Today has been a day of lessons. I’ve got to write about it.
This sounds like The Forge or something like it at work. @SubliminalUser your mind wouldn’t be throwing this at you if you weren’t ready for it. You got this man.
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Yea I guess so. Still, next time I’m not going over 3 loops a day, even on Friday. It just seems to become problematic after 3.
@RVconsultant I suppose that would have been a better way to go about things.
Instead, yesterday was a mess. I did so many different old practices which were reminiscent of days gone by. Even went to sleep past 2 AM on my own just because of some manga. That and more were things I stopped doing a long time ago. That reconciliation really got to me and I wasn’t able to handle it while maintaining all my quality habits. Love Bomb prototype yesterday made NO difference.
Waking up today, I didn’t get my 9 hours of sleep. This means there’s a possibility of more things to come. Darn it. Almost every weekend over the past month has been problematic in some form or another, and that’s partly because of the time left for processing (as these are rest days). It’s also because I’d see that and try to go heavy on loops on the preceding Friday, thinking it’s fine since I’m going to have 2 days off loops. Well, it’s not. If the reconciliation is that bad then I can’t do high loop counts of DR.
Sub playlist for next week:
- Action Ultima (choose from Executive, Commander, BLU).
- 3x DR ST2
Let this be a warning to all those new to DR: This sub is tough as hell. Probably the toughest sub I’ve ever run, because of its clear effects on my life. It’s true—my tone has changed so much from when I was in the middle of MFoH as @PurpleRT73 mentioned. It’s amazing how easy it is to forget.
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Idea…
Sub playlist for next week:
Action Ultima (choose from Executive, Commander, BLU)
1 loop of DR ST2 three times this weekWhoah what the…that’s a low count! Still…it’s strangely appealing.
The pain still lingers. Not as bad as yesterday, but it’s there. I’m going to stop watching a show I know is also provoking some of the thoughts and feelings. Sometimes I feel like “it’s hopeless.”
I’m thinking thoughts I never thought would occur.
I know the reconciliation is harsh. I’ve been going through it too.
I may give you a preview of a post I’m planning on presenting soon.
I made a Dream/Sleep Custom Ultima that is really helping with my sleep and with improved sleep, my reconciliation is less.
Dreams Ultima Core
Sanguine Ultima Core
Paragon Complete Ultima Core
Dream Traveler
Deep Sleep
I forgot to put it in Ultima B format, and perhaps I should have added Yggdrasil. But it works well for me. It’s made my reconciliation much easier to bear.
Also I made a Healing Booster. I figured that since Elixir was designed with Regeneration, I’d start with an Ultima with Elixir. Here is what I did:
Elixir Ultima Core
I AM
ARES
New Beginnings
Pride Unbroken
FEBRUUS
I put it in Ultima B format.
This has reduced my reconciliation by about 20 to 30%
Hang in there mate, and keep your dragon eyes on the dragon prize!
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@RVconsultant man, I think I’m going to have to extend the rest to more than just two days. I might just decide to not listen until Friday after work—so that would be 7 days after the last time I played DR.
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Oh, how I wish it would all end. I wish that I woke up and found out a signifcant portion of my life was just a dream.
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I’m with you on that.
It’s sad though!
I can’t accept it… instead of being grateful at this “thing” we call “life” that has showed me what being a “human” means.
I strive to understand what “I Am” about, and still all I can find is chaos…
Peace to you!
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I’ve had 2 sets of 10 or more days where I had no subliminals. That’s how harsh my reconciliation was with DR. I wished I could have turned it off. It was still going in my head during those rest days.
What helped get me through was focusing on the payoff. The eventual relief. I’m now experiencing that relief at times and the reconciliation is much less.
I had to go through lots of upsetting things to get through to get to this relief. It’s worth it!
At this point a lot of unpleasant things that had happened to me do feel like dreams. And those dreams are fading and making room for new dreams. Dreams I want to have.
I also got lots of sleep. That helped a lot. Oh and BBC comedies.
R E C O N C I L I A T I O N
Please, for the love of all that’s holy, people. Take rest days. Take a rest week, if you must. I took 12 days off my stack because it was getting bad. Rest days are just as important as listening, if not MORE important. Make sure you take them. They. Will. Help.
Your mind needs time to process the information. Trying to brute force results will not work. We’re going to update our recommendations soon, as we now realize just how important rest days are.
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Thanks for the reminder. Now I’m going to not listen to DR until Friday.
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@SubliminalUser please note that @SaintSovereign knows what’s in the subliminals, and even he is having strong reconciliation.
I like to think about all the personal development I’ve done, and I still get bad reconciliation. I’ve had 2 sets of 10 plus day rest days. Some times I feel like my stomach is going to turn inside out.
I think of DR as strong medicine for big healing. I must humble myself in the presence of the Dragon.
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Okay, so today I went easy on myself. No DR. I thought I was gonna listen to Commander U but then that dropped off after a few minutes. I didn’t complete yet, and my workday was still great. I also want to take action on a certain personal item…so perhaps just resting from DR is sufficient for me to get more productive. I still feel stuff, but it’s lessened. And work is a good distraction.
I’ve gotten advice that I should take a break from all this stuff, so that’s exactly what I’ll do. This is going to be a week off from subs.
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I’m glad you’re feeling some relief. Keep posting mate!
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The road to success is becoming a lot shorter. I can feel it.