Thinking about moments in the past where you deceived yourself while trying to get to sleep isnāt the way to start off a good nightās rest, fyiā¦
I ran a full loop of Hero and only 3 minutes of Emperor and DRLD on the next listening day to reduce the load, but I think Iām going to roll back Hero exposure to 3 minutes as well until I acclimate a little better to what I guess is the honesty or wisdom scripting.
Ran 3 minutes of Hero this morning after only 4.5 hours of sleep, then went to morning trainingā¦it was rough.
On the way, I read an entry in BoFR that uses carpentry as a metaphor for mastering the martial science, and how a carpenter needs to keep his tools sharpened and whettedā¦
ā¦then during class, I found out real quick that Iāve been too lax with not sharpening certain skills regularly enough to be used without any hesitation. Iāve relied too heavily on certain strategies and strengths while ignoring things that didnāt come as naturally to me.
It was a humbling experience.
I felt like a terrible student, and that I have no business teaching if I donāt fill these gaps.
So, Iāll fill them.
Had a hard conversation this morning with someone close, and Iām wondering if Heroās scripting has anything that would make other people more honest with their thoughts and feelings?
Maybe itās because she felt safe enough to express them regardless of how uncomfortable it was for her?
Either way, I handled it well as I was more in-the-moment than detached from itā¦instead of being cool, calm and collected, I was warm, calm and collected (and the fact that that isnāt alliterative bothers me)ā¦
Felt the emotions rise and fluctuate during the conversation, but they seemed to have the volume turned down and I was more focused on taking accountability for my part.
This being the start of the 4th cycle with DRLD, Iām gonna say it had a lotta something to do with how I handled it and is definitely influencing how Iām processing it afterwards, but I imagine the addition of Hero helped me manifest this conversation in the first place so I could take care of it before it blew up in my face.
Did you start the conversation?
I run emp-hosb-kb and I experience similar conversations. But, itās mostly because I genuinely feel comfortable opening hard topics and looking to have an objective view in all discussions.
I definitely opened the opportunity to have the conversation. I noticed something subtle and asked what it was.
That random thought I had is the reason I took a break from the forumā¦
And to be transparent of my personal results with this: money in the bank decreased over the 107 days I spent zero time on the forum. 
I definitely didnāt āmake itā.
But, I gained new insight, and with that Iām coming from a new perspectiveā¦a new frame of reference to shape my reality.
I alluded to it in my post on the Hero thread:
Running wealth sub after wealth sub for the last couple years, I focused on what I wanted to achieveā¦but it basically always felt like I had to grind it out. And still, I didnāt break free.
I told a friend once that it felt like I was stepping on the gas, but the e-brake was still on and I didnāt know how to disengage it. Lots of internal pressure, lots of stress, little movement.
Something shifted when I uncovered the reason my subconscious e-brake was engaged.
Bringing awareness to it allowed me to make a choice, a new commitment on a deeper level than just increasing the number in the bank account.
I got tested immediately the next morning with a mysterious sum of found money that landed in one of my accountsā¦and I chose to do what kept me in integrity.
No coincidences.
Since then, Iāve felt lighter somehow. And more calm and assured of the future than Iāve been in a long time.
Everything is an offer. Stand in your authority to make a counter-offer or a conditional agreement. Stay in honor.
Trained some groundwork and revisited the minute details of basic submissionsā¦
ā¦a small rotation of the hips here, an adjustment of hand position thereā¦
ā¦and like magic, the submissions came on faster, tighter, and were harder to counter.
You can see it in high level competitors ā like Gordon Ryan ā where they donāt really do the flashy moves that everyone loves to try in class, they stick to executing the fundamentals at an extremely deep level of understanding of the core princicples.
I still have a ways to go, but it felt like I crossed a threshold. 
- Internalize the concept of āHonor,ā transforming your actions and essence.
The past few weeks, Iāve been immersed in learning about Commerce and thinking a lot about offers, agreements, contracts, and maintaining honor in all my dealings. It seems like these concepts permeate deeply throughout our everyday lives and have a profound effect on reality once you begin to notice them in action all around. Our words do become law.
Decided to swap DR: Limit Destroyer mid-cycle for EOG: Nouveau RICH when it drops, so I didnāt run it today like it was scheduled. Swapping mid-cycle isnāt a normal thing for me, but I want to ride the peak of the hype wave with everyone and see if that vibe enhances results somehowā¦(thatās a great excuse imoā¦feel free to steal it, readerā¦lol)
Looking at the spreadsheet, Iāll have 7 days between the last run of DRLD and the first loop of NRICH in a few daysā¦I think that and only running 3-5 minute loops of Emperor and HERO (which is what Iāve been doing the last few loops) will be enough buffer for my brain and I avoid any harsh recon.
Incredible training session this morningā¦
Iām lucky to have found a mentor on this path who continues to evolve in his training and his understanding to this dayā¦the process truly never ends, until it does. The entire experience was a microcosm for the rest of my life.
Whatever magic is in HERO helped with my speed of perception and really āgetting itā todayā¦because the whole experience upgraded my Mind.
Ran first full loop of Nouveau RICH last night after it dropped ā had run ~5 min of Hero in the morning ā and the sensations I got in my head and body were noticeably different from when I ran the first full loop of Heroā¦
Iām not knowledgeable enough (or aware enough?) to know what the differences mean exactly, but I did get obviously strong, persistent sensations in the back of my head and in the center of my brow during the entire loop so I believe thereās significant, new mindās eye magic in this one for sureā¦
ā¦because how would you innovate on a disruptive level without powerful IN-sight?
Noticed a strong sense of processing and load throughout the day yesterday, and even a bit today after running a full loop of NRICH almost two days ago now. Still ran a short loop of Emperor midday today anyway and didnāt feel like it was too much, but Iām getting a sense to take some extra days for processing though, so Iāll cut this cycle short.
No direct wealth manifestations to speak of yet, but I have written a LOT in my offline journal about money that produced a deep insight and led to me setting a stronger intention about it, so I know the NWE is working its magic.
Also ā and I donāt know if it has anything to do with the whole ālearning the not-secret-secret tax codeā scripting ā but reading further into contract law today felt goodā¦which is not something I imagined myself capable of saying, ever 
I had a ārethinkā about what I said about my carrying extra fat on my frame here:
It hit me hard today ā maybe Hero influence? ā when I thought something to the effect of, āYou think carrying this extra fat around is decent? ā¦well, thatās why you keep carrying it around.ā
Maybe the boldness scripting from NRICH firing up the honesty in my self-assessment, lol
I think there has to be some next-level boss mode scripting in Nouvea RICH thatās triggering my productivity muscle tooā¦Iām making lists of tasks with assumed time-to-completion and getting joy out of crossing them off and seeing if I can do them faster than expected. Gamification for the win ā oh shit, maybe this is some scripting related to the new dopamine module? 
If it is, itās working great after only two loopsā¦
Anyway, wanted to jot this down before I get in a workout and a run because Iāve decided to surpass ādecentā in terms of my fitness and physique.
For the record, I donāt āhateā my body now or anything, but I accept that Iāve been weak af in the discipline department in terms of physical training compared to how I used to beā¦thatās over.
This Emperor + Hero + NRICH combo is shaping up to be a beast if this is the type of early synergy Iām feelingā¦LFG
Todayās day 2 of my 4-5 day break between cycles. I started this cycle with DR: Limit Destroyer then dropped it a week ahead of the Nouveau RICH drop, and finished off this cycle with 2 loops of NRICH in the brain queueā¦
ā¦all in all, Iād say itās playing out a lot smoother than I expected. Minimal recon, and my daily behaviors / routines are subtly changing for the better. Discipline, my sense of responsibility (also, my ability to respond to anything), and my honesty in self-assessment and, therefore, in communication with others is more powerful every day.
Dreams were wild last nightā¦
Ignorance of the law is no excuse
Thereās a sense of a daily battle between remembering and forgettingā¦
ā¦like a lilting lullaby always in play to whisk one away.
Had a business-oriented dream last night that was all about providing massive value instead of maximizing immediate profit per transactionā¦
ā¦it was about how we did deals in the music industry (which I have all of zero experience in) and how goodwill and reputation would be the real fuel to skyrocket us all to successā¦
ā¦I laid out a strategy that on itās face would barely make money, but I could see in my mind all the ways it could exponentially blow up our number of future opportunitiesā¦
ā¦and it would feel better to do business that way. Everyone would love it: artists, fans, and more importantly, so would I. I just knew it.
Then I woke up.
That Nouveau new wealth experience hits different. 3 loops in.
Woke up this morning feeling a little off. Asked for some guidance and got back a song lyric:
āDonāt lose your grip on the dreams of the past; You must fight just to keep them alive.ā
Sometimes, thatās all it is: just keep f#!king going. Youāre on the right path. Donāt let the distractions of the world, or the mental masturbations of your mind, take you off track. Remember who you are and what that means. You already know the next step. Do it, even if you donāt fully understand right now.
Show up.
So many times, it happens too fast ā instantaneous unconscious shift
You trade your passion for glory ā focus turns to external validation and comfort
Donāt lose your grip on the dreams of the past ā remember who you are
You must fight just to keep them alive ā renew your mind every day
