That is an interesting insight. Thank you for sharing.
Sometimes becoming aware of our own not-always-so-positive behaviors makes us take a step back and have us wondering how the hell we should do things instead. It’s OK, just give it time and you will land in a place where you have more inner strength. And with that comes BOTH more tolerance and patience, but ALSO better ability to maintain your boundaries in a healthy manner. You’ll get there
I hear you. Many times we do things we don’t understand why, and we wished we had acted differently… Like you said… with more self-respect, honor, and dignity… I’ts the same thing with this. If your heart and mind are somewhat stable, you won’t be as quick to that kind of anger and you will be better at expressing what it is that upsets you. This is why you committed to do the inner work in the first place. This was why you searched for a way to do that, and eventually came here to this community, no?
Good. Now remember that there WILL be ups and downs. That’s inevitable. But over time that will decrease in intensity, and you will be better equipped with dealing with them. Also Love Bomb takes the edge of that “aggressive” alphaness that’s not always helpful, and helps you create a deep yet silent strength
Yeah, I started thinking about this and what kind of information newcomers could find useful. Like an unofficial “guide” with what works and what doesn’t. Makes me want to put one together
Well, I can only speak from my personal user-experience and not of how the subs works but… RVC mentioned some approaches to healing in this thread here, and when it comes to “Past healing” like DR and Khan… they are supposed to bring up stuff from the past and the deep so that you can properly process them. That require ALL of your energy and that is why they are so difficult, because processing the murky stuff IS HARD.
But yes, as people’s experience here will tell you: Healing subs takes precedence over any other title. BUT adding a soothing title like LB or CFW can help you alleviate some of that stress that inevitably comes from bringing painful stuff up to the surface.
Haha I am too autistic to be able to differentiate that but yea, you probably overexposed yourself earlier
Yes in part. But what makes the temperate steel so strong is this process of repeated heating and cooling, so that’s what I was thinking about.
I saw you got some great replies and feedback in the Ascension Chamber thread. What thoughts did they spark? Did you feel that you got some useful insights?
Also, I don’t know if this is relevant but a book that helped me was No More Mr. Nice Guy by Robert A. Glover. Have you read it?
Also, another great thread here is @DarkPhilosopher’s On being an alpha. I’ve found it gave me very useful perspectives and insights that I wasn’t aware of before. Give it a shot when you have the time!
EDIT: Another thing I just remembered… have you had any chance to read through some of the DR and/or Khan-journals so you can get an idea of what’s ahead in regards to healing?
I hope Khan will land me there
Thanks, I will
Yep…& there’s one more thing I want to share with the community & here it perfectly fits…but I am having some limitations from forum software…I just don’t want to write everything & getting messages that I cant reply to further…I will wait & bookmark this post & will reply…my most bizarre mistake of life in search of becoming a better person
yeah, I needed it very much…I know if I keep my mouth shut & do things in silent (literally) most of my current situation will get resolved
That will be way much better…in other threads, I read about not pairing anything with healing sub & after a few replies, someone countered that post…all this info will create confusion…like I should par this or sub with this sub or not…a guide with reviews will help much better…
all these helping replies with a willingness to help new guys like me will surely get an excellent return back for you…Thanks again…
is that mean all the hidden traumas which resisting our growth?
Are there any examples that make me understand this deep-seated trauma… some examples from movies or documentaries etc
because I have taken marijuana edible in the past & it doesn’t go well with me…I tried just to heal me because I have watched too many documentaries about it…but when I tried I freak out for over 8 hours or so
yep
OMG…so LB not only help us alleviate stuff but also aid in our healing journey
I don’t know…I just became honest there & sincerely ask question which I was dealing with over many months…
absolutely, I did get…but I cant reply there any more because of my user limitation or site limitation i don’t know…will you please reply me there…so that i can reply further there…
I am just hoping I shouldnt get any limiation here now…because here also I have written very long post till now
I have heard about it & term nice guy syndrom but havent read book…i will defenetly read it
surely i will read it completly
i tried searching for people experences with these sub but off topic replies made my mood turn off…its getting difficult to stay on old threads with tons of offtopic replies
but I will try to read it through & possible document better honest experences of other users
Thanks again mate
Sub Day 5
Today went well actually we can call it as a major change in my entire life…because now I am changing the way of thinking overall
one thing I understand about myself is that I think a lot…but more than that I think very negatively a lot.
2 days ago I happen to be asked about the same thing on the AC thread of this forum…& got a good response
I then start applying techniques of manifestation…when I was trying today I noticed sudden shift of energy…which makes me calm & peaceful
unlike other times when i was always worrying about getting too stress…
today i applied Neville Goddard tips like remember when, telephone etc to tackle things which made me worry
though I didn’t get that many bomb results hey i was just starting
in the gym when a guy which wasn’t my friend…I manifest the initiate talking to me…after 3 minutes he started talking to me
in past, I always start conversion with people which made me think if I was being needy with boys too lol
now at night before sleeping I will only start visualizing & using technique instead of watching my phone like a dead man
@Malkuth I am continuing the conversion here…since one member think that i am going off-topic with many replies which are of course not related to AC
I get the point that I needed to become foolish if my brain tells me that manifestation is a waste of time & I will not get success its not real etc…because it’s not back by science…in order to remove this limiting belief I need to become explorer of mind & be foolish for a while…am I correct
will you please elaborate this with an example for more clear understanding
Ok, I have done over 5 times manifestation meditation…& my thoughts are turning more positive because I am no more thinking is somebody is doing conspiracy behind my back…heck why they would do it where I am visualizing them being my helpful
Manifestation technique is becoming a game-changer for me because every negatives thing are now turning positive
No matter how many stressful future events I thought…it just changed it to a more calm peaceful situation in my mind
I am using telephone, conversion, etc techniques by Neville…also guided meditation from youtube
I also got my favorite food with my friends which I wanted to eat for a long time… it’s sudden & random I didn’t intentionally manifest for it…my friends call me unexpectedly after 3 months & set up eating out…its awesome
another thing is I am manifesting a bunch of girls…hahaha I cant visualize one girl but whenever they instruct me to visualize I just see too many girls talking to me…kissing me lol
I am just not worried about the real outcome…this feeling i have everything i desire is super awesome
now next challenge is reading about manifestation & getting as much knowledge as possible…but wait i will just manifest it that I am reading all the books & articles on it
I forgot about paragon
I haven’t gotten around replying to the longer posts yet but… how are you doing so far?
Its Mix Feeling Today
Today I wanted to eat fish…I got fish at dinner
Visualizing a girl from yesterday…getting her selfies from yesterday
frequency of sex is increasing…libido increasing
noticing glance & good response from other girls but not that breakthrough
got appreciation at the gym
bricked new smartphone 
today is last day of paying cc bill
Day 8 Rest Day
Khan ST2 shoulder behind the back is serious guys…My chest is up shoulders behind…all my life I slouch but it’s painful now…because I don’t have the habit of shoulder behind the back
sex is every 2 days from every once a month or two
paragon
no more knee pain but shoulder pain is there…maybe because of arch body shoulder behind the back
love bomb
still lots of scars on me due to various hate over years & decades
I need more love bomb shots for more profound effect
I cant find in your journal when you switched to stage 2. How do you compare Khan stage 2 and Khan stage 1?
Sounds like you have made some great strides so far, which is awesome!
And remember we are all here for you if and when it get’s rough. We are all on journeys of self-improvement, and we help each others along the way
You’ll get used to it, eventually 
Could be! Maybe some more paragon to deal with the pain of your new and awesome posture?
And that’s OK. You are recovering from all that, and you are rewriting your own story into something else now, something amazing. It won’t happen overnight, but it is inevitable, I assure you
The one you wrote about earlier, or a different one?
Also, it seems that you are doing great with manifestations. How do you feel about all that? Have you had the chance to look up Aaron Doughty or Joseph Alai on Youtube? I know other’s recommended them, but those guys are simply amazing. Very down to earth and they explain stuff really well.
maybe you missed this post
I stop dr all thanks to @Athanaxos & switch to khan st2 because healing some what making my life very miserable
Khan ST2 is very very very sexual, shoulder behind the back & no more slouching
Khan ST1 I exactly can’t define it because I was running two healing subs together but I was having full of anger very weird dream & I started to become more emotional & going in o past also started listening to the sad song
if I can see logs of my music listening pattern in the last cycle there will be more depressing sad songs that I listen to nonstop
Now after changing stack drastically I am listening to pop song romantic song
Thanks but there is more concern worry about my future financial issues…I hope i will get it through
Thanks, this means too much for me
all the life i was slouching…i will surely get through it
yep, paragon completely replace eof for this cycle
after listening to Love bomb I realize I needed some real self-love…which I was missing from my whole life…I always tried to find a way of happiness in porn, movies, tv shows but after all that I was still miserable until…I hit cfw, & especially love bomb
I am thinking to stick to love bomb for a long time
the new phone which I bought after destroying the old phone
but all is ok now…I got the device back from the service center…i bricked after trying to relock bootloader because phone wasn’t updating march security patch
Day 9 Sub Day
Yesterday night I was tired because the night before I have slept only for 4 or 5 hours.
So naturally, I slept as I went to bed but the problem is I have plugged headphones with Khan ST2 ultrasonic & Love BOMB…I don’t know it play its loop or I just remove my headphone during sleep
That confusion went away when I observe my behavior… self-love…selfies…reacting to love songs… meeting happily with everyone…that’s the indication I did listen to love bomb may be a masked version
but I didn’t feel khan st2 the reason maybe ultrasonic version…my brain react to mask one hmmm
slept 9 hours which is cool, manifesting left-right at everyone I see…
since I was imagining having s with every girl I see 
I just start imagining she is coming to me & saying hi…this is a lot easier than someone getting down on me…
paragon I don’t know why it always works day after a rest day? strange but hell yeah pain-free as of writing…I hope it will continue
girls who don’t respond to me well I stopped giving them attention by again going to them & I initiate the talk
feeling calm relaxed thinking before talking…not cursing which I usually do
if you guys like me & feel you have not been loved from your childhood…love bomb is there to make you love yourself & I mean not by ejaculation lol
& at last, there is one anxiety in me regarding money…I mean I am getting anxious whether this work or not but doing a course where the coach said there is a world record which everyone thought to be impossible to break but one day one man broke it so after that within a week all around the world 30+ people broke the same record which seems impossible before.
because others got belief if he/she can do it why can’t them & broke the fucking record
I know I am an intelligent talented guy which all the people who know me tell me all the time…
but I wasted my time doing things that didn’t benefit me…I did it because of passion & strange love for it
I just need to transmute my energy in doing things where other people are doing it successfully to make real money
for eg freelancing…I did read one comment on Reddit that the person isn’t getting enough clients & blah blah that negative comment stuck in my brain & became my limiting beliefs this been happening for over a decade…heck even I would become a millionaire as of now but this limiting shit stopped me pursuing things which I can easily achieve
but I dint want to cry now & go to healing me…fuck I just want to do some action & start believing in things to achieve them…heck what will I lose some time & money…but do I am not wasting it already…I am just not trying enough to be a successful person which I want to become
Day 11 Sub Day
Yesterday night slept only 5 hours…the reason may be modafinil with caffeine?
I also now added DD on phone for 8 hours
every time if I wake up in the middle of the night then I will just plug-in headphones & listen to manifestation meditation
apart from that today’s day was very dull…because of lack of sleep & especially unable to sleep I am just exhausted right now
So I will continue writing journal tomorrow with some interesting happened today beside being a dull day
see ya