Feeling like my Muay Thai custom, while great, still needs a bit of work.
Don’t feel that Omnidimensional was the right choice, I’d like to re-add DEUS and Submodel Alpha again, and create space for SPS: Cardiovascular System.
Replace Omnidimensional and Mind’s Eye with DEUS, Submodel Alpha, SPS Cardiovascular and the Legacy means I have to remove two modules. I think I might do this custom in ZPT as well, 'cause fuck it why not.
Modules:
Machine: Action
Organization Perfected
Productivity Unleashed
Harmonic Singularity
Carpe Diem Ascended
Eye of the Storm
Technological Prodigy
Joie de Vivre
Victory‘s Call
Khronos Key
Achilles
Index Gate
Overdrive
The Lines
Deep Sleep
The Way of ROI
Fusion Optimized
This would free up 2 slots on my muay thai custom, but it’ll be a while before this custom gets into action.
During the clinch, my partner got a double overhead grip (also known as the full thai plum) on me - for those who don’t know, this is the worst position you could be in because it makes you most susceptible to getting your face and guts obliviated by knees and elbows.
Anyway, he gets the doubles on me and for some reason, I decide to just get on my tip toes and ram my forehead downwards onto his jawline, just continuously applying pressure (not a headbutt, more like me using my head to push him). Sure enough he loses the grip and falls on the ground.
First time I ever tried that “sweep”, and I’m shocked at how successful it was. I feel like MTMX did its thing here, and I’m very happy about that.
One thing I’ve realized in school is that I dominate the classroom, despite being the second youngest person in the entire room.
I provide value, people ask me for feedback and help, teachers step aside to allow me to speak more than any other students, whenever I speak everyone listens and some people even try to be competitive with me. My biggest advantage is in being the best communicator in the room by far, better than all but one of my teachers.
This has been going on for quite some time, so I think it’s just a result of general progression with my masculinity and not just specifically the results of one sub.
Completed my 500 push ups. Easier than I thought it would be.
Crazy to think that I started 2021 without the ability to complete even a single push up. Here we are, September 2022, and I did 500 in a day 'cause a Youtube video challenged me to do so.
Sure, there’s plenty of people younger than me that are ahead of me. Most of them probably did not have to deal with the shitty background that I had - not making excuses, just reality - but I’m happy to say that all I’ve done is continue to progress from that point.
Rebuilding myself day by day. From a broken boy, into a machine built to destroy.
Man I just had an enlightening moment, realized that I had always manifested the idea that my little sister would be the most successful person, and that’s artificially limited my own potential psychologically.
I need to remove that block from my mind to be able to excel at a quicker rate than I currently am at the moment.
On the recommendation of a few more experienced members, I experimented with running a 4th loop of Rebirth once a week.
I regret it immensely. It’s fucked me mentally and psychologically. I was having an immense amount of progress running Khan stage 1, it was such a great experience. But running that Rebirth loop twice has ruined everything.
I failed to take into account the fact that I was switching from QL stage 2 to QL stage 3, so that further messed things up for my subconscious.
I found myself caving into my weakness and my past addictions again, my productivity has diminished significantly, I have tripped into the darkness again.
Good on you for wanting to do a lot of healing. Khan stage 1 and Rebirth might be a good combination if used in moderation. Perhaps 1 week washout, then run Rebirth at 5 minutes once a week, along with Khan twice a week at 5 minutes each, and notice what happens.
I actually have no intention whatsoever to do a lot of healing to be quite honest with you. I just ran Khan stage 1 and experienced a taste of the ultimate domination and relaxation feeling that was borderline therapeutic, and I want more but I’m just trying to figure out how.
I’m contemplating on how I should go about it. Wondering if I should put my muay thai custom on hold since it’s not really a priority of mine, and perhaps continue to run QL stage 2 instead of going to stage 3.
Rebirth, Khan Stage 1 and QL Stage 2 might just be the way for me to go but I’ll be honest; if I get recon from that stack, I’m exiting the Khan train for the time being. I think running Rebirth was kinda what f**ked it all up for me so whether it’s the actual healing or the by-product of using a 4th loop is for me to find out, once I resume my subliminal use between October 7 and 10.
Recon has completely messed me up. I feel hopeless and lost, and things keep compounding and getting worse. Don’t even want to post here, because people don’t really give a shit; they like you when things are going well but they’ll toss you out when it’s the opposite. I feel nervous about not running any subs at the moment, and I know that’s a by-product of the recon because I’ve never felt that before.
Self-pity, hopelessness, dependence; these are the feelings I’m going through right now. I should be able to let my mind rationalize and conquer those emotions and yet I cannot for the moment.
September 21, I felt like I was completely up and ready to destroy, progressing more than ever before. 10 days later and I feel like I’m back to the very beginning, over a year’s worth of progress gone to waste.
The future is deceptive. We should be grateful for every moment that we have. It can all be taken away instantly.
I wonder if I should try running LBFH. Think I need some self-love and love for others at the moment, just to get myself back on track. Or maybe I should just bite down and go all in on Rebirth and Khan stage 1, forge myself in the fire.
I pride myself on my mental toughness. I am clutch, I excel when the pressure mounts, I get stronger when I see people around me get weaker. But my greatest enemy is my greatest ally, and that is my mind.
What I need is to gain control over my inner voice again. My inner voice needs to be as gallant as it was before, my inner voice needs to remember that a man does not do what he wants, a man does what is needed. I need to do what is needed, I cannot waste all the progress I have made.
You got too ambitious and got bit. There was no reason to start adding 4th loops of Rebirth. Go and read the objectives for Rebirth, that is some intense healing. You experienced massive amounts of recon, got overwhelmed, lacked the ability to handle it and went into a negative spiral.
This whole experience is probably a manifestation of Khan, where you have to reconsider who you’re taking advice from and to not blindly follow recommendations from people who seem “experienced”. There are a lot of people here who you’d think are “experienced”, (been here for a long ass time and have fancy Arch Alchemist titles) yet have nothing to show for it lol. They give advice when they’re in absolutely no position to be giving advice.
My recommendation as an advanced user would be first and foremost, what do you gravitate towards deep inside… since the entire subliminal journey is subjective. Use intuition above all, then analyze and question if your path makes sense. Is it logical.
A 4th title in your stack… is not logical. A 4th title that focuses on heavy healing (high propensity to invoke emotional turmoil), is definitely not logical. Listening to Rebirth was like throwing a fiery wrench in your stable development, which from gauging your journal… doesn’t seem to mesh with your natural modus of operating now, does it?.. - there wasn’t enough thought given here. When people don’t think, then things get fucked. Very fast.
Rebirth is unnecessary. You can fully embody Khan without the need for Rebirth. Just look at the amount of results of LBFH vs Rebirth all over the forum, I mean Rebirth just gets blown out of the water lol… there’s nothing to compare.
Running LBFH + Khan ST1 for at least 3 months would be deadly. You’ll get back to your momentum of Khan ST1 but you’ll likely be even more solid due to the higher vibration. The tranquility of LBFH will make you calmer and accentuate the dominance of Khan, giving you that powerful therapeutic state of relaxation you seek… The healing of LBFH is more gentle and will enhance sociability. You’re a social guy aren’t you?
Get up and wipe the dirt off your pants. When you’re on the ground like that, it looks like you’re kneeling and Khan doesn’t kneel to fucking anyone. Go on now and conquer lol, there’s nothing to be hopeless about… this little ordeal is no different than the millions of other obstacles life hurls at us. It means nothing. Go onwards now, your story is just beginning
This is very true, and actually a bit of a pattern in my life where, despite being the most knowledgeable on a matter, I’ll defer to other people and their opinions. I’m pretty sure that it has something to do with feeling ostracized as a kid for being very smart, so the idea of deferring to others and/or dumbing myself down to be more relatable seems like the root cause of this.
Yeah, seems like that is the best way to go.
You are 100% right on this. Instead of being very methodical and precise like I usually am, I took a quick chance at trying something that I had a feeling wouldn’t work anyway. My ambition, impatience and, to be quite honest insecurity, was what worked against me here.
I chose to ran Rebirth because I was confused with the lack of recon that I was experiencing from Stage 1. I wasn’t going through a “total breakdown” (ask and ye shall receive lol) so I thought that I wasn’t getting the right results but in retrospect, I was clearly aware and satisfied with the results that I was having.
Fucking poetic. It means nothing because it is nothing. As Meek once said, wins and losses come with being bosses.
I was shopping with family and we were in some designer handbag store since that’s what they were looking for. They said that they remembered me because I was surrounded by women (they didn’t realize that they were all family) and they remembered my positive interactions with their staff, despite the fact that I really didn’t do anything much or out of the ordinary. I was running Stark at the time however, so I suspect that I stuck out that much more so that the second time I ever went, they clearly remembered who I was. I just thought that was odd, as I’m not a regular or anything like that.
Is recon still hitting? Yeah I’d say so, even during this washout period. But thankfully, I feel like I’m being somewhat productive again with my time. School’s a lot more intense now, but that just means it’s more entertaining.
Man, I try to be more productive and all that happens is that I’m hit with major fatigue and a headache. This shit’s been happening almost every day since the 22nd, starting to get real fucking annoyed with this shit.
I was in bed for a few hours trying to sleep from how exhausted I felt, couldn’t even do that. So I decided to just get out of bed and get some work done, it’s really all I could do at this point.
