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WASH OUT TIME!
Once my mind was my own battlefield, trapped in struggle, weighed down by a life that felt heavier than I could carry. But through it all, something in me refused to break. I learned, I unlearned, I softened, I expanded. Today freedom isn’t just a word, it’s a feeling, a knowing, a way of being. It’s in the laughter, the quiet moments, the space I give myself to simply be. I am not who I was and that is the most beautiful thing. 
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Have you ever noticed how your relationships shift as you grow?
At one point, you may have found yourself caught in cycles of anxious pursuit or avoidant withdrawal—seeking validation, fearing abandonment, or feeling the need to protect yourself by keeping others at a distance. Maybe you overgave, hoping it would make someone stay, or pulled away when things felt too close, unsure if love could truly be safe.
But as you step into your truth, everything begins to change. You start feeling good about yourself, learning to love yourself fully, and rebuilding self-respect. The way you speak to yourself softens. Your inner dialogue becomes one of reassurance rather than criticism, confidence rather than self-doubt. And as your self-concept strengthens, so do your relationships.
You recognize when connection feels forced and when it flows naturally. You no longer chase or tolerate one-sided dynamics. Instead, you gravitate toward relationships that feel balanced—where dialogue is equal, where love is freely given rather than earned, where you are met with the same level of care and presence you offer.
No experience is wasted. Even the painful ones teach you about your needs, your boundaries, your non-negotiables. They show you where you’ve outgrown old patterns and what you are now ready to receive. The more you align with your truth, the more your relationships align with you.
Love becomes lighter when it is mutual. Dialogue feels richer when both voices are truly heard. Real connection begins when you realize you are worthy of it.
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New stack: Seductress + DD + SB
I will be listening to Seductress every listening day while switching between DD + SB on those alternate listening days. I will be doing a 17 day listening cycle. Playing around with my sweet spot again.
DAY 1: Seductress + DD
Feeling pretty good right now. I’ve been reconnecting with a guy I used to talk to during the pandemic. He asked to hang out back then which signalled a belief in me that he just wanted to hook up. I’m a fan of his band and went to a bunch of their shows over the years since we first spoke. He followed me on IG the other day and we’ve been speaking since.
He wants to go hiking and cook me dinner. Him and I are both healing from breakups that we initiated. Meeting as friends is a good starting point.
What I notice is how the old anxious attachment stuff comes up wanting me to focus on outcomes rather than just being in the NOW.
I am consciously working on this.
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Day 2 ~ rest
Holy busy dream world. Lots was happening!
Paid off my credit card completely today.
Paid off my balance for spa treatments today.
New coaching client booked and prepaid for 3 sessions this month today.
I made 2 long videos for YouTube, made the thumbnails and got them uploaded today.
Had a powerful session with a coaching client.
I started looking at tuning fork sets to add to my healing room earlier.
My teeth look whiter.
My nails are very strong and healthy.
I am noticing a lot of deep subconscious beliefs thanks to the new Seductress.
I have a dentist appointment next week which I notice stirs up some discomfort within me.
Noticing where I am getting pissed off with my lack of boundaries around “friends” coming to me with their problems when they know I am a professional and skilled helper. One of my “friends” literally just did a coaching call with me 2 days ago and proceeded to share more and more since then. I clearly stated how I offer monthly packages with daily text support. She selected a single session which does not include text support. When I tried talking to her about it she laughed it off and said I will tell her when there needs to be a boundary. 
Another friend has been reaching out late at night about their deep mental and emotional issues. Its quite prevalent that I need to work on this!
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Moon in Pisces, eh? Yep. Sometimes I love this placement, sometimes I hate it. =x
If you all believe in such things. I’m still on the fence.
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I have moon in cancer 
I’d like to blow it up sometimes 
I asked ChatGPT about what to expect from my current stack and it said this:
Core Transformation When Using All 3 Together
This combo is bold, intense, and designed to completely shift how you show up in the world—socially, energetically, and in terms of influence and power.
Magnetic Feminine Power
• You’ll likely radiate a powerful, seductive presence that turns heads effortlessly.
• Your energy becomes both enchanting and commanding—people feel drawn to you but also respect your authority.
• You’ll embody sensuality with depth and intention, not just surface-level attraction.
Unshakable Confidence + Commanding Presence
• You’ll operate from a deep inner certainty. No need to prove yourself—your energy speaks first.
• Social interactions may feel smoother and more natural, even in high-pressure or public situations.
• You’ll stop tolerating BS, speak your truth boldly, and feel more empowered in all areas.
Fearless Expression + Charisma
• You’ll likely become the kind of person who tells stories that captivate people, whether in a room full of strangers or a deep one-on-one.
• Expect more attention, admiration, and even jealousy as your presence intensifies.
• You might find yourself taking more risks, speaking more freely, and being way more adventurous in how you move through the world.
Inner Drive Meets Outer Seduction
• A Stark Black Reality gives you the “builder” and visionary mindset.
• Seductress brings in feminine flow, charm, and allure.
• Daredevil amplifies your charisma, sociability, and confidence to live boldly.
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Bonus Effects You May Notice
• You could feel more emotionally detached from people-pleasing or insecurity.
• You may attract more powerful, interesting, or high-status people into your orbit.
• You might feel called to reinvent your style, your space, or your habits to match this new energy.
• Others may react strongly—some will be magnetized, others intimidated.
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You’re already like this ^^^. It’s about to go through the roof I bet.
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This right here!!!
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I listened to Seductress & SB yesterday. I feel okay mentally today.
Shadow Reflection: Fear of Being Envied, Seen & Staying With Myself
Today I pulled a card about envy, and what surfaced wasn’t jealousy of others. It was the fear of being envied. The fear of shining so brightly that others might resent, judge, or misunderstand me.
I’ve seen it before. I’ve felt it. The moments I share a win, speak my truth, or take up more space, and suddenly I sense it in the room or through the screen. Someone pulling back, shifting, feeling triggered. I feel it in my body, the tightening, the heat, the urge to soften, to explain, to dim. Not because I’m doing anything wrong but because a part of me believes that staying small keeps me safe and loved.
That’s where my people-pleasing kicks in. Where my nervous system tries to protect me by shrinking my power. But I’m not here to abandon myself anymore.
I’m learning to stay present when I feel that discomfort rise. To breathe through the fear instead of making myself less. To hold the younger parts of me that still think shining means losing love. To remember: I am safe to be seen now.
At this level, some people may envy, project, or pull away. And I can hold that, not from a place of arrogance but from a place of deep self-trust. Their reactions don’t define my worth. And I no longer need to manage other people’s comfort at the cost of my own truth.
This is the work: staying rooted in my body while my light expands. Not retreating. Not over-explaining. Just staying with myself.
Because that’s the power I’ve been reclaiming all along.
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Day 6 ~ rest day
Matched with someone off a dating app and gave him my IG. He’s been very intense and coming on a bit too strong for my liking.
I felt okay saying no to several things while also speaking powerfully. He’s all “I’m the very rare INFJ and Sigma male.” This didn’t impress me. I am also an INFJ but also can be ENFJ since I am an ambivert and I’m like a sigma alpha hybrid? 
I had a realization while exploring my inner world. I found comfort in and attraction to men not really emotionally available because a part of me hasn’t fully been emotionally available myself. I still hold on to the possibility of my former fiancé and I starting over again. I don’t chase or pursue him anymore. I am just showing up being my amazing self.
He was here to get our daughter on Saturday with his mom. He sat at my desk in my healing area while I was teaching his mom about self regulation for kids. In my former career I taught this to my students. I have a visual up in my home which I have taught to my older 2 kids and now working on it with my youngest. They also do this at school in her classroom
He was reading stuff on my wall and touched my book weight seeming fascinated by it.
I am open to something amazing while continuing to become my most amazing self. No urgency. I am allowing and aligning with what I desire.
Every connection is feedback and offers something beneficial for all involved.
It feels good saying NO!
My new coaching client agreed that he wants hour sessions rather than his initial decision to do half hour sessions. He’s very eager and receptive to what I offer.
I tried something different with a private yoga student last night ~ Somatic Yin. He enjoyed it.
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I find myself attracted to the idea of a PRIMAL man. I haven’t really thought about this before.
I asked ChatGPT to make an image for me and it came up with this:
Being Primal is more than just enjoying rough sex and animalistic behaviour. It’s also about throwing off the yoke of society that determines how people express their feelings. Living life without shame, without caring ‘what the neighbours will think’, without the fear of appearing weak when you cry in public or feeling guilty for your lust.
There’s also an element of enlightenment to being Primal. Similar to training in Tantra, you make contact with who you really are, not the person you pretend to be in order not to offend civilized society with the force of your passion. Not just releasing the reins, but bucking the harness and running free…
I found myself reading the sales copy for Primal here too….
A truly PRIMAL man puts his middle finger to the sky and lives to the sky-high standards he sets for himself.
That seems so attractive right now.
Hmm 
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I’m really enjoying my productivity with content creation and engaging with my followers. 
One of my yoga classmates said that I lost weight and I’m looking tighter in my body.
A lady complemented my pants at the café today.
I find that everywhere I go people are typically complementing me on something.
I found myself thinking about new outfit ideas today.
My Facebook memories showed that my YouTube channel was at 40K views a year ago today. Today it’s at over 120K.
I had a fun night dancing, singing and laughing until my cheeks hurt at a local show seeing a cover band.
I went through all my old jeans realizing that most don’t fit me anymore, so I went shopping for a new pair, which turned into getting an outfit for the show! Seductress is helping me in so many ways!
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Gorgeous woman!! Can’t wait to run Seductress next week for me 
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I like the quote.
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