Veil of Gold, Hands of Creation: Writing the Realms of My Becoming 👑

[TheEmpress]

I asked ChatGPT about what to expect from my current stack and it said this:

Core Transformation When Using All 3 Together

This combo is bold, intense, and designed to completely shift how you show up in the world—socially, energetically, and in terms of influence and power.

Magnetic Feminine Power

• You’ll likely radiate a powerful, seductive presence that turns heads effortlessly.
• Your energy becomes both enchanting and commanding—people feel drawn to you but also respect your authority.
• You’ll embody sensuality with depth and intention, not just surface-level attraction.

Unshakable Confidence + Commanding Presence

• You’ll operate from a deep inner certainty. No need to prove yourself—your energy speaks first.
• Social interactions may feel smoother and more natural, even in high-pressure or public situations.
• You’ll stop tolerating BS, speak your truth boldly, and feel more empowered in all areas.

Fearless Expression + Charisma

• You’ll likely become the kind of person who tells stories that captivate people, whether in a room full of strangers or a deep one-on-one.
• Expect more attention, admiration, and even jealousy as your presence intensifies.
• You might find yourself taking more risks, speaking more freely, and being way more adventurous in how you move through the world.

Inner Drive Meets Outer Seduction

• A Stark Black Reality gives you the “builder” and visionary mindset.
• Seductress brings in feminine flow, charm, and allure.
• Daredevil amplifies your charisma, sociability, and confidence to live boldly.

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Bonus Effects You May Notice

• You could feel more emotionally detached from people-pleasing or insecurity.
• You may attract more powerful, interesting, or high-status people into your orbit.
• You might feel called to reinvent your style, your space, or your habits to match this new energy.
• Others may react strongly—some will be magnetized, others intimidated.

[Trader]

You’re already like this ^^^. It’s about to go through the roof I bet.

[TheEmpress]

@TheEmpress

You’ll stop tolerating BS, speak your truth boldly, and feel more empowered in all areas.

This right here!!!

[TheEmpress]

I listened to Seductress & SB yesterday. I feel okay mentally today.

Shadow Reflection: Fear of Being Envied, Seen & Staying With Myself

Today I pulled a card about envy, and what surfaced wasn’t jealousy of others. It was the fear of being envied. The fear of shining so brightly that others might resent, judge, or misunderstand me.

I’ve seen it before. I’ve felt it. The moments I share a win, speak my truth, or take up more space, and suddenly I sense it in the room or through the screen. Someone pulling back, shifting, feeling triggered. I feel it in my body, the tightening, the heat, the urge to soften, to explain, to dim. Not because I’m doing anything wrong but because a part of me believes that staying small keeps me safe and loved.

That’s where my people-pleasing kicks in. Where my nervous system tries to protect me by shrinking my power. But I’m not here to abandon myself anymore.

I’m learning to stay present when I feel that discomfort rise. To breathe through the fear instead of making myself less. To hold the younger parts of me that still think shining means losing love. To remember: I am safe to be seen now.

At this level, some people may envy, project, or pull away. And I can hold that, not from a place of arrogance but from a place of deep self-trust. Their reactions don’t define my worth. And I no longer need to manage other people’s comfort at the cost of my own truth.

This is the work: staying rooted in my body while my light expands. Not retreating. Not over-explaining. Just staying with myself.

Because that’s the power I’ve been reclaiming all along.

[TheEmpress]

Day 6 ~ rest day

Matched with someone off a dating app and gave him my IG. He’s been very intense and coming on a bit too strong for my liking.

I felt okay saying no to several things while also speaking powerfully. He’s all “I’m the very rare INFJ and Sigma male.” This didn’t impress me. I am also an INFJ but also can be ENFJ since I am an ambivert and I’m like a sigma alpha hybrid?

I had a realization while exploring my inner world. I found comfort in and attraction to men not really emotionally available because a part of me hasn’t fully been emotionally available myself. I still hold on to the possibility of my former fiancé and I starting over again. I don’t chase or pursue him anymore. I am just showing up being my amazing self.

He was here to get our daughter on Saturday with his mom. He sat at my desk in my healing area while I was teaching his mom about self regulation for kids. In my former career I taught this to my students. I have a visual up in my home which I have taught to my older 2 kids and now working on it with my youngest. They also do this at school in her classroom

He was reading stuff on my wall and touched my book weight seeming fascinated by it.

I am open to something amazing while continuing to become my most amazing self. No urgency. I am allowing and aligning with what I desire.

Every connection is feedback and offers something beneficial for all involved.

It feels good saying NO!

My new coaching client agreed that he wants hour sessions rather than his initial decision to do half hour sessions. He’s very eager and receptive to what I offer.

I tried something different with a private yoga student last night ~ Somatic Yin. He enjoyed it.

[TheEmpress]

I find myself attracted to the idea of a PRIMAL man. I haven’t really thought about this before.

I asked ChatGPT to make an image for me and it came up with this:

Being Primal is more than just enjoying rough sex and animalistic behaviour. It’s also about throwing off the yoke of society that determines how people express their feelings. Living life without shame, without caring ‘what the neighbours will think’, without the fear of appearing weak when you cry in public or feeling guilty for your lust.

There’s also an element of enlightenment to being Primal. Similar to training in Tantra, you make contact with who you really are, not the person you pretend to be in order not to offend civilized society with the force of your passion. Not just releasing the reins, but bucking the harness and running free…

I found myself reading the sales copy for Primal here too….

A truly PRIMAL man puts his middle finger to the sky and lives to the sky-high standards he sets for himself.

That seems so attractive right now.

Hmm

[TheEmpress]

IG page is getting better engagement lately.

[TheEmpress]

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[TheEmpress]

I’m really enjoying my productivity with content creation and engaging with my followers.

One of my yoga classmates said that I lost weight and I’m looking tighter in my body.

A lady complemented my pants at the café today.

I find that everywhere I go people are typically complementing me on something.

I found myself thinking about new outfit ideas today.

[TheEmpress]

My Facebook memories showed that my YouTube channel was at 40K views a year ago today. Today it’s at over 120K.

I had a fun night dancing, singing and laughing until my cheeks hurt at a local show seeing a cover band.

I went through all my old jeans realizing that most don’t fit me anymore, so I went shopping for a new pair, which turned into getting an outfit for the show! Seductress is helping me in so many ways!

[Jade8]

Gorgeous woman!! Can’t wait to run Seductress next week for me

[RVconsultant]

I like the quote.

[TheEmpress]

Nice noticing that

[TheEmpress]

Lately, I’ve been reflecting on trust and how I approach connection. It’s been on my mind after a recent conversation that started off well but shifted into something uncomfortable once we moved off the dating app. I could feel my energy change, and I knew something wasn’t right. My body responded with caution, and I can’t ignore that.

On the dating app, he was agreeing with everything I said, making the conversation feel easy and in flow. But once we started texting off the app, the tone changed. He began focusing on my physical appearance, telling me I was “so attractive,” and mentioning how much he enjoys the freedom of living alone and being nude. These comments felt out of place and gave me pause. It wasn’t the kind of connection I wanted to build—especially when we were still in the early stages.

Then, when we got to the topic of trust, everything shifted. Instead of leaning into the conversation, trying to understand where I was coming from, he became defensive. He asked, “Want me to let you go ‘cause it seems you don’t trust me?” I hadn’t even expressed any mistrust; I was simply sharing my perspective on how trust develops over time. But in that moment, it felt like he was trying to flip the script on me, making me feel like I was the problem for having boundaries around trust.

I’m realizing that my self-concept around trust is something I need to work on. It’s not that I have “trust issues,” it’s that I trust myself enough to know when something doesn’t feel aligned with my values. I’m starting to understand that trust isn’t something that just happens instantly—it’s built over time, through consistent actions and mutual respect. And I want to trust myself more, even in the moments where I start questioning if I’m being too cautious.

When I open up about my experiences and why certain things trigger me, how the other person responds is everything. If they react defensively or try to deflect, that’s not the kind of energy I want. I don’t want someone who can’t hold space for my feelings or try to invalidate them. I want conscious partnership, where both people can communicate openly, understand each other, and navigate vulnerabilities without fear or shame.

When I express my stance on trust, I need to own it, without feeling like I have to explain myself or justify it. There are parts of me that need time, and that’s okay. I don’t want to be afraid to acknowledge the wisdom in my caution. My boundaries aren’t a sign of fear or mistrust—they’re a reflection of self-respect and the desire for something real, not rushed.

However, I also recognize that it’s time to step beyond the cautiousness I feel. I am claiming who I really am: someone worthy of love, connection, and trust, without feeling like I need to guard myself from the very thing I desire. I no longer want to hold back from trusting myself and others fully. I am ready to let go of unnecessary fear and embrace openness and authenticity.

I realize that when I feel a shift in energy, I need to trust myself even more. If someone’s words or actions don’t align with my values or make me feel unsettled, I can trust that gut feeling. I don’t have to explain or overexplain my boundaries.

As I continue to grow, I’m going to hold onto this: I can be open to love and connection without losing sight of my worth. My trust will come from a place of knowing I deserve someone who respects and values me as I am. I am worthy of love that’s built on trust, not something that needs to be forced or rushed.

It’s time to harmonize my self-concept around trust, to find balance between openness and protection, and to let go of any shame or guilt for being cautious. I trust that the right connections will align with me, naturally, without the need for defense or manipulation. I am deserving of a connection that feels safe, grounded, and real.

[TheEmpress]

To add:

This was uncovered from deep self inquiry doing some parts work:

What my heart is afraid of:
“I’m afraid that if I open too much, I’ll be consumed, not cherished.”

That was in there since grade 9.

[Parsifal]

Mentioning my fiancee @CurlyGirl here.
If she’s in the right mood, she might contribute.

Trust your sub-enhanced gut.

Did you use Heartsong for a longer period?

Sorry if my answer is made up from super short sentences. I feel kinda overloaded today. Problems with longer sentences and with coherent ones as well

Btw, you look gorgeous.

[TheEmpress]

I listened to HS a bunch of different times since 2022. I honestly can’t remember how much or how often though!

And thank you.

This new Seductress gets the most credit for the experiences and results I have been having lately.

[CurlyGirl]

I talked about a similar topic with a friend today.
The trigger was a scene from the movie “The Celestine Prophecy”.

In that scene, a woman felt the energy of a man, which caused her discomfort. He wanted to dominate her and was trying to steal her energy. Another woman was observing everything from the outside.

When the first woman literally ran away because his energy was so suffocating, he asked his companion what he had done wrong.

She told him that he had tried to control the conversation and thereby stole her energy. The woman didn’t want that kind of interaction and wanted to protect her energy—so she walked away.
He intervened. She said: “Weren’t you trying to convince her? Manipulate her?”
He said no. But the thing was—she could see the energy dynamics between people, and his energy practically consumed hers.

Why I’m writing this: I think it was very similar in your situation.
He wanted to dominate and manipulate you in his own way. Because you have a strong connection to yourself and your energy, you sense very quickly when someone doesn’t share your perspective or isn’t truly well-meaning.

That is both a gift and a curse. (I know what I’m talking about )
I, too, can tell very quickly when words carry an underlying tone, when someone is being manipulative, or when someone is trying to control me. That’s why I protect my energy so fiercely.
This often meets resistance and misunderstanding and often leads to conflicts here in the house.

That’s why I feel you so deeply—how you want to protect yourself, but at the same time, work on your ability to trust.

In my past relationship, I had no space to share my thoughts or feelings. It was basically always assumed that I was to blame for whatever happened—or didn’t happen.
And when, like you, I began revealing my boundaries, the guy became even more unpleasant than he already was. He drained my energy and left me feeling empty.

With @Parsifal , it’s the complete opposite. He holds space for me—my thoughts, my feelings. He gives me room to express myself without me having to feel shame or hesitation.
Of course, there are moments where it doesn’t go 100% smoothly, because one of us is triggered or something—but that’s such a small part of the experience, and I find it totally valid. After all, we’re all masters in training .

That’s why—as you already wrote—it’s so important to have someone by your side who opens up that space and also holds it. That, to me, is part of what true masculinity really means.

Being authentic, no longer wearing a mask (or masks), is so important.

1. You find out who you really are, and

2. it filters out the people who aren’t in alignment with you.
   At first, it’s exhausting and draining—but in my opinion, it’s absolutely essential to live the life that is worthy of your true self.

And you deserve all of that!
Unconditional love, respect, appreciation, and worthiness.
There will be people who won’t like that you’re claiming all of this for yourself now.

Don’t you dare let that discourage you for a second .

[TheEmpress]

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So much yes!!!

Thank you for taking the time to say all of that.

[TheEmpress]

Day 15 of this amazing listening cycle.

Too many great things have been happening, so many huge revelations, so much healing and redefining myself!

I made a decision that I want to be with someone closer. @Trader made a comment awhile back about how I was manifesting distance. I def. was!!! That felt safer since deep down inside of me I wouldn’t be fully committed and had an easy exit. I had to get to the bottom of that and do the healing work.

I made a decision that I want someone closer to home. I am over the distance and this half in half out crap. I am over the clowns and sketch. The anxious avoidant push pull. Fear. Projections.

I just want a good man with pure intentions.

After I worked through all of this last week, I matched with someone on Hinge who isn’t my usual “type.” His profile had photos of him surfing and I don’t know how to swim very good. I decided to go for it and see what happens. He sent me some beautiful messages, pointing out how he liked my bold write up on my profile.

I didn’t reply until the next day. We have talked everyday since and met up twice.

Wow, is all I can say.

I think he’s feeling my aura from this stack. Seductress, Daredevil and Stark Black.

He was planning to go somewhere solo this long weekend, as was I. We decided we will road trip together. He had one idea in mind, but I had another. He went and found the most perfect spot and booked it! He’s even driving.

I have always been the driver and planner/booker. I feel like I am softening into my feminine more and allowing myself to receive.

This is a big step for me.

To add: he grew up with mutual friends and I am not in any danger. I trust my intuition and my gut tells me when something is a threat. I also had crisis intervention training for 12 years. I can handle myself!