I wanted to summarize the past 2 days but I said screw it… it’s gonna have holes if I do so.
I lost track of time. I thought yesterday was Sunday, imagine my surprise to find out that’s not the case.
Losing my myself in my meditations - it’s as if the world stops, nothing exists but what I’m working on… in this case, my chakras and aura, cleaning, protecting and empowering them. And also removing all negative connections I happen to be linked to.
I’m constantly having sexual thoughts. Spent about 20min nonstop indulging in them.
Right now I’m working on putting in muscle and Convict Conditioning appealed to me… been reading it for the past hour, getting soaked into it. There’s an 80% chance I’ll start gym today.
My aura is expanding and is feeling hot.
Got my gym program sorted… will be starting today later on.
ZP continues to amaze me. As I’m watching The Expanse, I get this calling… to do yoga and I couldn’t shut it down. It kept on getting louder till I said screw it and immediately I started doing yoga. As I was done with it, I started meditating on my energy… out of nowhere I said “I love you Myster”. Made me realize there’s no running away from me, I come first in order for everything else to fall in place.
Gym was good - I feel it’s gonna get quite intense over the next couple of days.
Why does ZP kick in at 8min of listening? That’s when I feel my energy rising… it’s feels good.
There’s deep works that’s taking place. I’m acing my meditations and yoga… feels so natural and I seem to have reached another depth of calmness.
As I was going to the store, passed by my neighbors(all females, 2 different houses) and they were nicer when I greeted. Something about the one on the 2nd house, the way she looked at me, i could feel the lust, passion… we made a connection for the time ever. As I was nearing the store, another woman who happens to live around my neighborhood(must be a visitor, cause this is the second time seeing her) the way she smiled and kept looking down and trying to remain cool while clearly was nervous - it was nice to see that. On my way back, passed by the 1st house and the mother was now hanging around out, along with the others(she’s very attractive, and a visitor too) and the way we made eye contact, as we greeted each other… if we keep this up somethings gonna happen.
I’ve lost interest in way too many women I was engaged with, I’m now looking for something unique and of quality.
Gym was better than yesterday and I fear tomorrow it’ll be more intense than today… Even so, I’m eager for it. Day by day I’m evolving and I love the man I’m becoming more of.
I haven’t had much practice, in fact before ZP I hardly did any flirting… but now😊and I’m so good at it, everything I know just starts coming out naturally. Game I studied years ago is at the tip of my tongue… and fingers🙃
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