Hello,
I am fed up with my life. Sorry to start out like this, but it is true. Not that I think of doing something harmful to myself but I just don’tknow anymore.
So, I am a 36 year old male and I never had a girlfriend, I always tense up or close off when a girl likes me and then withdraw. I am also obese and losing weight has been on of the hardest thing ever. I also feel disconected from my self, from my own feelings because I used to think that not feeling my emotions was manly. I stuff things deep down.
I am also in a stupid dead end customer service job and to make things worse I quit University back then with just a couple of subjects left
I am all alone and at the same time I don’t feel like going out. But I do desire a good circle of friends that I actually like. Not the people I hang arround with and that I don’t really like but I just hang arround with in order not to be alone.
I don’t know what is wrong with me, i feel like a utter loser.
What I want is to change everything I hate or dislike about my situation, but I don’t know how. I don’t really care about being Alpha. I am looking for something I can run and just go on with my life.
From all the things in the store I have seen wanted, I like that… but I just don’t know what to do!