This week I have most likely through GLM had a full blown trauma response in my body, namely abandonment trauma to be precise. I had to revisit some old shadow work material and meditate and let the emotions come up and slowly burn itself out. It’s still quite intense and I notice it manifesting accidents and annoyances for me.
Even though it has been completely overwhelming, I feel a string of conscious control leading the whole process with doing the necessary work to resolve and integrate rather than distract myself. This I jot down to be guidance from GLM as the clarity and reasoning to put 1 and 1 together is quite strong.
But I got to say, this was very intense as I have not felt something this overwhelming in a long long time. But I see it as progress as I’d rather deal with this now than having it zap more of my energy unconsciously. I get some deal with your sh*t vibes with what’s going on right now.
Lastly also contributed to GLM, is I get flashes from my memory and earlier years from situations that I now clearly can see happened the way it did because of this abandonment thing. Also starting to see why I attracted certain people back then etc.
Puh… it actually felt good venting a bit here as I just recently felt physically sick and could not form a sentence let along do something productive except just meditate on it.