I think the ability to consciously force yourself can come from dragon reborn’s healing AND rejuvenation.
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Emperor Black has been pretty healing to me also, I have been expressing my love to my friends and to the ladies in a dominant, healthy and non-needy manner. Yesterday I ran a full loop of Emperor Black and the results today are better than the 3 minutes for me. More clear, more disciplines. Although recon sneaked in and I started meditating for 20 minutes under the sun; despite the vanish of recon. I COULD meditate for TWENTY minutes, in this between the sense of frustration started to surface, at first I thought about quitting; but I consciously removed the tie of the thought with my identity and it became insignificant and I could continue my meditation for a longer time.
In the morning: I slept at 2 am and at 8:00-8:30–I was feeling SUCH negative emotions to wake up-I remember @fire 's kick in the rear phrase. Other days I was sleeping at 12 and waking up at 9 or 10 
And for the first time after a lot of procrastination I stand up and went to sell my staff, but I saw my work shoes were f**d since I played football with them; I took the shoes to the stiching guy and he told me to come 1-2 hours later, I came back and started meditation. After that started reading the book ‘‘accounting for dummies’’ book. but after a few minutes I realized I am tired and my mind is foggy and I was also experiencing recon as anxiety and headache…–I COULD go to work, and I had the necessary willpower, but I took an hour nap and jumped out of sleep( how I woke up is pretty funny 
, I though I peed on my place and was f scared hahah.
And now I am here, feeling kinda refreshed and focused. But I feel I need more sleep. So I will start reading that book again and sleep if tired.
I also ran a full loop of another title with Emperor Black yesterday.
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I am not sure about this, But I think I realized that reputation is very important, by some reason my reputation on the forum was ruined. And no matter what I said, people were putting it on my attention seeking aspect. Gotta be careful.
Another realization I had is that full loops are better than smaller loops to me. WAIT UNTIL RECON HITS 
–I listened to two sub yesterday, full loop each. 
Emojis on this forum are so cool.
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Yeah, making a madman or a fool of oneself doesn’t serve one’s reputation. Nor being honest like I am now does. 
Anyway, it’s good to see you’ve chilled out, mate. We need to be careful on the way of self-exploration SC offers us. That’s all.
HAHA, thanks. I concur, subconscious mind can be powerful at times.
For now my final stack is Paragon Complete, Emperor Black and The X title. I have not decided what my 3rd title to be.
I want to get rich and also have a girlfriend. But wealth is the primary goal. And I don’t mean Alpha subs, cuz emperor black us alpha enough. I think something like EOG would be better. Since it has romantic empire stuff.
@SaintSovereign DO EOG and Emperor Black have specific romance scripting? Even in small portions?
To day is my listening day, two titles, one is emperor black, another ris not decided.
Yesterday was rest day and today I overslept, woke up tired and anxious. And there is also an undertone of irritation. Which is definitely reconciliation. I was supposed to listen to my stack hours ago in the morning. But I am waiting.
I think I should get ready for an unproductive day.
I thinky axiety and tiredness is from paragon complete which I ran the day before yesterday.
I am more satisfied with it being the paragon reconciliation, since it heals you on a physical level.
Today is Wednesday and I listened to 1 loop of libertine and one loop of Emperor Black on Saturday.
So this was my listening schedule.
Last night I also got thirsty when sleeping. Maybe that is paragon complete.
I hope so.
- Listen to your stack
- Don’t
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Should I?
I decided to listen to full loops
And here is the recon
Anyways
I am getting sunlight for 30 minutes I guess.
And I think recon is faded.
So I’ll listen again
Well reocn is faded
Since I came back to people and Kinda feel no recon.
Sunlight work wonders for recon.
I am at the point where I feel I CAN go to work and start grinding
So I will listen to my loops
Currently listening to WANTED emperimental, next will be Emperor Black. 
Minutes after the anxiety faded, now another very very very(even unnoticeable) mild undertone of anxiety starts again and also a mild headache.
It’s so flactuating, the headaches comes and gones, I wanna write it’s gone and again it comes a bit haha, I just wanna add that a bit of tiredness is also added.
I also had a bad sleep last night.
Dropped paragon sleep🤦
My results on EOG sr1, Emperor Black and WANTED
I am feeling neck pain on EOG ST1 as @AlexanderGraves mentioned.
And it’s pretty noticeable, especially if I move my neck.
But it’s recon, what to do🤷
Wait.
It will vanish.
You can also meditate. Work out. Etc.
It’s recon. It goes away. Sit through it. Embrace it.
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Honestly I am a bit frustrated
It’s not recon frustration, ut’s the fact that no matter what sub I run, I can’t have discipline.
I hope EOG resolve it.