An update as I go through recon:
These past few months have been exceptionally productive and have moved the needle quite significantly towards my goals. I’ve challenged myself, and pushed myself to succeed and stay disciplined as much as possible. I’ve seen what I can achieve and what I am capable of. A small list of accomplishments that come to mind:
- Started a side hustle business that I’ve been putting off for a long time, and have made a solid profit already despite it being in its early stages.
- Been a lot more committed to disciplined execution of my daily goals, and following a schedule I set for myself.
- On the brink of a major promotion at work that could double or triple my income
- Being a lot more cognizant of how I spend my time, and who I spend my time with
- In great shape and stronger than I have ever been before.
- Over 4 months of semen retention
- Reconnected with my faith and spiritual practices in a stronger way than ever before
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EXTREME discipline when it comes to my spending habits. Every purchase is thoroughly evaluated beforehand, and have been more frugal than ever before. An overwhelming majority of the money I have earned has gone to paying down debt.
While this is all wonderful and I am truly proud of all that I have accomplished, I’m coming to terms with the fact that I have been living life unbalanced - on the extreme side of “hustling”. In the past several months, not once have I hung out with anyone outside of a work context, with the exception of my family during the holidays. I have become so focused on my goals that I have neglected to have fun. In fact, I’ve actively challenged myself in an almost masochistic way to push my limits and find joy in the discipline and goal achievement.
As I sit here on this Friday evening, I’m really missing that fun, spontaneous side of my life. I know it’ll come back, as life always tends to have its distinct chapters. I feel a burning desire for it to come back. I’m getting burnt out, yet feel the need to push myself more. I know I need to re-engage with being social and fun again, but am concerned about losing the positive momentum and discipline I’ve gained. I’m not even sure I want the promotion and all the pressures that come with it. We’ll see how it unfolds. Just gotta trust the process. Ultimately, my ideal is to keep this discipline and drive but to balance it with rejuvenative fun social experiences.
Thank you for listening to these musings. If you have words of encouragement, or advice, that’s always welcomed. If not, I hope you enjoyed getting a taste of my recon-induced mindset at this moment in time.
TLDR
In other words, “All work and no play makes Ice a dull boy.”
