I decided to start this journal. I am currently running the second 21-day round of Ascended Mogul + EoG stage 1. After this second round I’ll decide whether I’ll replace Asc Mogul. My Sub Club journey started with Ascended Mogul then Emperor (all before ZP). While Emperor did wonders on the internal and emotional side of things, I am still struggling money-wise. To a shameful extent. Last year, I purchased HoM Q but it only gave me reconciliation. I wasn’t ready. This year I came to the conclusion that my money issues are too deep and too severe not to tackle forcefully. I decided to pick only a few good subs and run with that for this whole year. I settled on Asc Mogul + EoG then in fall, Emperor + EoG. I’ll add Mind’s Eye in there, that’s it for this year.
After a month and a half running my stack, I can tell EoG stage 1 is already doing its thing.
A lot of faulty beliefs and habits have just vanished. How do I know? Since I started running EoG stage 1, I started acting and thinking differently about money. In an effortless way. For the first time in my life. Here is a non exhaustive list of what changed so far:
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I’m no longer scared of being broke. I don’t feel rich yet but I don’t feel broke. My bank account says that I’m broke though. But I’m emotionally indifferent about it.
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I pulled out all my bills and debts statements and I’m making plans to pay them. I’m taking action too, making the required phone calls and setting the payment plans that I need. This is something that was hard for me until now.
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I created monthly budget spreadsheet and I’m keeping track of all my expenses. I want to know exactly how much is coming in and how much is going out. I tried that many times before and somehow I’d always “forget” staying on top of it. For years I have been unable to say exactly how much was going out of my bank account. Eventually, banks closed all of my bank accounts and I ended up broke and unemployed, without even a bank account. PayPal was the only place I could get paid.
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I looked at the money that I made last year and I’m shocked at how badly I mismanaged it without even knowing it. Financial blindness and incompetence is a real thing. No wonder running HoM landed me straight in reconciliation and extreme fatigue. I was far from being ready for that sub. Right now I’m not even planning to touch HoM ZP this year.
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I made a list of personal finance books, I’ll pick a good one and STUDY it. I have always read personal development book but never read money related book. I used to avoid those books.
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I just took a full time job, in order to pay the bills and keep food on the table, while I’m strategizing how to rebuild my marketing agency. The jobs is not paying a ton of money. I have made more than that before. However, after putting all the data into the budget spreadsheet, I’m surprised at how much more I can do with that paycheck now. In the past years, even when I was making two times more, I was always broke and living in a state of financial panic. Right now, I’m making way less but I’m feeling completely relaxed about it because I feel that if I plan and budget the right I’d be alright. This one is big because I never thought that way before. Up to now I was just living in a mental state of financial confusion.
After a month and a half on Asc Mogul and EoG stage 1, I am no longer scared of being broke but I still don’t have that deep money-making motivation that I’m looking for. But at least I feel like a ton of brick was lifted off my shoulders.
One mistake that I’m not going to make is to run Emperor while I’m still an employee. I did that 2 or 3 years ago. I ran Emperor without having an actual business. I became bored with working for people and I would quit jobs when I had nothing else lined up but I was never able to grow a real marketing agency. This year I’ll run use Asc Mogul, Mind’s Eye and EoG to get the agency going and when I have a decent client base, I’ll get a part time remote job somewhere to make sure that the bills are paid and use Emperor and Mind’s Eye to grow the agency to a full time very profitable business.