[SOLO] Friday's EmperorQ Awakening

Subliminal Club LABS: Public Experimental Testing
#27

Day 11:

  • Not only am I working more shifts than any other employee at the hospital, but I am ALSO getting the most gifts/tips from patients for my service and help. The patients love me but I also feel very respected, liked and honoured from my co-workers and the rest of the hospital staff. Sadly, my boss ordered me to take the weekend off because otherwise, she is going to get in trouble for me working too long.

  • I am more cocky and naughty (in a good way) than usual. I am more playful with women in general and I notice that they are drawn towards me. My confidence is through the roof and I am just enjoying life right now. I am on my path and there is nothing that is stopping me.

  • Today, a patient stated how stupid I and my co-worker were because we did not understand what he described. He was confused from the medication he got so I did not respond to his insult, neither told him to shut up. I just felt how this was not affecting me emotionally at all… My emotional state stayed the same. I just finished my job and left without having this bother me.

  • In the last days, I “forgot” that I have had a problem with watching too many Youtube videos. Now I just realized that I watched almost zero youtube videos… I did not set any intention to do so consciously, this happened automatically.

  • Today I had four amazingly insightful dreams:

#1 I dreamt of an art workshop where I wanted to partner up with my friend who is studying design. But I was not allowed to do so because they did not want me to copy his creation. First I panicked but then I just tried my best. In the end, I created a more beautiful flower than him, where I got a huge compliment from my boss. Ready to present my creation to my superiors and the whole team, they told me bad new. They told the whole group that they only want to see the other piece we had to make (not the flower). At that moment, I knew that I fucked up because I did not create the other one… I thought that my beautiful flower will be enough to cover up for both… So, in the end, they never looked at my beautiful flower (besides that one compliment).

#2 Walked around with my ex-good friend who I now consider weird. We almost broke off contact in real life but still sometimes text. In my dream, he told me all the reasons why he did not want to have contact with me right now, which was primarily that he was looking behind my facade that not everything is easy for me. He stated that he knew that I was trying harder to achieve my goals than I always say. We were walking and I was still playing that role of me not knowing anything… In real life, I never went to more than 4 lectures whereas he went to more than 150. In the end, we wrote the same exam result. So my dream was about that, he got angry because he could not believe it and I made worse by pretending I don’t even know the basic things (which I really don’t know, I am not making that up). I saw how I was losing him, losing my power over him. Feels like PCC is in EQ.

#3 I saw a very very cute and sweet little baby cat in my dream. It was tiny and prettier than any other cat. When I came closer the cat got super aggressive and cut my hands shoulder and arms. There was nothing I could do because anywhere I touched it to make it stop, the cat could reach my body and cut me even more. This dream seems to be tackling my fear with hot women, that the pretty face is only a facade. And when I don’t look behind their pretty face facade and realize they are still like normal cats, that they carn harm me pretty badly…

#4 I was partying with my best friend when he invited some chicks who travelled only for him. I wanted to have sex with his girl because she was the hottest. The atmosphere in the club was kinda lame but he did not want to go but stay and hope that it gets better. I then without asking for permission or telling him, walked to his girl and said: “Come with me, I go somewhere else”. She was wearing a super nice dress where I could see her bra making me horny as fuck. I wanted to have sex with her, probably on the beach. We left and I was excited, I did not even think about my friend. We walked in the direction to the beach when I ordered her to wait because I had to find the beach myself first. I then pissed there somewhere on the beach without caring what other people would think. Coming back I see all her other 4 friends did join her. She had so much fun that her friends wanted to come as well. Now I thought about my friend that I stole all of his girls. But I also thought that sex is pretty unlikely now… So I decided to make the best out of this situation and take pictures, where I look like Dan Bilzerian…

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#28

Day 12:

  • When there is something that is bothering me or that I don’t feel well with, I am expressing it. I don’t fear to be looked at as a weirdo or a pussy. For example, today where I was assisting in surgery. The last time I did so I blacked out because my blood sugar reached a critically low level and I could barely breathe in the mask. So today, I was scared. But I did not fear expressing it, I was true to my feelings. I just told the doctor that I don’t feel well and might blackout when we started operating. He gave me a chair to sit down and even if they all looked worried about me, and even if I maybe made a fool out of me, I was happy with my decision. By doing so, I prevented getting another “trauma” blacking out and therefore have more confidence the next time. Everything turned out fine by the way.

  • When there is an opportunity, I TAKE IT without much thought. For example, I had some free minutes at work when I saw two doctors leaving a patient’s room and walking away from me. Without waiting for a second, I just approached them from behind saying that I had nothing to do and if I could join them, adding that I was a medical student myself. I did the exact same thing on Day 3. However, my approach was very different on day 3 than on Day 12 today. Back then, I felt weird asking, and you could hear that in my voice. Also, I had thoughts like “Should I do it? Can I just ask them?”. Today, I did not even think 1 second. I saw the opportunity that presented itself in front of me and I took it. With pure confidence.

  • I really care about my well being of my patients and I want them to say “Wow that Jan was amazing. He cared about me, was empathic and did his job really well. I felt so much better because he was there”. This also gives me a really good feeling because I just love when I see that they really feel well when somebody actually listens. But I also became much more strategic to achieve that.

  • I don’t take NO for an answer. Today, I had problems giving away my clothes for cleaning. The one responsible was not there so I wanted to just leave my clothes at work. I approached the guard who should be the second person responsible for that when he told me I cannot leave my clothes at work. He told me NO several times but in the end, he said: “Okay I will make an exception for you.” I got what I wanted :wink:

  • Four different people complimented me on four different things today.

  • I was eating with a friend in the cafeteria when somebody I have seen once, joined us. I had the exact same situation 2 months ago on Khan (St1), which was pretty weird because we did have a lot of silence in the beginning, Today, was different. We had a great conversation I was leading where he was constantly looking at me.

  • I enjoy even the small and “boring” tasks at work. Even when it is walking down to stairs to floor 0 to get something and then walk back up to floor 4. I enjoy it because I see it as my workout. The right mindset is always key.

  • Some very deep and interesting dreams again. #1 First of all, I was in a world where I was forbidden to be. Everyone was watched and I had to be careful to not be spotted. I was like Neo in the beginning of the first Matrix movie where he was watched all the time and had to be careful to act “normal”. I succeed and ended up being in a hospital in a big room full of patients. They were all after surgery and it was midnight. It looked like a scene from the horror game “Outlast”. There were no doctors, just the patients and me. Most of them were asleep with blood ad open wounds everywhere). I heard how one was waking up… I sneaked behind a chair and jumped out in the right moment, scaring him to death. (yep that is actually what everyone would do in that kind of situation right) I then tried to leave the building as I found it very scary. I left with the thought: “I will never be dentist” (I am studying human medicine, not dental medicine (However, the room I was in represents more a surgery room from a normal doctor). #2 The next dream was about me wanting to go to a party. My old PE teacher was organizing it. I had to show my id (not to her) that I am already overage. Everything went fine and I got in. However, my teacher inside did not believe me. She watched me closely and told me to stay around her so she can check on me. The party mood was lame, and everyone decided to just eat and drink to make them feel better. I decided to do the same but at that moment I got the thought: “What the fuck are you doing? I should just create fun around myself from nothing and not eat and drink to feel better”.

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#29

Great dream report, and overall a super indepth journal, which is always, an interesting to read.
All the best on your EmperorQ journey buddy.

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#30

Thank you for your nice words @Morpheus =)

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#31

Day 13:

“The second people start making progress, they screw up. Because deep down they think it is only a matter of time until they fail. They rather fall from the third floor than from the penthouse” H. Specter

  • This quote stuck with me today… I am meeting my social circle with all the girls tomorrow. I broke up with one (my) girl in my circle because she did not represent my standards some time ago. Around 3 weeks passed since the last time I had something with a girl, and a few months passed since the last time I had something with a different girl (since switching from Khan St4 to St1 actually). And every time I am not riding the wave of new girls and am then seeing my old girls again, I am wondering if I am still as sex worthy. I always fall in a slight regression or emotional vulnerability in such moments because I am having that fear of not getting any chicks. This came up today again. I felt New Beginnings working here, but I also feel that the tumult was less than usual. I caught myself recognising how it is normal to have such thoughts come up but I cannot let my behaviour get dictated by those. This quote somehow represents that for me and much more…

  • My social anxiety is gone because EQ changed how I see social situations. Before, I was examining all strangers around me as separate beings acting in separate bubbles/groups. Or to put it another way. Now, I see strangers as fellows to play with… everyone plays the same sport. It is not weird to ask somebody playing the identical game for a match but it if a football player plays with a table tennis champion, that is weird. I am now open to everyone and have no fear to talk to them, no matter their status or aura.

  • Seeing so many numbers can’t be just luck anymore. The moment I want to leave the subway, I look on my phone and it is exactly 1717, the moment I come home and check my phone it is 1919… I see 1111, 111, 1112, 2121, 1717, 1818, 1919. While running Khan the number 111 was the most accruing, on EQ I now see the bold numbers almost every day.

  • Today, I got everything I wanted by negotiating. I did get the working shifts I wanted and at the same time, negotiated that I can leave earlier tomorrow. Also, there was another situation in a different context, where I made my misplease clear (without being a dick) and negotiated the best out of that situation.

  • Influenced others to order sushi in the late shift next week and even got Maria to switch to late shift just to have sushi with me. By the way, I had some great banter with her (the hottest woman in my work environment right now) and found out that she was reading books like The Alchemist and The Secret. Reminded me of this:

  • Even if I serve people, I am definitely no push around. There was a situation today, where I stated friendly but firmly that she shall let me do it before grousing.

  • In situations, where I normally would not do something because it could bother someone (little things like letting somebody wait because I forgot something which I also could get tomorrow but would be just so much easier for me to get it now and let him wait), I am now doing that what is the best for me first. I don’t fear to bother someone if I don’t do massive harm to him.

  • Random memories of my past if happy or unpleasant are popping up.

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#32

SEDUCTION: EmperorQ vs Khan St4

I went to a party today where I meet my old social circle group. Therefore I can pretty well determine how my seduction abilities and style changed.
On Khan St4, the seduction was pretty much all subconsciously. I was high energy, loud, and tend to have close proximity to others. When I got drunk, I felt like my subconscious was taking over and pretty much did the seduction automatically for me. On Emperor. it feels like that I seduce more consciously. I am not so high energy and don’t want to party so hard. I am less interest in drinking so much alcohol, and I feel like my seduction is worse when I do because I am less conscious. I act more serious and more manlike and enjoy interesting but fun conversations.

I am looking back to Khan St4, to be honest, because with all the benefits EQ brings, it is nowhere replacing or delivering the same seduction results as Khan St4 (clearly because it hasn’t the same goal). It was an amazing subliminal and I just don’t feel the push from EQ I got from St4…

Day 14:

  • My ex-girl was making out with another boy today and I did not feel envy at all. I felt more like that all the boys she would get would be a downgrade in comparison to me…

  • I did lose the fear of beauty. This one is huge for me as even after 6 months of Khan St4 I still did fear very hot girls and could not act normal around them. I am not sure if it was 3 months of Khan St 1 or EQ or a combination of both but today I was much more unstifled and free with a perfect 10 which I never really talked to because I was so afraid. It even made extra fun to seduce her, it was a challenge.

  • I do think very highly of myself. I become pretty arrogant, to be honest, and hate when people don’t act like that or don’t give me the respect I want. Anxiety is reduced but not gone completely. I feared to talk to another hot girl today as „I did not know what to say“. Also, I am still falling back to old habits (in terms of how to act on a party to seduce)…

  • Emperor gave me a real kick in my ass yesterday (and I loved it). After the party, I was listening to two loops. I felt very sad and angry at the same time how I did not present my best seduction abilities. I could have done better, and EQ makes me aware of that. I hurt… but it also feels really good. Every „failure“ I experience, I see as a lesson, and Emperor makes sure that I really learn from my mistakes by making me aware and aware of it until I get it. This will help me, in the long run, to really get the life I want. And this is also something that I missed in Khan St4 and would wish to have in Khan v2! @SaintSovereign

  • I was horny after the party that I did watch porn to let out some steam. I dreamt of Maria showing me her boobs and woke up with a huge boner and high libido. There is definitely Sex Scripting in Emperor and I do not see any need to add more of it :wink:

  • There was a situation where somebody invaded my personal space. I immediately confronted him and he could not even look me into my eyes. That’s pretty nice

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#33

Day 15:

  • Today was my first day off from work since starting running Emperor. I enjoyed just laying down in my bed and allowed me to watch some Netflix and Youtube without bad thoughts. However, I realized when I finally want to stop wasting time on these things on normal days, I have to come to the point that I don’t want to watch those for fun on free days…

  • I am seeking out mentors for my game. Today, I sent some infield footage to a pimp I know for him to look at my sub communication and critic it strongly. He gave me huge compliments for my style, subc, figure and my overall vibe.

  • I am nudged towards creating art e.g painting or buying a camera… as I have been playing with the idea to create a short movie.

  • Looking back at the last 15 days, they were all amazing. It is not exactly what I did but how my mindset what made them great. Life is just fun and exciting right now

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#34

Day 16:

HEALTH:

  • I am not working out currently but my body structure seems to be changing. My breast and shoulders appear fuller and more prominent. I am developing a “bear look” which makes me look more alpha.

  • I am very cautious to eat healthily and do the right choices in terms of my diet. In the first days of EQ, I always had the need to order fries in the cafeteria, while I now go for the broccoli and fish choices. I am do feel more hungry from time to time but still have fewer problems doing my 16:8 hour fast. Still I too much sweets, which I get for free at my workplace. It is always a fight between two sides of myself. In the beginning, I always resist but in the end, I eat it either way.

  • Instead of taking the elevator, I always take the stairs walking up to the fourth floor.

SOCIAL:

  • A girl called me “conceited” and it the same time complimented me on that because all the other guy are boring. She loved my confidence.

  • Even in unexpected situations, I respond with fast witty answers

  • I communicate more with facial expressions which others also pick up. It is fun to make somebody laugh just by using your eyes - no effort on my side.

  • My eye contact is more intense and I have had some moments where I was narrowing my eyes and would directly stare into her soul. I could feel her melting and the affection sparkling in the air.

  • I am negotiating more and more in my daily life and I almost always get what I want.

DREAMS:

  • I had a horrible dream today where I woke up in fear. I normally don’t have such dreams as I wake up optimistic and happy even in “frightful dreams”. I dreamt that I was with my family when there was something appearing. I could not really see it from my perspective but my grandpa started shouting and running as fast as possible to it. He touched it and it then vanished. The thing he touched was a body wrapped in a black cape with the frighting face of Jigsaw (I never watched the movies but saw a trailer a few days ago).
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    In my dream, every other minute there was a Jigsaw appearing and I had to run to it, touch it so that he vanishes because the longer he stays the more damage, pain, or bad luck me and my family gets. It felt so real. When I just looked up the face of Jigsaw on google, I got a shiver. He is looking directly into your soul…
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#35

Day 17:

  • I am setting up a plan what to do for the next 30+ days to finally achieve goals I had for a long time. I now only need to execute it without much overthinking.

  • Socialized with my boss today which felt absolutely amazing. Yesterday we did not have good chemistry mostly because she was interpreting something about me that did not say or wasn’t my intention. But today was great. We ordered sushi, laughed and had fun together. It is great to be able to behave like you are on on the same level as your superiors (especially, with those who normally give everyone the feeling that they are).

  • I feel like I have a sense for what the other person is thinking or feeling based only around their sub communication (eye contact, little facial expression). It is a gut feeling or a thought that pops up.

  • There have been incidents where I thought “Oh it would be great to have that, but that is not possible or unlikely right now”. And then hours or days later this thing magically happens. Just to give one example. I thought about changing my work schedule on Friday but did not want to go to her again as I just changed it. 2 days later, I get approached by another superior asking if it is okay if I switch my schedule on Friday… Is this new improved manifestation scripting? :open_mouth:

DREAMS:

  • I dreamt that my father wanted to do surgery on me. He pushed me to do it. I wasn’t prepared and certainly not ready for the surgery. First of all, nobody knew of it (not my mum, grandpa etc) and this operation could end my life if something goes wrong. But everything was so rushed that I did not even go to the toilet beforehand. I asked my dad and the operation team if I can go now but they denied. The team not including my father were not happy about the operation either, and they stated that I already have been sterile and can’t go to the toilet as they would need to prepare the whole operation again. So the one woman put a needle through my foot and drained the urine through that off. After that, I still had the feeling of peeing but just ignored it. Then just moments before the operation, I had the feeling of blacking out like I once did in real life while assisting in surgery (so the dream dealt with that). In the end, the doctor who would do the surgery entered the room. He talked to me and was furious that my dad pushed me to it, and then decided to not operate. I was relieved. I then saw how he talked to another patient and was an amazing brain surgeon (brain surgeon is the profession I thought of pursuing, but this might change in future). When waking up, I thought maybe I was that surgeon in my dream?

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#36

Day 18:

  • My most productive day since starting my journey with EQ. I woke up and immediately did all my tasks. I finished the same assignments I did yesterday 3 hours earlier and literally finished everything before work while even going 1 hour earlier to work. Finally, I see some results in my productivity

  • On the one hand, I am acting overly-confident, “arrogant”, “conceited” and at the same time, I am loved and respected by almost everyone at work.

  • Had an amazing banter with my boss today. We had a rough start but the more time we spent together the more fun we have. I respect her, she does a great job and besides that, she is a very strong and confident woman. I like that even if she is some times a pain in the ass because of that.

  • Found a new system to learn a language and immediately followed through on that. Now there is no excuse to not learn every day :wink:

  • The first time I did NOT get what I wanted since EQ. Because of the Corona Virus, I am not allowed to extend my internship for another month. I will try to change that by negotiating with the boss (how I learned in one of my dreams)

  • Life is the just going very smoothly right now. There are no real problems that I have, just goals I am pursuing.

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#37

Day 19:

  • Woke up and got up super early. I prepared myself for work faster than ever meaning I wasted little to no time in the bathroom, shower, with my phone…

  • I did not feel as great today so I thought how I could make the day awesome. And I realized that the only thing separating my “bad” days from my “good” days was my mindset. So I started to bring me in a good mood - I automatically knew how to do so - and after that everything fell into place.

  • Haha seems like that statement above is not true. My work got extended for 9 more days, which is not exactly how long I wanted to work more (9 out of 30 days) but this just proves that a NO doesn’t mean NO, it just means NOT NOW.

  • Great banter with my colleagues and patients. I am loving the work and I know 100% that this is the right direction I want to go.

  • Today I was measuring the puls of a girl in my age. When I looked at the scale I saw 136, which is pretty high. I made fun and said “Oh this is probably because of me”. She turned red and I had in mind that she probably did find me very attractive. I told my superior that she had high puls and she also concluded - without me saying a word - that I could be the cause xd. I said something like “I knew I was good looking but that gooooood…? :joy:”. We laughed and 10 mins later, she went in there to “check our theory”. This time her puls was 99. This girl’s heart rate was actually by 40 points higher just because of my presents.

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#38

Day 20:

WOW, what an amazing day today. I was listening to more loops yesterday and I could definitely feel the effects much more profound today. :slight_smile:

  • After I posted how my body is changing the last time, I thought that maybe I was exaggerating and it was just the “light”. But today, I looked into the mirror again and was astonished. I did work out pretty intensely from January to August 2018 and possessed the best shape of my life. Then my travels, exam, etc came in my way and I first began training in late December. I quickly injured myself and now the last time I did my workout was in January. Between August and January, I had like 10 workouts. Now I looked into the mirror and I could not believe it. I have a very full muscular chest, a visible sixpack, a V-back… I look like the guy on the cover of Emperor… I did not lose any muscles, only fat. It is crazy! I don’t need to go to the gym more if I only want to train for the look of my body. Everything is there already… With ZERO effort.

  • How true yesterday’s statement is. My dad had an idea of how I can extend my internship for 30 more days even with the corona crisis and at the same time be a much more valuable asset to the hospital… Quick discussions, and 4 hours later I now have better work conditions, less strenuous work, much more responsibility, a nicer boss, a total of 2 months of internship and am very valuable to the hospital.

  • My dominance and commanding attitude tripled since yesterday. I am only an intern in a hospital, I am in the lowest position in the hierarchy. Still, because of how I act, I can “order” people around. I give them tasks and they just do it for me, without rebellion. It is a sense of power I get from Emperor and a feeling for what I can say. I know which people will do the things for me and I know when to better shut up.

  • Maria was asking for my opinion of the corona crisis like 3 times as I did not answer her in the beginning or just made some jokes. In the end, I was stating my reality and the reasons for different death rates among countries. Every person in that room, a total of 8, looked at me and hang on every word I said. At that moment, my further boss entered the room and I probably made the best impression ever.

Dreams

  • My dreams were so intense today, and I had like a total of 5. In one, a thief was stealing from me, which we tried to find and later caught. In another, I was laying on the floor on top of a girl I like. I was very pushy and she told her best friend who secretly loves her to “help” her. Just when he approached to get me from her, we furiously made out. I felt his jealousy in my back. The dreams are all “like real-life” and feel very realistically. I cannot write all of them down but they had to do with the themes of seduction, power, dominance, the word NO, and challenges I have to overcome.
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#39

Awesome! I’m noticing improvements in my physique as well. Keep it up!

That’s impressive results @friday! I’m not there yet, but your results are truly a source of inspiration. You’re definitely making an impact in the hospital :slight_smile:

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#40

Day 21:

  • Every day, I am seeing the numbers 1313/1515/1818. At this point, it cannot be “just luck” anymore… It read somewhere that this is a kind of synchronicity that happens when your subconscious switches to your new reality but could not find about it.

  • When I do not act align with the Emperor scripting, EQ makes me aware of it. At this point, I cannot watch more than one episode of Netflix before Emperor is kicking my ass. It is a really strong push to close the tab and start working immediately.

  • I have been relentless in my work only taking one day off in the last 21 days, working every weekend. I will take my next free day foremost in 7 days and only because otherwise my superior get in trouble because I am reaching the absolute max of the allowed working hours by the law. I am getting called a workaholic… but I don’t like to see myself like that because I just don’t need any breaks from work because I enjoy doing it.

  • There was nothing to do for me at work today, so they wanted to send me home but without letting that day count as a workday. After some negotiating, I left 7 hours early and still have it count as me working 8 hours :wink: Work hard and SMART. Yet, I am noticing that since EQ I began to negotiate on a daily basis.

  • Some of my coworkers acted weird today. First I thought it is about my aura or my sub communications but I do think it is more because of the current situation regarding the Corona Crisis. I for myself am very calm about the situation and am just thinking how to make the best out of it.

  • I thought my productivity is pretty bad but I just realized that I was super productive the last days. I am learning a language (which progress is going nicely by the way), I am working on my sexual energy cultivation and skills, having a constant EQ journal, designing the interior design of a kitchen with my mum (which is far harder than one could ever expect), working 8 hours a day for the last 20 days… Not bad but still some improvement possible :smirk:

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#41

Day 22: I am coming to the conclusion that masked seems to be far more powerful for me than ultrasonic. I will try to listen more to masked in the next days.

  • Woke up with a huge boner and extreme sex drive. Half-awake half-dreaming I was imagining girls in my life and how I pull their hair and have rough sex with them.

  • On the one hand, I don’t have the need to fap so often but am instead to practising semen retention unconsciously but on the other hand, I am increasingly becoming so horny that I turn to porn again (especially now in the times of quarantine). But porn doesn’t satisfy me as it did before. When I watch porn I often click away after some scenes and switching to my own imagination having real sex with real women.

  • Maria texted me again sending me some video showing me “how much I am missing out of not being with her”. She was increasingly touchy today, and we talked about Tinder, asking me questions like how I get to know my lovers. I am so happy that after 6 months of Khan St4, 3 additional months of St1 Khan and now EQ giving me the last push that I finally lost my fear of beauty. It doesn’t control me anymore and I act like my pimpself with women like Maria.

  • My statements/responses to questions are increasingly emotion-provoking, good and bad ones. While I wasn’t the “nice guy” since Khan, now with EQ nobody would come to the conclusion to ever call me that.

  • I lead more, I dominate, I have intense eye contact. I talk slower and my voice seems deeper. When I am ordering something, people do it for me. I am living more in the moment.

  • I have had frequent headaches lately which is why I decided to quit listening for now and take a rest day tomorrow. My headache seems to vanish for now but I don’t think it causes is solely because of EQ and reconciliation.

  • Today is the first day, I am feeling more tired after work. Might be because I either experience tiredness of the number of loops I have been running lately or I am actually getting tired as I now went to work 22 days in a queue with only one rest day in between.

  • On the one hand, I have the desire to eat far less sugar to almost zero and on the other hand, I am craving it.

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#42

Day 23:

I have been listening to masked with a 45 min break of silence in between the whole night. I did not notice since just some minutes ago as suddenly the masked sound started playing in the background. So no wonder why I am tired when there was a sound playing all night. I probably did not notice while asleep because I took melatonin

  • So today I started my new negotiated job. I hate it… And when I don’t get my own office in the next days, I am gonna quit or reconciliation will hit me far too hard. I am now talking a lot on the phone with people which is absolutely fine and I even enjoy but all that other bureaucracy shit I have to do it. It is so boring… sorting folders and stuff. We will see what tomorrow brings and if I can negotiate myself out of it.

  • I have no problems with establishing new contacts with strangers or talking on a phone with them. I really enjoy being social.

  • A lot of compliments from one of my superiors for the first day.

  • My productivity is amazing today. Instead of watching any Netflix or Yt videos shit, I just went to bed for 20 mins, woke up and cleaned all my room. Then I did the most uncomfortable task at first and am now already writing my daily post here. If I can keep that up, I would be extremely proud and happy because I feel like this time it is not only for today but the productivity (or no procrastination) would stay longterm.

  • My memory seems to be really on point and I can learn new study very quickly. Feeling the QL Lite scripting but of course isn’t the same as the full QL experience.

  • I have been very self-aware today. This includes my productivity but also things like staying away from sugar and sweets… It gives me peace of mind

Dreams:

Interesting one of dreaming how my old bf (girl) send me a very long message. I was reading it loud to the point where she wrote how unsatisied she was with that dude. To quote: “But I now have to live with that small dick of his forever…” Did I tell you already that I don’t like him? I find him very weird tbh…

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Day 24: Day off

  • I have been very sleepy in the last days, resulting in me sleeping 2 hours more + falling asleep while doing my meditations and only waking up after one hour. My new superior and work are draining my energy…

  • I did get my own office today which is excellent. However, I am still not enjoying my new work. When I do it, I give 100% and I am very motivated, but in the breaks thoughts of quitting and dislike towards my boss come up. I thought that maybe it is only my mindset, and I should approach the situation differently. Will try this tomorrow but there is a feeling I get when I am around my superior (which I am 50% of my working time) I really don’t like. Also, I feel very much under pressure to perform. Everything is new and I am trusted with boring but very important tasks where I cannot allow any mistakes. This pressure could also be a reason why I dislike the job so much besides the lack of real social contact and lack of nice co-workers and a warm environment.

  • I am going to begin negotiating new work conditions tomorrow, which will be a major win for all parties but this time also more for me. It is very interesting that I never really negotiated before Emperor but now I am doing it almost every day.

  • I got a big present from my old superior today (where I worked as a nurse for the last 20 days before taking the new job). I am sure not every intern does get something like it and it is not about the present itself but about what it means. I am proud and grateful.

Dreams

I dreamt of seducing and getting high-class models, 10/10 girls who look like this.
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Definitely one of the nicer dreams :wink:

Also, I did dream about my job where my subconscious is going through everything I did at work yesterday to learn the new things and integrate them into my subconscious. Did feel this today as I hardly forgot anything work-related from yesterday.

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Day 25: Second Day off

  • Ohh yes baby. My frustrating work situation changed within TWO DAYS to a position where I can grow a lot, have fun, do amazing and extremely important work for the hospital, and am most of the time my own boss where I am not constantly watched by my superior. You can tell… today was an amazing work day :smiley:

  • I am extremely fast learning the new skills I need for my new job. I am left alone in my own office because my boss saw that I am doing a very good job and there is no need to check in on me all the time. I am probably the only intern in the history of the hospital who works in his own office and dictates his own work 80% of the time.

  • So the first thing that was different today was that I intentionally changed my mindset to a very positive one. I told myself that I will make this day great, no matter what tasks I get or how much my superior will check in one me. After that, everything went smoothly.

  • There was a situation where a stranger woman told me I look like Harry Potter out of nowhere. I get this a lot and I normally just smile. Her calling me that was totally unexpected. This time I did not only smile like usually but responded with a cocky grin asking if she wants to have a signature :wink: That is something that I am noticing a lot lately, I am much quicker in responding to unexpected situations with witty comments.

  • I am standing my ground in a discussion, having the last word and not letting somebody talk me into something. And I am more aware of how to act in social situations and how to give a signal to the group that I am not changing my opinion based on who is in front of me but on my own core values.

  • Finally not so sleepy any more. Will start my EQ listening tomorrow again.

Dreams

Had a dream of skydiving. A friend of mine wanted to persuade me to jump out of the plane without a parachute. I told him that he will die if he does so. His response was that it will be the most fun ever and that I should do it as well. I declined told him he was stupid and jumped out with a parachute. While doing so I was also filming myself with a camera because I planned the future ahead that the footage will be useful for something.

What needs improvement

#Will include this section in every new journal post to not only write about the positives but also about the things I want to improve in the next days. EQ is making me aware of a lot of things. This section might be a bit more personal as I will not explain everything I write.

A) Being a good utter. I was telling a story today and I noticed that I need to speak slower or have more pauses for a better effect. Also, I am sometimes missing words or don’t say them correctly
B) No sugar diet
C) Dominating new social interactions more, e.g asking for the name of the person in front of me and remembering it for the future.
D) Doing my workout (posture training) and my energy cultivation practises along with my meditations
E) No Netflix!

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Day 26:

  • After 2 and a half days of break, I restarted listening to EmperorQ. What I noticed is that when I am listening to it, I am more in a “thinking mode”. Realizations about past problems or ideas in general just pop up, like it did on QL St1. When I am having my off days, I feel like I am more in an execution mode, where am I taking action, making mistakes etc which I reflect on later when restarting my listening. And, either on days on and days off I am more aware of things, how I act, how I respond to certain events.

  • I am making decisions much faster and am improving myself every day. I pick up on the little things, test those out and therefore develop my skills. For example, I am having “sale calls” every day with patients “persuading” them to have an operation. Does sound totally wrong when I write it like this, but it is not. They are happy and I recommend something that they will truly benefit from. Anyway, I vastly improve how I talk to them on the phone and notice very quickly what works well, and what doesn’t.

  • I am taking No less for an answer and am more likely to have it “my way”.

  • In the last 26 days, I have been getting so many compliments it is crazy. From total strangers to close family members. Also, I am complimenting others more as well which I never did before.

  • I am having less and less interest in watching any Youtube videos. But instead of YT, I am now watching Netflix which doesn’t make my bad habit any better.

  • Just read my first post, and it feels like that within the first day of listening to Emperor the whole EQ mindset got loaded into my brain, and in the following days, I have been just following the instructions to put this mindset and scripting into reality.

What to improve

A) No Netflix (and find a replacement), no sugar
B) Energy meditations and hypnosis

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Day 27:

My mood at work:

  • When I am visiting the four-floor to my old workplace where I was for the first 20 days of my EQ journal, I am greeted with joy by everyone (not like the Louis Litt here haha). I talk with the employees and they are excited to see me! Even the patients are remembering me, even if I am not in uniform. But I am just in a very happy mood in general.

  • My new superior did notice my diligence, and has a good feeling leaving me alone doing my work meaning that I have my own office, telephone, and can pretty much self-decide what I do and when I do it. It doesn’t feel like an internship, I do anymore… I won her over by my actions, and while I thought she was horrible the first day, we are now pretty good “partners”. She as the biggest bureaucrat never daring to misfollow one law or rule came to me to tell me that I can leave 2 hours earlier if I want, which is close to a miracle for her. But with every superior, I had in the last 30 days (around 4), and even if we the complications I had with them in the first days, I always won them over.

  • Before taking the new job, I had a “feeling” that the first days will be problematic, and only after that, it will get satisfactory. In the Corona Crisis, I had a “feeling” that we should not travel to a certain area even though there seemed to be 0 infected cases in the region and it was before the panic. At the second day, we would have been there they closed the whole place down meaning that if it wasn’t for my feeling and my negotiation to not go, we would have lost a lot of money, no benefit and potentially had to go to quarantine for 2 weeks. When I thought about switching to another shift but did not want to ask because it would put me into a bad position, my superior came to me and asked if I could do it. Things are playing out how I think/feel.

  • I am still working like a beast going to work every day even on weekends as the law got changed so I am allowed to work so much. I am definitely counting to the “winners” of the crisis, as I use the situation to my benefit. When the whole world sleeps, I am working my butt off to get the papers I need. What people need 2 months of work for, I will finish in 1 month and 14 days. And I am kicking more ass than all the other interns.

  • Feeling again more sleepy after restarting EQ after my days-off. Went to sleep for 20 mins, woke up after two.

  • I am intrigued by the series “Suits” and especially the role of Harvey Specter. With EQ, I am having a lot of realizations watching it, picking up on the little things and work dynamics in the series and having thoughts on how to implement those in my life.

Dreams

I have been dreaming about my ex, how we ended making out again until she interrupted it as she currently has a boyfriend.
I was dreaming about the only person in the world, I really don’t like. We have history together, he back then stealing my girls, betray me for his own benefit and just doing shit to me while I was in a “lower” position. He is ignoring me most of the time in real life, but sometimes still talks shit. I am getting less and less affected by his bullshit and am beginning to forget about him. Today, I dreamt about him and how he will act around other friends in future. He was acting like the biggest hypocrite what just made me furious inside. It felt like back in the days, when I could not really stand up for myself.

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