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#12

Took a couple extra rest days & debating washing out from this possibly short lived stack… the new titles are very intriguing!

I’ve noticed where I have created supposed limits on myself in order to please others & seemingly care what they think to the point of abandoning my true self… who really is the real me though?

Underneath the societal standards and expectations, family dynamics and programming, etc. underneath all the layers of crap, what lies there to be awakened nourished, and loved?

When does the cycle of healing blocks and shadow work come to a end? Is it really just a distraction or a sneaky way to avoid being the extraordinary person you are truly meant to be?

Sometimes when I experience recon, I feel this surge of anger, rage, sadness & annoyance relating to what I shared above and what I am about to share creep in and all over me. Triggering events make manifest very quickly too. Self defeating prophecy or victimization sets in. Briefly, but it still appears meaning there is still work to be done on my climb to the top as the empress, goddess, queen, divine feminine I truly want to become in all aspects of my life.

Anyways here is the big trigger: (I have mentioned this group in previous journals.)

I almost left a Neville Goddard Law of Assumption/Attraction Facebook group I have been following for over 2 years, which I have claimed to be a family or community with that fellowship vibe… I have invested 1000’s of dollars and time into this community mainly with the leader. I find myself thinking the leader is some sort of a cult leader who has the ability to impress upon people’s subconscious in subtle sneaky ways, where they feel like they need more and more of his courses/packages… this endless deep dive of more discovering… not sure why this fires me up so much… he is genuinely a lovely human being and has a business to run, but where do you draw the line between serving and selling?

He reached out to me inviting me to join his one course I have done 4 times already… when he knows I am focused solely on my yoga teacher training… wtf ???

I do love many people from this community but it seems like people are brainwashed… it saddens me. Maybe I am way off here.

Anyways, a lot of processing going on since adding one loop of LBFH other day.

I have zero tolerance for bs drama.

My bf and I have been having a disconnect for awhile now with less intimacy. I am more focused inward on loving myself while also raising 3 kids with different dads and studying my course hardcore.

I circle back around to questioning, why am I here and what is my greatest purpose? I feel I have some bold and highly impactful journey ahead helping millions…

Excuse my random ranting today. Off I go to the lake with some yummy food and nature.

More to come…… :kissing_heart:

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#13

Here are some cards I pulled today which struck a cord or 3 for me:

IN THE WORLD, NOT OF THE WORLD

We are conditioned to believe in the things that keep us from our destiny. We can unlearn that conditioning, peeling it back and shedding it in layers. Fear-based beliefs about security, money and time can fall away, as if dropping out of your hands as keys, coins and clocks.

Sometimes we feel that we need our defences. Sometimes, it is clear we are outgrowing them. You have outgrown something from your past. It has to do with your ideas about productivity, time, control and money. It has to do with abundance, trust and living with the inner certainty that everything is going to be OK.

Embrace the psychic delayering taking place. It might be an identity or belief system that is falling away, or a status symbol or life plan that is suddenly no longer relevant to you. You are shedding because no matter what the appearance of things, those old forms were too constricting for you. Your surrender will help you more than holding on ever could. So let go with the knowledge that all will be well.

THE WORD WANTS TO BE WRITTEN

The process of activating your life path is a natural one. The effort is in getting out of the way, not in making something happen. Being yourself is the foundation from which your true life path reveals itself.

What you are seeking to create, live or manifest, is actually very natural for you. That is why you want to do it. The natural self is always within, urging us to live authentically, even beneath the accumulated layers of societal conditioning that may leave us feeling that we are not enough just as we are.

What you want to write, sing, dance or become, is you. To claim it, is to claim your natural self, to love yourself and be true to your authentic life path and soul journey. Confront the power that any old shaming has had over you. Acknowledge how gorgeous you are and get on with your work. What you want to create, wants to be created. The word wants to be written – by you.

BIG BOLD VISION

When you connect with your heart’s truest, biggest, boldest vision you might feel a little dizzy with the shrinking limitations and expanding possibilities.

As you heal and grow into manifesting your sacred vision, you can touch the hearts of others through your presence, your inner work, your art and your choices. Those that are ready to live big, bold and visionary lives need to give themselves permission to break the mould and forge newer, more expansion perspectives of what is possible, what is permitted and what is of service. Others will benefit from this. Even though it is your vision, it is not just about you!

When something is right for you, endless synchronicities and support will flow your way, at the right time and in the right way. Stay open, receptive, playful and surrendered. Trust that things will be coming up roses for you. Even if everything seems to be in a bit of a shambles now, and there are some thorns to deal with too, it’s really just the essential mess before a truly spectacular and soulful success.

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#14

To add:

I’ve been playing more music on the keyboard and imagining various ways I can share my voice with the world. I’ve been having flashbacks from my childhood where I was drawn to communication arts & science. I used to film myself with a camcorder in the 90s. I recorded myself singing and talking about various subjects. I loved to create commercials, media and tv shows. I learned and performed various artists material.

I was raised a Jehovah’s Witness with a father who didn’t support my worldly desires.

I almost went to university for communication studies in my early 20’s but plans changed with the arrival of my first born in 2010.

I truly believe you don’t need a degree to succeed in this field and there will be many opportunities ahead for me.

Grateful for this community.

I’m chatty today! :grinning::metal:t2:

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#15

Washed out from a short listening cycle.

Wasn’t working out for me the way I had expected.

Time for a change…

Symmetry — Helen of Troy (HoT) & Genesis for 21 days…

:metal:t2::metal:t2::metal:t2:

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#17

Just got on my knees and fed my bf cake… I’ve never done that before :joy:

He said, “that was nice of you to do that!”

Alrighty then.

I feel stoned but I didn’t smoke anything. :grinning:

Main Disc. Thread - Genesis ZP
#18

“Ideas are impressed on the subconscious through the medium of feeling. No idea can be impressed on the subconscious until it is felt, but once felt – be it good, bad or indifferent – it must be expressed. Feeling is the one and only medium through which ideas are conveyed to the subconscious. Therefore, the man who does not control his feeling may easily impress the subconscious with undesirable states. By control of feeling is not meant restraint or suppression of your feeling, but rather the disciplining of self to imagine and entertain only such feeling as contributes to your happiness. Control of your feeling is all important to a full and happy life.”

Neville Goddard, Feeling is the Secret

# These subs help make this task much easier for me!

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#20

I feel more confident with the idea of an OnlyFans profile with my bf. Very specific things where my face or tattoos won’t be exposed for privacy reasons.

That idea floated around in my mind for years.

Sounds like something fun that won’t feel like work.

Creative way to make money.

I was brushing my teeth the night of listening to this stack for the first time, suddenly asking my bf if he would do certain things with me on OF. He is totally game!

Wow :hushed:

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#21

I feel sad for some reason.

Wonder what’s going on?!

#22

I feel much better today.

Felt a headache coming on with slight hunger this morning. I’m used to intermittent fasting for over 2 years now.

I don’t usually eat my first meal under after noon sometime.

The headache passed really quickly though.

I’ve noticed I am peeing more like I did with LBFH. I feel some healing going on around fear.

I did listen to LBFH once last week though.

The bladder is linked to the emotion of fear, willpower and security. This relates to the lower 3 chakras as well. This is also connected with the element of water according to Chinese Medicine Theory. The yin aspect. The feminine. The moon :crescent_moon:.

Through nourishment of the yin qualities we begin with harmonizing and balancing the body & its relationship to nature.

I am studying this in my yoga teacher training.

I am feeling this today.

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Main Disc. Thread - A Love Bomb For Humanity (FREE Title!) (Nov. 2023 Updated with New Subliminal Experience!)
#23

Yeah, I’m experiencing the same on Genesis. It’s related to the energy consumption required to power Genesis auras. Our metabolism has sped up to meet those energetic requirements.

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#24

Day 5/21 ~ listening day. Genesis & HoM.

I wonder if people actually read my journal posts.

What the point and purpose really is.

My boyfriend started subs other day & has this perception of me disrespecting him and not appreciating him or providing his needs enough. That he provides so much for me and it’s not even. He is very wealthy and has been the main financial provider for me since leaving my career to build my business.

I don’t agree though and don’t feel it’s the truth. Maybe I am wrong here.

It’s almost like he’s using a projection, a sabotage, a way to avoid and be rejected from something amazing.

Like the wounded masculine coming out and I won’t entertain it.

I’ve done so much work on myself and feel frustrated by this.

Wonder why it’s happening.

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#25

I have been but I’m pretty careful about commenting in people’s journals. Been trying here and there when I think I can contribute in my own way, but I’m so inexperienced with subliminals that I try to keep all of my BS thoughts in my own journal and stfu otherwise :man_shrugging:t5:

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#26

I was reading your journal other day actually! :relaxed:

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#27

I just had a good cry as I read over my card reading shared above.

Decided to erase and write some new words on my whiteboard.

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I know that part of me feels guilty to enjoy life, have fun and feel joy because I have family members who dwell in suffering. A mom who one upped me. Who made everything about herself. She didn’t know how to support me or truly be proud of me. I was someone she resented for my achievements and success because she didn’t even finish high school, had a failed marriage to my father and ended up with MS on disability.

I don’t feel good even saying this as I want the best for her and everyone in this world.

I am worthy of great things regardless of her stuff.

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#28

You said he’s running Rebirth right?

Just my viewpoint on what it could potentially be. That one gets heavy. I think you’re right it’s projection. He might be intertwined with his past now and noticing patterns that cause him harm. That sounds like a transactional belief system, like “If I do x y and z I will receive this thing in return”. He’s got a whole paradigm being turned on its head right now and in a way it’s violating his sense of safety with what it means for close relationships. Ask him where he thinks this is coming from, it sounds like a past hurt coming up.

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#29

Yes!

Rebirth and Limit Destroyer.

Definitely sounds like a transactional belief system.

Curious what it means for his sense of safety in a close relationship.

I’ll explore this further.

He gets defensive when I try to talk about things of this nature.

Maybe I need a better way of communicating.

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#30

That’s a really tough one. It sounds like you’re already an open communicator. A very fine line between understanding people more vs having them walk on top of you. This definitely sounds more like he needs to meet you there rather than you reaching out more.

Maybe if things continue to be rough for him add the original Sanguine to the stack in place of Limit Destroyer?

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#31

Love Bomb has been added. 5 minute loop. 🫶🏼

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