Thanks @ksub! I really appreciate your insight.
Any cognitive enhancement title had historically (since Nov 2018) very hard for me to run. It seems that always hit me hard badly. With QL Q, I was not able to find my words. Similar to what happened to Varuna.
This is an strange type of reconciliation. RM gave me for the first week motivation to read about everything except my career related topics. Hahaha! But then, it subside to almost zero.
Last resource, pray and listen to SC subs.
Thanks for sharing all of that bro.
I can definitely see the subs working their magic on you, peeling your emotions away layer by layer, bringing you to the place you need to be to make progress towards your ultimate goals.
How can you be the ideal man you want to be while cursing death on your father?
How can you be the ideal man you want to be while judging others harshly?
I know you, and lots of other guys here, say you want to be feared and respected by others.
And I don’t think there’s anything wrong with that really.
But deep down, I think what we all want is to be loved and accepted by others.
And when we don’t know what it feels like to be loved like that (because our parents or family weren’t capable of it or because some other trauma made us forget what it feels like), then we default to wanting to be feared and respected because the look of awe in the eyes of someone who fears/respects you is the closest thing we can imagine to love.
I am proud of you for making this progress bro, and I know for sure you are well on your way to being the man you want to be, and being loved and respected and admired and accepted by the people around you.
Keep pushing 
Really interesting to read your perspective on this bro, as I thought this would work super well for you based on how well it’s working for me.
But it’s also likely you have less healing you need to do, and more building (sales team, marketing automation, SOPs, systems in general, that crazy P&L sheet).
So subs that laser focus you on cognitive enhancement and seeing through the matrix would probably help you more in this phase of your business.
Hey, did you try doing shadow work in a journal on EB? This is what I’ve found most useful and most effective for self-improvement with this sub so far apart from the obvious. At the same time, I’m not clued on what you were looking for result-wise exactly or if uncovering the suppressed part of your character is what you were focused on obtaining. All the best.
Thank you, IMO, if you gave not a hugh flow state, you’ll experience anger and everything but after some loops the subs poke you and poke you until you release it.
Remember when it comes, release it.
The first I cried on Khan ST1 was when I saw a woman selling cakes on the subway and was faking being so innocent. I bought the cake and cried for 1 hour, VERY INTENSELY, but after that I did not feel anything for her. She was just a trigger.
When I cried at the bus last night, I did nothing to hidey tears, but I also did not try to “not hide” my teers. So yeah. That caring is gone.
I also don’t like one of my sisters, but it’s not trauma. She’s just an asshole.
Thank you brother, for the encouragement and you opinion.
I think both love and fear is needed in a balance.
The bottom is one of my own experiences
I believe the whole post can be useful for shadow work.
I had a habit of compulsive eating and buying snacks when outside.
Today somethings catched my eye and I said to myself that I won’t spend a penny. I kept my word. This sub is amazing, just wait fir the recon to pass.
Another thing is that I dropped WANTED and decided to get women out of my head for some time to get thing going.
And now I don’t look at women.
Emperor Black makes you feel like Emperor Blacked in the bedroom.
Huh???
He is saying EB makes him horny man.
I cant and will not make comments on this but thankyou for sharing your observations.
There goes my Sprite! 
I assumed he didn’t have electricity.
Now I must say
Ha ha ha😆
Electricity ?
I wouldn’t say I make people horny when running EB:ToG but one of my students told me in the eye and in front of the whole class that she loved me and asked me whether I loved her back. Then some of her classmates followed her and professed their love for me as well. lol Crazy teens.