The December Full Moon in Cancer encourages us to let go of excess baggage through silent meditation, thoughtful exchange, or spiritual practice . It serves as an astrological cue to reminisce about personal growth and acknowledge the transformative journey weāve undertaken.
On point 
2 weeks of washoutā¦ Feeling all the feels today duringthis cancer full moonā¦ my sun moon mercury and mars are in Cancerā¦ almost āsheddingā time as wellā¦ Quite powerfulā¦
I sat here with my phone left in my bedroom dedicating the morning to uninterrupted yoga - postures, breath, stillness, mantra, mudra and deeper connection with myself in a non-violent way. A lot of my unloving, unkind, harmful thoughts/beliefs have surfaced quite rapidly during this washout periodā¦ What once used to be a pattern of fight, flight, freeze has turned into feeling it all in the momentā¦ right here, right nowā¦ not escaping, distracting, avoidingā¦
I am going to share some questions and thoughts here for whoever reads thisā¦ I hope you will take the time to sit with them and meditate, maybe journal about itā¦ maybe share here about it tooā¦ Some unconscious things may surface to the conscious level for you to process and let go ofā¦ to free up more space for the lovelyā¦ the kindā¦ the pleasantā¦ the desirableā¦ the yummy stuffā¦
As long as we avoid uncomfy feelings/thoughts, we stop them from evolvingā¦ Do you want to be stagnant or escalate into motionā¦ ?
The universe is in constant motion & so are weā¦
We exist only in this momentā¦
Impermanence is the core of our existenceā¦
It requires great wisdom to accept itā¦
This acceptance leads to an awakening of consciousnessā¦
āLet go of what youāve been holding on toā¦ā
itās time to feel the momentā¦
Stop running away and vibrate your full presenceā¦
By identifying what is happening in the body (without judgment), by connecting to the Earth, you will discover more about your emotions and limiting thoughtsā¦
Consciousness rises to the sky and the boundlessly great.
Stop running, freezing or fighting yourself and the worldā¦
Just be you here & now. <3
I just read this and Iām resonating so much with everything you wrote, thank you for all these inspiring words, itās so helpful, feeling my true heart shine, any moment of pure presence is so precious, all the love sister!
21 days of washout. Wow 
I feel so much happening without actively listening.
I feel ready for this next phase on my subliminal journey. Super curious if Seductress Dark will take over my stack in place of LBFH or Seductress.
I have said how I will listen to Seductress for life but maybe SD will be my long term core title.
Not so sure.
Thereās something about that title thatās speaking to me deeply.
Iāve been embracing the light for quite some time now, but feel thereās power in the dark side too. 
Just because I was rejected, gossiped about, hated on, judged, ridiculed, not accepted, and all that other icky stuff, doesnāt mean I have to shrink myself or pretend to be something that I am not.
Iāve been reading a really great book that speaks more about Fawn, aka āpeople pleasing.ā To try preventing abandonment or discomfort, I would get into that state. This was a very hypervigilant state. I would study peopleās behaviours and try reading their non verbal body language. Scan for potential threats and do what I could to avoid that. This isnāt so much what I do now but I find myself going there occasionally. Iām much more aware.
It feels almost like Iām going through another dark night of the soul. Much less intense as the first ones. The false self tries so hard sometimes to āprotectā me from feeling good. Feeling good meant there would be consequences. Not feeling good was the familiar more so than not. The nervous system gets accustomed to those stress chemicals and craves them. Itās an addiction.
Iām rewriting my programming though. Cracking the codes! 
With awareness comes healing. ā¤ļøāš©¹
I used to numb myself with drugs and alcohol. This month is 2 years without marijuana. That was my medicine for so long but also my poison. My crutch. My way to escape and evade. To hide. Drown out the noise. It always came back with a vengeance.
2024 ~ sober and pure in heart. 
New beginnings.
Looking back with love.
Proud of how far Iāve come.
I chose this lifetime to have hard lessons, hard losses. It was worth it though.
Teaching from my experiences. Itās my passion.
Like I said in another one of my posts here, itās time to stop playing small. Itās okay if people donāt like me or agree with what I am sharing. Itās none of my fucking business anyways.
Dark night of the soul number I donāt know 
Iām sitting here crying as I reflect on my past experiences where I let fear take over, but also where I had really fucking cool experiences too.
I was a powerful manifestor. Iād quickly attract numerous opportunities relating to my goals/objectives as an artist of music and writing. My perfectionism and traumas got in my way mostly though.
Even though that did happen, I was highly influential on my peers and others too. I was a trend setter. Innovative. Came up with cool ideas for people. I am still this way but I feel sort of lame. Iāll be 37 this year. I focused so much on my kids and family life. The career I settled on for over a decade until 2022. I impacted many lives along the way.
It feels like Iām dying in many ways. How many layers do we have to ourselves? 
Maybe itās a shed & release, rinse & recycle type thing! Or take out all the trash at once and light it up in flames as I watch the ashes blow away.
Iām being a bear in a cave right now. Renewal and retreat. Relaxing until I start this next cycle on my journey. Iām in pjs enjoying my mushroom coffee. I added chaga and turkey tail into the mix alongside my usual reishi, cordyceps & lions mane. Iām loving it.
Thereās gotta be something more for me other than what Iām currently doing.
Being a mom to 3 kick ass kids says a lot though. Iāve done really great with them so far. Iāve been highly influential in their lives and thatāll probably always be the way it is with them. Mama bear 
Iām riding the spiral like a spider or something like that. Weaving. 
I have a gift with communication and must continuing nurturing that part of me.
I donāt wanna disintegrate and dissolve into the abyss of nothingness.
You changed skincare routine? Your avatar looks different.
Got my brows done yesterday.
Different is great. 
You look lovely.
Took some small actions today in areas I procrastinated for far too long that will benefit my growth and expansion with YouTube.
Those brows
2 nights ago I had a dream I was in a castle like building surrounded by lots of people, some I knew and some I didnāt know. I was hanging from the top ready to fall and stopped myself from falling. That was crazy.
I felt something going on in my third eye chakra area before bed last night. Felt like psychic surgery was happening automatically. Removing stuff that needed to go. It was a strange sensation followed by relief after having what felt like a recon headache most of the afternoon. Not even sure how thatās possible 3 weeks into washout, but I can definitely feel stuff happening internally & on all energetic levels.
I will also credit my highly dedicated daily spiritual practice, as well as the non psychoactive plant medicines I consume. Holistically bringing myself to greater awareness and expansion.
Subliminals are my favourite tool.
Everyone is shifting around me in subtle ways. Itās awesome!
I feel all the love
I go in waves of various emotions and thoughts but eventually find myself on the other side of fear and more into faith and love.
Oh I forgot to say, I keep finding coins everywhere. For weeks now.
Found a quarter in the back of my Jeep last night.
I felt something going on in my third eye chakra area before bed last night. Felt like psychic surgery was happening automatically. Removing stuff that needed to go.
Lovely plants. Maybe you are already aware this year is a special year in the history of mankind and most humans looking to better themselves are receiving never seen before amounts of help from the universe. I personally cannot wait for this year to unfold!
I like reading your posts, they are soothing and filled with love and strength!
Awww thank you ! 
I miss making private YouTube videos for you guys, but thatās not allowed here.
Maybe one day there will be a video or audio option on here.
I much prefer sharing through the use of my voice and visual presence. I hate typing on this cellphone keyboard. 
Itās maybe best, I would hate to fall in love with someone living on the other side of the planet.
Itās with great sadness that I found out yesterday about the passing of my beautiful cat Karla, aka āthe battlecat.ā She was my cat from 2008-2021.
She was adopted by a āfriendā in July 2021 due to personal family matters in my home after my separation. This was a very difficult decision to make. I feel some guilt right now.
I didnāt know she was sick. I also didnāt know she was brought to the vet or āput down.ā I found out after my son had an intuitive nudge that we needed to see her which led to me contacting my āfriendā only to hear the tragic news. I feel a lot of feelings right now and I am simply allowing them. This hurts a lot. I am angry that they didnāt think to inform me of her sickness or to give me the option to come say goodbye before she was put to sleep. I suspect that they werenāt caring for her very well. They also started letting her outside. Who knows what was really going on.
She passed away āpeacefullyā on December 23, 2023. She was almost 16 years old.
Iām so glad I got a tattoo of her.
I gave her an amazing life for over 13 years. We had so many cool memories. She was my ride or die until I couldnāt care for her anymore. I knew she was a special kitty. She had her own challenges relating to emotional and mental health. I know this probably sounds crazy because she was an animal. She felt like my first born child.
I feel some peace knowing her soul is free. She isnāt suffering anymore.
Iām going through waves of sadness.
The crazy thing is that Iāve felt like I am grieving since she died without initially knowing. Some part of me knew.
To add: this experience has revealed to me how far Iāve progressed with my healing. ā¤ļøāš©¹
