Long washout experience šŸ™ƒ

The excerpt is from that support article. The article is detailing the best way to rotate a new title into a 3 sub stack-not to run a 4th sub but to run a new sub in your 3 sub stack. The key is how to switch one of your titles in the three sub stack for optimal results and minimal recon. So it’s from the frame of maximizing bloom while diminishing recon by giving the previous sub you were running optimal time to function and ā€œclear outā€ before adding a new one for your mind to process.

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This may be useful for newer users as opposed to experienced users. Maybe not though.

Thank you!!!

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Day 13 of wash out….

Was last minute invited to my ex fiancĆ©s parents house today for gift opening and breakfast. Everyone was so pleasant. Generous kind and warm welcoming. My ex was even striking up conversation with me. Noticed I wasn’t going into freeze mode.

His mom hugged me. :flushed:

It was a total 180 from previous years.

This is the same home I experienced a very traumatic experience 3 years ago just before Christmas.

I did not think I’d ever forgive myself or them.

Thank you sub club.

Merry Christmas :christmas_tree:

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The December Full Moon in Cancer encourages us to let go of excess baggage through silent meditation, thoughtful exchange, or spiritual practice . It serves as an astrological cue to reminisce about personal growth and acknowledge the transformative journey we’ve undertaken.

On point :ok_hand:

2 weeks of washout… Feeling all the feels today duringthis cancer full moon… my sun moon mercury and mars are in Cancer… almost ā€œsheddingā€ time as well… Quite powerful…

I sat here with my phone left in my bedroom dedicating the morning to uninterrupted yoga - postures, breath, stillness, mantra, mudra and deeper connection with myself in a non-violent way. A lot of my unloving, unkind, harmful thoughts/beliefs have surfaced quite rapidly during this washout period… What once used to be a pattern of fight, flight, freeze has turned into feeling it all in the moment… right here, right now… not escaping, distracting, avoiding…

I am going to share some questions and thoughts here for whoever reads this… I hope you will take the time to sit with them and meditate, maybe journal about it… maybe share here about it too… Some unconscious things may surface to the conscious level for you to process and let go of… to free up more space for the lovely… the kind… the pleasant… the desirable… the yummy stuff…

  1. Am I scared of change?
  2. Am I holding on to what I believe I possess, in fear of losing it?
  3. Do I constantly try to freeze my memories, my body, or situations I experience?
  4. Do I wish I could go back in time, or prevent myself from changing?

As long as we avoid uncomfy feelings/thoughts, we stop them from evolving… Do you want to be stagnant or escalate into motion… ?

The universe is in constant motion & so are we…
We exist only in this moment…
Impermanence is the core of our existence…
It requires great wisdom to accept it…
This acceptance leads to an awakening of consciousness…

ā€œLet go of what you’ve been holding on toā€¦ā€

it’s time to feel the moment…

Stop running away and vibrate your full presence…

By identifying what is happening in the body (without judgment), by connecting to the Earth, you will discover more about your emotions and limiting thoughts…

Consciousness rises to the sky and the boundlessly great.

Stop running, freezing or fighting yourself and the world…

Just be you here & now. <3

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I just read this and I’m resonating so much with everything you wrote, thank you for all these inspiring words, it’s so helpful, feeling my true heart shine, any moment of pure presence is so precious, all the love sister!

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21 days of washout. Wow :star_struck:

I feel so much happening without actively listening.

I feel ready for this next phase on my subliminal journey. Super curious if Seductress Dark will take over my stack in place of LBFH or Seductress.

I have said how I will listen to Seductress for life but maybe SD will be my long term core title.

Not so sure.

There’s something about that title that’s speaking to me deeply.

I’ve been embracing the light for quite some time now, but feel there’s power in the dark side too. :smirk:

Just because I was rejected, gossiped about, hated on, judged, ridiculed, not accepted, and all that other icky stuff, doesn’t mean I have to shrink myself or pretend to be something that I am not.

I’ve been reading a really great book that speaks more about Fawn, aka ā€œpeople pleasing.ā€ To try preventing abandonment or discomfort, I would get into that state. This was a very hypervigilant state. I would study people’s behaviours and try reading their non verbal body language. Scan for potential threats and do what I could to avoid that. This isn’t so much what I do now but I find myself going there occasionally. I’m much more aware.

It feels almost like I’m going through another dark night of the soul. Much less intense as the first ones. The false self tries so hard sometimes to ā€œprotectā€ me from feeling good. Feeling good meant there would be consequences. Not feeling good was the familiar more so than not. The nervous system gets accustomed to those stress chemicals and craves them. It’s an addiction.

I’m rewriting my programming though. Cracking the codes! :sweat_smile::upside_down_face:

With awareness comes healing. ā¤ļøā€šŸ©¹

I used to numb myself with drugs and alcohol. This month is 2 years without marijuana. That was my medicine for so long but also my poison. My crutch. My way to escape and evade. To hide. Drown out the noise. It always came back with a vengeance.

2024 ~ sober and pure in heart. :heart:

New beginnings.

Looking back with love.

Proud of how far I’ve come.

I chose this lifetime to have hard lessons, hard losses. It was worth it though.

Teaching from my experiences. It’s my passion.

Like I said in another one of my posts here, it’s time to stop playing small. It’s okay if people don’t like me or agree with what I am sharing. It’s none of my fucking business anyways.

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Dark night of the soul number I don’t know :rofl:

I’m sitting here crying as I reflect on my past experiences where I let fear take over, but also where I had really fucking cool experiences too.

I was a powerful manifestor. I’d quickly attract numerous opportunities relating to my goals/objectives as an artist of music and writing. My perfectionism and traumas got in my way mostly though.

Even though that did happen, I was highly influential on my peers and others too. I was a trend setter. Innovative. Came up with cool ideas for people. I am still this way but I feel sort of lame. I’ll be 37 this year. I focused so much on my kids and family life. The career I settled on for over a decade until 2022. I impacted many lives along the way.

It feels like I’m dying in many ways. How many layers do we have to ourselves? :flushed: Maybe it’s a shed & release, rinse & recycle type thing! :sweat_smile: Or take out all the trash at once and light it up in flames as I watch the ashes blow away.

I’m being a bear in a cave right now. Renewal and retreat. Relaxing until I start this next cycle on my journey. I’m in pjs enjoying my mushroom coffee. I added chaga and turkey tail into the mix alongside my usual reishi, cordyceps & lions mane. I’m loving it.

There’s gotta be something more for me other than what I’m currently doing.

Being a mom to 3 kick ass kids says a lot though. I’ve done really great with them so far. I’ve been highly influential in their lives and that’ll probably always be the way it is with them. Mama bear :bear:

I’m riding the spiral like a spider or something like that. Weaving. :spider_web:

I have a gift with communication and must continuing nurturing that part of me.

I don’t wanna disintegrate and dissolve into the abyss of nothingness.

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You changed skincare routine? Your avatar looks different.

Got my brows done yesterday.

Different is great. :+1:

You look lovely.

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Took some small actions today in areas I procrastinated for far too long that will benefit my growth and expansion with YouTube.

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Those brows :+1:

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2 nights ago I had a dream I was in a castle like building surrounded by lots of people, some I knew and some I didn’t know. I was hanging from the top ready to fall and stopped myself from falling. That was crazy.

I felt something going on in my third eye chakra area before bed last night. Felt like psychic surgery was happening automatically. Removing stuff that needed to go. It was a strange sensation followed by relief after having what felt like a recon headache most of the afternoon. Not even sure how that’s possible 3 weeks into washout, but I can definitely feel stuff happening internally & on all energetic levels.

I will also credit my highly dedicated daily spiritual practice, as well as the non psychoactive plant medicines I consume. Holistically bringing myself to greater awareness and expansion.

Subliminals are my favourite tool.

Everyone is shifting around me in subtle ways. It’s awesome!

I feel all the love :heart:

I go in waves of various emotions and thoughts but eventually find myself on the other side of fear and more into faith and love.

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Oh I forgot to say, I keep finding coins everywhere. For weeks now.

Found a quarter in the back of my Jeep last night. :sweat_smile:

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I felt something going on in my third eye chakra area before bed last night. Felt like psychic surgery was happening automatically. Removing stuff that needed to go.

Lovely plants. Maybe you are already aware this year is a special year in the history of mankind and most humans looking to better themselves are receiving never seen before amounts of help from the universe. I personally cannot wait for this year to unfold!

I like reading your posts, they are soothing and filled with love and strength!

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