Ran first loop of BILLionaire V3.1. Full.
It has all 4 EoG cores along with R.I.C.H. core.
Stacked with IrresistiBILL V2 (Wanted Black and S&SX cores)
Guess we’ll see what comes to mind. Headed to sleep now!
I want to build a custom of EoG St1 + RoW and a custom of Primal + Sex and Seduction, can you write your full customs so I may take inspiration?
BILLionaire V1
BILLionaire V2
BILLionaire V3
IrresistiBILL V1
IrrestiBILL V2
IrresistiBILL V3
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So you are gonna run all 4 stages of new EoG at once without ever having run them before?
Its sad watching people like this and james sub hop and not get any significant results.
Says who?
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That’s the plan. I ran old EoG before. I’m not scared.
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OK so I bought a copy of Atlas Shrugged for Cart Girl. Got myself one too since I want a copy for my shelf, instead of just on Kindle.
Took it to work today and put it in a spare locker, and slapped a combo lock that uses a 4-letter word combo.
I set it to a specific word.
Figured I’d tell her I left her a gift in that locker, tell her the code, etc.
kept chickening out most of the night about that even.
but…
we got to talking about her job before the store, working the laundromat that’s in the front of the building.
and at one point, she was talking about how bad the laundromat owner was with money.
balances never matching up, thinking it was employees stealing, etc.
then she said “I gave him ideas for tracking it better. Which he implemented and still uses. But one reason I ended up quitting is he always only paid minimum wage, even after I helped him so much.”
I said “You gave him ideas, and he used them?”
“Yeah!”
at that moment, shit in my head clicked in regards to her.
I said “I left you a gift in locker 54. The lock code word is (the code). I’ll tell you later why I picked that word.”
just BAM.
because in that moment, I imagined her giving this guy ideas, which worked. reminded me of me (at the water company job I had) but also of Dagny. all hesitation just left my body.
She likes that I got her the book, because I’ve been raving about it since I finished it 
I told her that I’d never have met her had I not read that book, given it’s what pushed me to change jobs, and I only met her at work as she started a week after me.
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Sub-wise, today’s stack was 10 mins each of Khan Black ST1, IrresistiBILL V2, and BILLionaire V3 (the new upgrade).
I bring that up because something happened after Cart Girl left for the night, and I was the only person left closing out carts for the night for 2 hours.
When she was there, and we were talking about the book as mentioned above, in my head I kept getting lost in her eyes, trying not to be too obvious about it, etc.
I usually think to myself how she’s easy on the peepers. But this time, I was taking it all in. Talking about the book, and thinking to myself how I wanted to kiss and hold her so much.
It was beyond just thinking “Man, she’s hot”. I couldn’t even mentally describe it fully at that time.
Later, after she left, I was thinking back on that moment, and realized that I think I want to BUILD something with her.
The scene in the book when Rearden first gives in to his desire and kisses Dagny, then asks “Do you want it?” with a sly grin… I felt like I could do that.
The weird thing that happened, is as I was thinking the part about wanting to build something with her, I wasn’t thinking about sex itself at first.
Thinking about wanting to build an empire with her turned me on like crazy.
I felt my dick come alive. Which has been a while to pop a spontaneous boner like that.
I credit the tadalafil a bit of course. It helps with erections (even with Type 2 diabetic diagnosis like I have).
But more I think Khan Black ST1 came into play, intermingling with EoG.
It felt surreal to be walking around the parking lot grabbing carts, and sporting wood.
I definitely love the girl. I’m just waiting until she reads the book to see if it’s just a sex thing or if it runs deeper like I suspect.
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Cart Girl got off at 9 last night. I was scheduled to close (I only ever close). I told her I wanted to leave early and go to Denny’s. Asked her if she wanted to go 
She was tired though.
I was only gonna go if she wanted to go. Didn’t tell her that however.
I’m surprised I even asked. Pleasantly surprised.
It’s probably a good thing I didn’t end up going to Denny’s with her.
Wife was off (works there as a cashier). She’d have eventually heard that I left work early.
Then started asking questions.
I’m not sure exactly what’s changed in me that I even asked though. I like it.
Just got back in that locker to leave her the link to one of my websites. I hadn’t been in there since the night I gave her the book. And saw she left me something that night.
“Action is the antidote to despair.” ~ Joan Baez
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Last night (well into this morning) I ended up watching a few of Mike Haines’ videos on his YT channel.
Weird, yet interesting, stuff.
Stuff like how women seem to be drawn to a serial killer vibe.
Watched all those, then went to sleep, and as I fell asleep, I listened to Cart Girl’s voice talking to me in my head. It calmed that low-level anxiety that I have. Not quite as good as being with her in-person. But close.
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Dream
I’m back in my hometown. Walking down the street. Decide I want to go visit this place where I used to work.
It’s the place where I started in the manufacturing/assembly side, and when that got shipped out to Mexico, I went and worked in their tech support department taking first-line calls.
I wanted to see if it’d changed much from what I remember. (I worked there 2007-2009 timeframe).
(side note: In real life, When I worked there, and was in the tech support side already, there was a slow night and I walked back over to where the mfg side used to be, and was getting nostalgic at all the stuff that was the same, but also about the stuff that was different, renovations, etc.)
It took a while to find a door into the place (ONCE I found it. A theme in the dream was about how much of the place wasn’t actually as I remembered it. Like I was remembering things wrong or with rose-colored glasses).
I was walking with 2 other people I worked with there before (not real people. Just in the dream)
We finally found an odd door in, and there was an ID printer there, and we realized we could print out temporary IDs for ourselves)
We use the temporary IDs and go in, and in the room where everyone is on lunch break, there’s tons of people in there. But it’s silent. They all look miserable. Hardly moving. I ask one of them why it’s so quiet.
Me: “Are you all afraid to talk?”
“They don’t like us to.”
Me: “So? What are they gonna do?”
“You’re right!”
Then a murmur starts spreading through the crowd “He’s right!” over and over. And suddenly the place is alive with people being happy and lit up.
I keep walking and looking for all my old haunts in the building.
Have a hard time finding most of them.
Found one but it was a super secret area that my temporary ID won’t let me into (It’s one of the sections I used to work in when there before making the jump to tech support).
I ask one guy if the “Reclamations” section in the back of the building was still around. He looked annoyed at me for asking “Yes, but I’m not telling you how to get there.”
Reclamations was a section where old RAID arrays and hard drives would get put for people to try and repair/get working at their desks. As pet projects.
Anyway, the whole dream seemed to be about me revisiting past “structures” (in the form of the building) and realizing most of it wasn’t ever what I thought it was. OR it’s changed drastically. Leaning toward the former though.
Like I’m remembering things that just weren’t actually so.
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IrresistiBILL V3 in the works once I’ve got money to build it:
I’ve just ordered IrresistiBILL V3
- Heartsong Core
- S&SX Core
- New Romance Experience Core
- Alexander’s Play
- Attachment Destroyer
- Furious Ascent
- Hegemon
- King’s Radiance
- Limiting People Remover
- Love Without Attachment
- Submodel Alpha
- Synergy: At The Top
- Synergy: Beyond Seduction
- Synergy: Divine Dominion
- Synergy: Inescapable Gaze
- Synergy: Perfection Manifestation
- Synergy: Primordial Aura
- Synergy: Secrets of Seduction
- Synergy: Subconscious Mastery
- Synergy: Voice is the law
Given why I’m building this one, it’s gonna get a long-term bout of listening time. So I’m not scared/worried about the number of synergy modules there. Before anyone says anything.
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I wouldn’t have said anything. You’re old enough. But I had my own thoughts about it. At least until I read the last paragraph. How long do you plan to run this?
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As long as it takes into I feel I don’t need it anymore.
Elaborate
Mostly this:
Also, I just recently started to follow your journal without reading older ones.
The following isn’t meant as judgement in any form.
If it’s to private, let me know, and I’ll delete this second part of my answer.
I still don’t understand what you’re after seduction wise. You’re married. And it seems like you’re liking the sexual relationship with your wife.
You’re not in a open relationship, are you?
To me it felt like you’re committed to your wife.
So why making it harder for you?
Why adding so much seduction?
The whole Cart-Girl situation already seems painful for you.
It kinda reminds me of my younger self. Flirting with a woman I adored, knowing that it will not bear fruit, still enjoying being in love for being in loves sake.
It was kinda like self torture, but I savored it nevertheless.
Do you plan to add more of this “falling for a wonderful women without ever letting her know” to your life?
Sorry, if this is to personal.
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