Hey everyone, I went on a short break recently due to a trip this past weekend but don’t worry, I’ll be back to regular journaling soon.
21 days of the stack is on Saturday. After the break that’ll follow I’m going to do EB + Khan ST3 instead of EB + EF ST4 
Rest Day.
It definitely needed to be a rest day, given all the sleep challenges I had during my recent trip. I tried my best to sleep in, only to find myself waking up at a regular time. Yet I still found it promising for I accomplished it without the use of my usual sleep supplement (instead I’m using a certain novel supplement that’s going to be fairly temporary).
I still lifted in the morning since I was eager to make progress, especially on my arms using the new equipment I got. It was a good workout, though I struggled with the usual weights (probably due to sleep). The most interesting thing here is that a certain girl looked in my direction quite a few times, and near the end of my workout in her area I felt that she looked at me a bit longer than usual. I felt like going to her and saying hi, but I stopped myself from doing it because I didn’t know what a good opener would be.
The workday was fairly straightforward as the team was just getting started on its operations for the year. I worked from home, though to be honest there wasn’t much to work on. Smoothly, I transitioned into the evening event which just so happened to be taking place at a restaurant within walking distance. Not only did I have some awesome food but I also got to talk to a bunch of new people! Not that I think I’d see them outside of the event, but it was still fun to go to and allowed me to keep up the momentum of having an eventful year. Not to mention, I got to spread the word about my own social media page which was nice.
In other news…I moved forward with planning for my personal event later in the month (locked in for the following Saturday, a day I intend to run at least Libertine and Khan). I called Sam and talked for a bit about this—it looks like she may be going on her own instead of inviting a +1, so I’ll have to think about who else I’d invite.
Here are some things from recent times, that reflect changes within me.
Listened:
I woke up having dealt with some less-than-ideal sleep, unfortunately. This time, I felt that I was also dealing with a slight sickness, based on the irritation I felt in my throat. I have a feeling the affected sleep I’ve been having recently slightly weakened my immune system. It’s why I went out and bought some medicine to take when needed.
It was another day of working from home, and a fairly lax one at that, too. I did get a fair amount done, just enough to be happy with my progress yet still managed some stuff on the side. My social media page continues to grow and today I am newly connected with a community of people who run similar types of pages and live in the area. I can imagine meeting these people and perhaps collaborating with them in the near future.
Later in the day, I got a fair amount of personal errands done. I didn’t go outside for anything today because I’ve been tired and need to recover from the trip. On a tangent, I recognize that Mercury Retrograde ended yesterday. Now I wonder what is to change and what is to start picking up with greater intensity in my life…
I’m taking a closer look at my diet again in light of what I’m doing with EF and what’s been going on with my sleep. I’m thinking that dinners should be lighter while lunches are okay to be heavier, and I also need to be more strict about my eating window so as to not eat late and affect my sleep. There’s also of course the specific things I choose to eat. I had a fast food dinner and while it was cheap and helped me get the protein I needed for the day, I questioned whether it was the right choice. Sure it’s highly affordable, but I’ve got money. A recent review of my paychecks and their breakdowns reminded me that I can afford more premium, more healthy stuff without breaking the bank. That’s what all the stuff I’ve done for my career has led me to.
I intend to start cooking in the near future—this is a fairly big change because so far I’ve been one to eat outside all the time. It’s too easy, given how the place I work at offers heavily discounted food and how often I plan to do social stuff this year, along with how much I make. Seems my job and its earnings serve as a double-edged sword with regard to cooking, but I’m starting to generate that internal motivation. What motivates me is that I’d be learning a new skill (one I should already know by now) and that I’d be able to eventually customize meals to tailor to my fitness goals.
Listened:
Since today marks 21 days of Stack 1, we’re at the point where I do a washout. The recommended washout time is 5 days. However, I’m going to make it 6 days instead. This is because the event I’m hosting at my place is happening next Saturday (a week from now) and I’d like a strong start to part 2 of Stack 1 (Stack 1b) where I do the following run:
Perfect on a day when I expect quite a few girls going to my place 
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Today’s a relatively quiet day and I’ve kept it that way intentionally. Just want to do errands and also some reflection on my recent trip. At the same time though…it annoys me that people don’t reach out to me to plan or do hangouts or what have you. I get that I’ve taken on a role as leader of my own life, however, I would like others to help me out here! I’m reviewing the manifestation-journal entry that I wrote on this topic.
Anyway, here let’s do the reflection on my recent trip (during which I wasn’t doing any journal entries).
This trip occurred over the period of four days and I did a long drive down to a different part of my state. I was highly motivated to hang out with a special friend of mine, Adam. I’ve actually mentioned Adam before in my previous journal, when he gave me a very emotionally-moving speech that in retrospect marked a significant event of that year. No kidding—the trip was just about us hanging out and also talking about some real shit. I did my intensive trip to this city back in November, so I didn’t feel like I needed to explore a lot during that weekend.
I honestly never thought I’d get to the day where I’d have a friend so inspiring, so significant that I’d be willing to travel all the way across the state just to meet up with them. I certainly know I would not be okay with a long-distance relationship where I’d do that, but now to do that for a friend seemed crazy (I still hold my opinion about the former thing, there are different factors involved.) Honestly, there’s a longtime friend of mine who lives closer than Adam—still several hours away though—and is someone I’ve known for much longer whom I have not done such a visit. It’s a reflection of how impactful Adam has been on my life even though I feel we did not reach such impactful moments until the middle of last year. It just goes to show that I have changed as a person and I have been developing more meaningful connections even in recent times.
I’m not sure I can say this trip is as impactful as the November trip, but that’s fine as I don’t expect all trips to be life-changing. It’s more important that I enjoyed it. With that being said, let’s discuss some more changes here.
I basically decided I won’t continue further conversations with those girls whom I connected with in this city during my last visit in November. One of them turned down a meetup during this trip (flip-flopped on the idea), none were open to phone or video calls before/during/after the trip and overall they just had a weak interest. I don’t find it valuable to be messaging them online for whatever. Sure they can like my content, and I’ll leave it at that. So I consider that thread done for now…yet I will say that I’ve shut the door, but not locked it. I haven’t blocked them outright, but I won’t do anything else either. I’ve thought little about them since coming back home.
I also got more advice regarding Alice from my buddy Adam which basically reinforced my current plan of action which revolves around getting to know her friends more rather than pursuing her directly. When this many people, especially people who I look up to and respect tell me the same thing, it’s a sign that it’s what I gotta do. Time will tell what happens. I honestly was thinking of reaching out to hang out with Alice today, although she’s one of the people coming over to my place for that event next week. Truth be told, I’m not sure what I’d talk about with her in today’s hypothetical meetup, besides maybe doing some mild flirting. That also does carry some risk, I suppose.
On a related note, I got a better understanding of where Adam is at with respect to dating and relationships since things have changed over the past few months. It turns out we have a few surprising similarities and differences in this regard. I’m very thankful that Adam is a person who gives me such great advice yet is not so judgemental as to disregard me for some of those key differences (granted, I did not share all of my differences). He imparted upon me a piece of wisdom regarding mentorship which is that in mentorship I don’t want to impose my own opinions on them. This I can see especially applicable for life mentorship (maybe as applicable for career mentorship). Yet, it still holds true that Adam is not in a rush himself. This is even given the fact that he’s going to be moving to a rather big city in the near future, where this particular city has a reputation for being good for dating.
He just rests in the knowledge that there will be opportunities within this city, as part of his adventure, where he will be meeting people.
Only typing this out right now do I see how important that attitude is. I can apply that given how Goddard talks about resting in the knowing that the wish is fulfilled, it is done, and creation is finished. Combining this with idea that I am amongst the acres of diamonds right now, Mightn’t I also spend more time resting in the knowing that such opportunities are coming to me right now, instead of worrying about how I should move things along (or whether I need to make things happen right now, such as what I was thinking about involving Alice)?
My manifestation power is so high right now, the only limitation that comes up is my not giving myself permission to have what I want.
And look, I met one of Adam’s friends during the trip where his friend is quite a few years older, yet is not in a relationship and doing fine. I shouldn’t worry so much. It only irks me when there are people—like the relatives I visited during the trip—who ask me such questions as when I’m going to get married. “At the right time” is the only valid answer. Ultimately, nobody can force me to do anything. I wouldn’t even accept arranged marriages. Either I’m in a fulfilling relationship of my own choice, or I am not (and I will be happy either way). No forcing me not a box.
At the end of this trip, I did consider again the idea of moving to this city, even if for a year at most. I’d have an adventure, I’d explore and have fun. But I’m not waiting for that day. I’m where I am right now and I intend to make the most of my time here. That’s why I continue to make my days eventful, and try to plan more events. Although, since coming back I’ve been taking it a little easier and not going to as many times. I know it’s partially due to being tired, and I also know it’s because I’ve wanted to have a more introspective look at my journey so far. Being around people all the time doesn’t easily foster such thoughts.
I wonder if I am feeling recon, because I have quite a bit of anger and upsetness. I do not want to talk to people, yet it feels unsettling being here by myself.
It is a great thing that I will not be listening to subs for the next 6 days.
Rest Day. First of many, considering this is the first day of the washout.
I feel better compared to yesterday. Getting enough sleep helped a lot. I took it fairly easy today, as I worked on personal errands throughout the day. Funny enough, I encountered another person I know in real life on the apps. This individual isn’t someone I’ve actually considered before however, I don’t even talk to them much in real life.
So the event I and my roommate are planning for this coming weekend is shaping up in terms of its attendance. We’ve reached our attendance minimum and at least 50% of the attendees are girls—nice! However, a good portion of them are in relationships… 
. I wasn’t planning on inviting all single women, I felt that the others could help pad the numbers (use the “pre-selection” effect). But if a majority of them are in relationships…? Well, I technically am going to accomplish a proper gender-ratio event, but I am not exactly sure what the point is there. Because it is true, I am interested in meeting more single women who I could potentially be in a relationship with. I guess maybe these people, even if they are in a relationship already, could be introducing me to other people still.
There’s a part of me that’s a little frustrated, with such thoughts as:
I don’t want to have to become the type of person who steals other people’s girls. I’m sure that is possible; Given the kinds of subs, I’m running it’s inevitable that girls who are in relationships with other people are going to start taking an interest in me. But is that really what I need to do? A rather prominent forum member here once stated that the onus of maintaining the fidelity of relationships rests solely on the main people in that relationship and not on those outside of it. Yet even still… Man, I know these kinds of ideas are coming from a scarcity mindset right now, a mindset that needs to be eradicated.
Damn, I know I could go on and on about this. About how I should have done X, Y and Z in the past, or how this problem is so pervasive, whatever. But focusing on the lack in this way simply doesn’t push me forward.
Still man, I’m just tired right now. This must be among the first time I’m getting to this state (again) within the year. This makes me curious about what else is going to come up during the subliminal washout. How much is my internal chatter going to change? Will I receive a bunch of new manifestations?
I’m almost certain I’m dealing with recon and other stuff as a result of the subs.
Please stop running the subliminals for a few days. The recon will clear soon.
Could you tell me what subliminals you are currently running?
Hi @Lion, stack 1 has featured:
I last ran subs on Saturday, which featured the following playlist. Since then, I have been on a washout that’s expected to go until this coming Saturday (so 6 days of no subs).
At this very moment I am listening to 888Hz | Abundant Aura, Remove All Negative Energy Blocks | Angelic Healing Music | NĀDA : DAY 23 - YouTube. I wonder if these kind of audios help at all—anyways it’s been fun listening to all of the NADA tracks as the month has progressed.
What is behind this pain that was irritating me throughout the day? It has to do with the stuff that I talked about in my last entry.. I had a long chat with my good friend Adam about this and I do feel better about it, but here are the key points that were upsetting me:
. That’s not a case that crossed my mind until my convo with Adam, who marked on one such case for himself! .That a girl I was trying to meet up with (met her at an event last month) had to cancel plans just feels like a footnote in the face of all this I struggle with internally.
You are running 4 main store titles plus a YouTube audio. Even if you are running Libertine only once a week, it is still going to be part of your stack.
Now we don’t know what factors are leading you to the pain so I recommend you to stop listening to the YouTube video and also to stop Libertine for the time being.
Stick to EB, Khan and EF4 going forward and see how that goes for you.
Thanks, @Lion !
Okay @SubliminalUser first and foremost you’ve been here awhile. Now what have we said about listening to those YT programs?
EB is probably going to make you introverted. Then you’re running something to make yourself more attractive (Libertine). And you’re wanting a girlfriend, or dates, or whatever you might want…
If you are wanting a woman in your life, EB is probably not the program to be running.
I would first encourage you to make a decision.
For example, do you want to postpone finding a girlfriend (or dates, etc.) and run EB for 60 to 90 days?
If so, perhaps stop running Libertine while running EB. Maybe even stop Khan while running EB.
Or perhaps you could run Emperor instead of EB?
You are also going hardcore on the alpha because you are running EB and Khan together. Do you have any subconscious objections to being an alpha of alphas?
As for Libertine, these aura subliminal, I think, can be very draining on energy.
So rather than running titles with potentially contradictory objective, please make some decisions.
Yea, you have a point there. Even though the YT audios aren’t subs (they’re frequencies) they’re still possibly a conflicting modality. So I’m dropping them.
With regards to EB’s place in my stack…it’s been 21+ days since the start of the stack and only during this washout am I now finding these odd internal conflicts (I should note the pain I was referring to earlier is an emotional one, not a physical one). Yet in my journal entries earlier I clearly see it did not detract from the other items in my stack.
Allow me to quote some of the objectives, bolding those I think connect to the rest of my stack.
It’s due to these and the fact that members have successfully been stacking EB with social subs that motivated my decision to have EB during this stack.
In the middle of my run, I considered running it for 2 stacks as opposed to 1 (considering that the official recommendation is having EB be a part of a playlist for 1-2 stacks but not any longer), however I may just shorten that back to 1 again.
I’d like to also note some experiences similar to mine:
Social Result.
So in terms of my audio strategy, here’s what I’m walking away with:
The washout continues. Let’s take a look at today’s events.
Overall my sentiment of today is pretty good, much better than yesterday that’s for sure. Work kept me fairly busy and I managed to be fairly productive. With regards to work, I’m warming up to the understanding that although I am not looking for a promotion anytime soon, I have been given this gift of job stability and I better appreciate that by continuing to do well at my job. It’s why I’m signing myself up for some fairly ambitious stuff over at my job.
So although my big goals right now have been around social/romance stuff (and my subs mostly reflect that), I better keep in mind the fact that I can better pursue those things with job (financial) stability. No slacking off. That is so much so the case that I am considering enumerating some work goals for myself, just to remind myself that my job and my work still matter. It never stopped mattering—though my attention has been elsewhere at times since getting the promo.
In addition to all the work stuff, I hit a new milestone on my social media page which got plenty of attention. I’m grateful that one of my friends came in clutch and started asking his friends to start following me so that I can hit that milestone.
It also comes into play later in the day when at my usual sports center I end up talking to the girl next to me. Never talked to her before, though I know she is in some relationship due to a conversation that occurred in the mailing list people in our sporting area are on. That didn’t stop me (actually I didn’t consider it), though. She was receptive to the convo so we chatted during the rest of our time there. Quickly was impressed by my social media stuff so we got connected on there, and also exchanged numbers. Because we’re going to the same multi-day sports event next week (yes…this is another trip) I’m thinking of messaging her so that we (and others) can go on adventures in the area outside of when the main sports stuff happens each day.
After all, with the way the trip is currently planned, it’s another solo trip. This time, it’s with fewer familiars. Though to be honest, I’ve been imagining this scenario where I meet Alice’s best friend at the event I’m hosting at my place this weekend, hit things off really well, and then she joins me on this trip We shall see what happens…
I approached a girl at the gym today. That’s new, haha.
Oh wow!!! You’re one of the “gym approachers”?
@ksub haha what does that mean?
I’m breaking a big barrier for myself here since I’ve not done a gym approach before…ever. And of course, knowing the environment I didn’t sexualize or anything like that. After all, because we’re both regulars it’s possible to warm things up over time.
And at the end of the day, I found it valuable that I put in this effort and took the action, more than anything else.
Rock on!!! I like challenges.
Glad you appreciate it! This is a reflection of my personal changes occurring. We’re on Day 4 of the washout.
Thank you for clarifying.
Yes this looks like a good place to start.
Also I’m generally discouraging people from putting EB in a custom simply because I think one of the ideas is that EB is for a more short-term use. Of course, people can do as they like, and they could play a custom with EB a number of times.
As for your emotional pain, did you listen to DR st4?
Do you have Elixir?