Yes
I think I found it, it’s psychology I guess. I am attending classes. And am very attentive. I don’t like accounting😏
I think Emperor Black and EOG ST1 had shared contribution to this.
On Emperor Black I dived deep amd got the cpurage to go after what comes to my mind(crazy things) and EOG ST1 gave me that calm feeling that of I go after attending psychology classes and don’t obsess with making money, I won’t die of hunger.