Burn Me Break Me To Achieve Freedom (2nd Cycle)

Journals - Major Programs
#10

Day 4 Rest Day

  • Yesterday I took a sleeping pill for better sleep but did not sleep well…if the problem is in mind we can’t do anything :frowning:
  • Wasted money time since waking up
  • Feeling too much hungry & eating too much…these subs demanding more energy or other issues
  • Very bad sunday…zero productivity and lots of laziness
  • No diet today :frowning:
  • Watched P :frowning:
  • Meet zero new girl or talk

Sub Day 5

  • Slept earlier yesterday while listening to DR ST1
  • Had vivid dreams & and DR definitely working on worst fears…which I wasn’t aware it was sitting on my mind
  • Bowels are good thanks to psyllium husk
  • At 8 am listened to Khan ST1
  • Slept for while then finally woke up
  • Day stated 12 but need to prioritize task to achieve things in life
  • Wrote 15 goals & 3 gratitude list
  • On bf didn’t eat diet food because I have not to shop for eggs & chicken yet
  • In the morning while eating bf…wasted time watching youtube now I will replace it with something useful or mindful eat from next time
  • Still didn’t go outside & also done skincare routine
  • I today goal I wrote about problem-solving of the report which I am lagging behind…made it micro so that I can be stress-free
  • Important things move above the task list
  • Got a hint from a friend on SC…I am maybe wrong or right…but similar hint related to it I got last night…she is beautiful but very religious
  • Deleting P…I hope I will never go back…Though I was watching by skipping it …but is bad addiction
  • Reading about procrastination & all things are perfectly fitting on me

Rest Day 6

  • Yesterday in the gym I was a little jerk or brave I don’t know…I call out one general trainer on his face for his lack of attention towards me…I usually was a very nice guy who don’t react when someone do unjust with me… especially outside of home…but yesterday was very strange for me…Khan working or recon? Whatever…he came back to me apologize & paying attention to me but after that too I didn’t give him any validation

  • After gym 0 productivity because I was very tired & also slept early & woke up early too but again went to sleep because my band said…I have slept very little…

  • Recorded good video in the gym…it was long but I edited with very good shots only…unlike other times where my judgment was fucked up…it turned out to be a good video without any equipment

  • Wrote 15 goals…I noticed my goals are changing every day depending upon the situation

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#11

I am too busy on productivity and unable to get free time to write journal

But let me tell you ef st1 is total different…if you are new to sub and want to see if sub work or not then start ef…you will see visible changes in gym with only 1 loop…fucking amazing

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#12

Cool stack dude :ok_hand: mind sharing some of your goals?

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#13

I have too many goals

finish procrastination from life
achieve ultimate productivity up to 12 hours a day
good physics
i want to become a wanted man where girl approach me
making money lots of it
etc etc

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#14

Good luck dude!

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#15

Day 9
Sub Day

I am very happy today that finally, I got a chance of writing a journal after a few days.
It’s maybe because of the magic of subs who knows :wink:

of course we know :slight_smile:

last few days were extreme productive except yesterday when I have hit by extreme recon because of overexposure to sub

It doesn’t mean that I didn’t write anything…I did indeed but not here on their respective sub whenever I was getting time from my mobile

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#16

Sub Day 9

Listened to DR1 last night & I had my biggest trauma came up in my dream…that were tough life of my years…I don’t know what else will came up in next few loops before I end DR ST1 on this cycle

Also listened to Khan ST1 on at morning & again I slept to complete my sleep…got another vivid dream which was chaotic than previous one…though i didn’t remember that much

Though I didn’t had much productivity today but it was different day altogether for me
Calm Relaxation…right now even while writing this I am feeling much energetic like I drank too many cup of coffee

Though last cup is on 12 noon

Today was leg day & I perform good & in CrossFit gym too

The seduction stage has now gone but I still have amazing confidence but not witty & charm which I felt on PS & wanted

Maybe that thing will be complete in the second cycle because of Khan ST2…let’s hope for the best

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#17

Here’s my experience with today’s released ac

I am having little cold :cold_face: maybe that’s why or sub effect i don’t know

After listening ac i ran eof st1…and in 5 minutes i had immediate recon

I felt desperate and done some annoying behaviour…after 1 hour i went to gym… despite amazing effects of eof st1 in past…today i was struggling to perform basic set with same weight in gym…i even thought to go home in middle

But as time pass i felt normal & eof start to showing its magic rest half workout was good and even today i note down my weight for each set on app

My situation improves as time pass and now i am feeling great… feeling full euphoria while i am writing this

Next week i will read my goals while listening to sub

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Main Disc. Thread - Ascension Chamber ZP: Tips, Tricks Strategies
#18
  • Started checking weight & announce I will lose weight lol
  • But did not started diet just started to avoid junk food at all cost
  • Saw lil pornography but immedetly closed it
  • Spoke with a crush but that spark was not there :frowning:

Rest Day 10

  • I am sleeping earlier than previous which is tremendous progress
  • Woke up only 2 times last night
  • I have activated Digital Detox on my 2 devices specially in night
  • I am also activating Digital Detox if I am stalking or seeking validation from girls
  • Losing weight but didn’t yet started protein based diet
  • Yesterday I got creative with one solution…I like what i did & learn
  • My today’s 15 goals all are based on seduction lol…looks like I have to do something about not interfere these things with my regular life
  • Today I decided to listen audio book Sex genius pleasure her as much as I can…lets see how much I can able to listen
  • Listen upto 3 hours but after book turn out be more visual…which I cant imagine…I will rather watch than forcing my imagination

Rest Day 11

Sub Day 12

Yesterday I slept well & didn’t even remember whether I listen to sub or not

Listen to AC at morning & also EoF after that

Rest Day 13

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#19

Sub Day 14

  • Listen to Khan ST1 at night while sleeping
  • had various vivid dreams & symbols
  • woke up 2 times
  • saw phone after waking up…need Digital Detox on phone for not wasting time…in middle of the night
  • slept again & again Had a marathon of various vivid dreams
  • slept well without antidepressant
  • anxiety is there…negative thinking is there
  • listen to DR st1 after breakfast
  • Doing some morning routine now
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#20

Rest Day 18

Really sad I haven’t written a journal for the last 4 days…because I was very hurt
I had a huge fight with my family & in the anger, I broke my smartphone which was very expensive :frowning:

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#21

Sorry to hear this I’m sure things will workout for you try to channel that anger and transmute it to smashing your goals

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#22

I wish your every word will come true

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#23

Sub Day 19

Yesterday I tried MCT oil & OMG this product is magic like a sub
It took one hour for its effect & then I felt the energy…extreme positive energy
now I get why @SaintSovereign mentioned in for recon & the recon is the main reason for my smartphone got break

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#24

Sub day 21

Please please don’t be me and multiverse stack like me

Its not easy and too much recon even overexposure despite only 3 subs

I am now looking forward for st2 of khan and eof

Healing part will be taken care by Dr st2

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#25

Hey @weir!

I just noticed your healing journal, and I’d like to help :slight_smile:

Congrats on your commitment to a journey of deep recovery and healing, and also congrats on getting through the first 21 days! I understand that you must be feeling exhausted right now, so really allow yourself some time to recover. Deep healing can be rough, and the recon can be especially so. But you have decided that you want to commit to deep and through healing, and that’s huge - so kudos to you!

Have you had any previous experience with Khan or Dragon Reborn?

What is your current listening schedule and plan?

I noticed that none of the previous Dragons (that I know of) had commented here yet, so I figured I’d just jump right in and offer my support and encouragement. DR is by no means an easy sub (nor is Khan), and we need to help each other through it when it gets rough. :slight_smile:

Now, I am not going to tell you what to do of course, but I would like to offer my perspective and experience.
And I tell you this with nothing but brotherly love, without any judgement whatsoever :relaxed:

For me (back in the Qv2 days) stage 1 was awful and stage 2 was also difficult, and what got me through it was to run it together with Love Bomb, and I dearly recommend pairing your heavy healing titles with a sub that will also lift your spirit, like Love Bomb, or Sanguine, or Chosen From Within. One of those’ll do.

Before I started with Dragon Reborn I had the chance to “prime” myself with a whole month of listening to Love Bomb, and I think that it made a huuuge difference in how difficult stage 1 and 2 was for me. I just want to emphasize that adding something like that really help you getting through the rough parts. It gave me strength and hope that I could pull through it and emerge on the others side of it - as a whole and healed person. Just consider adding one of them to your stack - It’ll help both immediately and in the long run :slight_smile:

And I’d like for you to contemplate on something, and you’ll have to decide for yourself… but I personally think that maybe running Khan and Dragon Reborn at the same time could be too heavy right now.

Indeed it might make the healing process way too difficult and lead to a detrimental effect instead due to perpetually heavy recon. Or maybe even worse - it might feel so hard that it could potentially discourage you from healing subs for a very long time ahead - which could be devastating in so many ways.

A total breakdown is difficult as it is when done with one of these titles, but running two at the same time might just be too taxing and causing too much recon. Take this washout period and consider if it might be too much to do all at once. And really, you won’t have to wait until you’ve completed both DR and Khan in order to start feeling better.

If you were to settle with either one of them, and paired with an uplifting sub, I am sure you will get positive results faster than you’d expect. You’ll start feeling good soon enough, and in a couple of months from now you’ll be asking yourself why you were in such a hurry. I know I did.

But then again… when I first started with DR I felt like I was emotionally hemorrhaging all over the place, and the only thing I kept thinking about was that I wanted all the hurting to stop :sweat_smile:

Anyway, I just want to help you do this and succeed with your healing in the best way possible. Give me a ping here or a DM if you hit a rough spot or just want to talk! :relaxed:

Edit: I also wanted to add that if you feel uncertain if you are ready with one particular stage, it’s OK to stay on that for a longer time. When asking “When should I proceed to the next stage?” the answer was “When you feel that you have gotten enough from your current stage to fully benefit from the next” - or something to that end.

“Grow slow and steady, and you’ll get there” - everyone kept saying :grimacing:

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#26

yep very much

Thanks, my problem is that I have lost precious years of my life doing nothing just procanistated with too much emotional trauma…few years wasted in something possessed me others in porn …didn’t completed college degree untill now

I know that i have enough sabotaged myself & too many inner issues no daring no-confidence weird porn is also an extra thing to be taken care of

money issue, family issues, heart Borken failure issue, things i only imagined but never achieved…I have wasted my life :frowning: :frowning:

I am not unable to write further though I wanted to say to many things

I am new to subgame…I only started 3 or 4 months ago where New zp technology was introduced…

in started before joining the forum I was abusing sub-daily listening to it at night while sleeping…of course I felt much difference where my doubt covered into belief & here I am joined this forum to get more insight

I knew the rules of zp but still I keep on changing my stack…in the previous cycle I randomly listen to subs just like pay as you go service :frowning:

I keep on the reading forum where I got to know I need to have self-discipline & stick to my stack…at that time i just watch the spiderman trailer (still didn’t watch movie) then I I got an idea to start a multiverse here multi-stage journey

So that I can stick to my subs for 4 fucking months…but then I chose 5 subs :slight_smile: instead of 3 & the other 2 was also multi-stage :slight_smile:

top of that I one time listened to a loop of diamond where I just lost myself & got scolded by a few members & specially @SaintSovereign … I came to my sensed & removed other 2 subs

after that fellow forum, members even told me these 3 subs I choose is actually very heavy & i should be stuck to 1 multi stage & other non-multi stage subs…which they are right

but my problem of non-sticking to subs got me to continue this journey…

so tp short answer to your question no I didn’t listen to DR or Khan before

day 1

DR ST2, Khan ST2

Day 2

Eof ST2

ofcourse after 5 days of washout

the main reason would be I didn’t share my whole journey here…I cant explain what terrible things are happening with me right now

Subs like Wanted, Chosen from within changed me but these 2 subs dr & khan are just too much where i didn’t have much energy to share everything

sometimes things were too bad in last week or so,I stopped doing my daily routine…But I am now optimistic about ST2 of specially khan sub…to change everything & feed me new programming

Since I didnt share much…others didnt feel my journey worth following or reading or replying…goid knows…I don’t care…I just want to become best version of myself in my real life

please do share your insights I would love to learn & get benefit form it because its for my own good

I surely wanted to do this but here my mind forcing me to stick to these subs & get going…I dont know what that force r thing which is keeping me moving towards these subs

DR being DR promising utmost healing which it is going in my soul & keep bringing things which was happened years or decades ago

Khan further stages promising sex seduction & dominating life alpha male with tons of wealth…even I am more excited about ST3 total action…yep action which I am lacking my whole life

EoF ST2…only loop of ST1 showed me what kind of magic subs can perform…I dont think I will ever remove this sub from my stack after 4 months too…this much this sub showing me results in gym

that’s why I didn’t added or don’t want to be added in next cycle…with no disrespect, this is why I am committing to staying on these sub for next 3 months

I hope @SaintSovereign will allow me at least adding love bomb as 4th sub or weekly twice …maybe :slight_smile:

Yep its too much for sure…I am like this my whole life…I just want to have everything best of best instead starting small :frowning:

I lost my dear flasgship smartphone & too many fights…what worse I can tell you

:frowning:

Khan ST2 don’t have a healing part? am I right…Its like installing new things in my brain?

yep only washout can tell me how many minds take these subs

love bomb I am coming :slight_smile:

another reason to start these 2 subs to kill possessiveness but now I think any alpha would be better or even I should continue CFW

Thanks mate…its like a godsend me an angel to guide me in this rough time…you don’t know how your words gave me utmost support…Thanks again

I will surely ping or DM you…please be free to tell if I annoyed you too much :slight_smile:

Nah Nah I just want to move to Stage 2 & stop this nightmare

sure mate…Thanks again

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#27

Washout Day 4

I am not updating this jouranl as I supoosed to because lots of up & down going in my life right now

I can still feel healing is happening despite its been 4 days I havent listen to any sub

Today I went tp physiotehrapy to show my knee, shoulder & back delt which is been injured :frowning:

seduction game is way down

productivity back to zero

office work…somewhat good now…with constant jumping…one time i felt they will remove me

wealth ceilings are now closed…didn’t pay the CC bill yet

Hoping best from KHan ST2 day after tomorrow

wish me luck

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#28

Hey! How are you doing today? How is does ST2 feel?

I hear you bro, and I recognize a lot if that in myself. But you know what? You are here now, and you have had enough and are now gearing up to (finally!) face your own inner demons. Once and for all. Keep that in mind - your healing journey has just begun! It’s not going to be easy but it IS going to be worth it :slight_smile: Just try to be compassionate towards yourself while you are sifting through the chaos and inner turmoil. You’ll emerge from it, eventually :slight_smile:

That… ought to have induced A LOT of recon… As you most likely already know. And it must have made you feel like crap afterwards… I can only imagine :scream: It’s good that you decided to join the forum because learning how to use these very powerful subliminals properly is imperative to success.

Any “scolding” done by the others here are only because they want you to succeed, that’s all :slight_smile:
And they are not wrong - those subs are heavy. And yes, trying out various titles are part of the process, especially for a newcomer. And also being unable to “stick” to a certain stack is many times a sign of recon - but that being said, it is also important to self reflect whether one’s stack is currently too much.

From what I can tell you want to run three multistages; Khan, DR, and EoF (Emperor Fitness, right?).

I know both DR stage 1 AND 2 felt destabilizing for me, and it wasn’t until stage 3 that I started to feel like I was being put together again as a whole person. Just a little something to keep in mind :slight_smile:

So, if this round of stage 2 gets too heavy, my suggestion would be to hold of DRst2 for a while and only run Khan, EoF, and some sort of soothing title, like Love Bomb. This because DRst2 is also destabilizing like I mentioned, and I understand that you want to start to fell better as soon as possible.

Again, not telling you what to do - just sharing my experience and infinite (lol) wisdom. :sweat_smile:
If you try to push for progress too much with a heavy stack but instead induce heavy recon - you will in fact be further away from feeling good, which is counter to what you are trying to achieve, right?

And it’s alright. Deep healing is an emotional rollercoaster, for sure. Just try to do it as much as you can - we are all here to help. And also, some things are better suited in a private journal, for your reflections only. It’s a great way to clear your own thoughts and to channel some of that frustration.

Ooh sorry to hear that. What happened?

Sounds like recon to me. And remember that the “listening” part is not when the change itself takes place, but rather afterwards. We call that “installing” and “blooming”. Most subliminals really show themselves afterwards or during washouts so keep in mind that healing from ST1 are still in effect - so be kind to yourself (and your surroundings!) and remind yourself about things that can be signs of recon. This so you can be more understanding and compassionate with yourself :slight_smile:

And lastly, I hear you, and I respect your commitment. I would however like to challenge you to reflect on what your top 3 priorities/objectives would be right now. And which one of these would you put on the absolute top? And which two subliminal titles would help you get there? This way you can indeed add a soothing title and also avoid inducing heavy recon like you described above.

Just think about it, ok? :slight_smile:

Also, have you had the chance to try Ascension Chamber? It’s a title you run once per week, and I heard many mention (myself included) how it makes them feel good and also decrease recon - among other things.

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#29

will start from the mid night…still on washout day 5

Your words give me strength…Thanks

You got me, bro…I will stop DR right away & will continue with Khan…instead of love bomb should I choose CFW…I tried CFW in past…hmmm let’s see I have time to think about it

So no more DR now…I will run Khan, Eof & LoveBomb / CFW

I don’t know…suddenly my knee is acting up…calf pain low back pain & even shoulder pain…I don’t know its related to sub or not

yep…you are right

yep bad commitment made me lose money & fucking stupid in front of the world & now I am sensing mixing DR & khan was a bad idea

i also was listening to EoG & QL both ST1

I was stupid even to mix this subs with a fiction movie which I watched on Sunday…& I didn’t enjoy that much too :slight_smile:

no more multiverse bro…

Yeah, I tried twice in two weeks except in these washout periods…I only take washout seriously since discovering subs

AC brings the worst out to me but now I can understand because these heavy titles with AC only done worst to me

I will definitely report tomorrow’s effects of the love bomb :slight_smile:

Thanks, mate…it always brings smile to my face when i see notification with your name

God bless you

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