The Rebirth Of Ouroboros

Journals - Custom Subliminals
#117

Aaaaaaand I’m back.

Washout Day 1

LOVELY little run of Genesis, definitely had some pros and cons.

I feel like a took a much needed spiritual healing break to focus on the other areas of my life, ASIDE from ambition and wealth. Get my lifestyle locked in a bit, which is definitely important.

Which was great for my mindset, my happiness, my social connection.

One benefit of Genesis was that my relationship gained a lot of clarity through communication.

I wouldn’t even say DEEPENED as in got better… it’s already great…

We just managed to have a lot of conversations and get clarity on a lot of things.

The biggest personal clarification on my end is basically getting a lot more clarity on when exactly is the right time to propose. And it’s a lot sooner than I originally was thinking. Genesis helped me overcome some “objections” I was giving myself regarding that. I won’t get too deep in the weeds on this but essentially Genesis is giving me clarity on the rest of my life.

However, in regards to WEALTH, my main focus, after solo’ing Genesis, I’m feeling SLOW.

And maybe I needed to slow down, so I could be more intentional, so I could vroom vroom even faster without crashing.

But I feel a little bored, not living life to the fullest of my potential wealth-wise. So I’m excited to RAMP IT UP!

My financial anxiety is definitely down, my quality of relationship is definitely up, my social skills and purpose are amplified, I have a few vacations/days off/retreats that I booked for the summer over the last two weeks, and I spent pretty much 80% of my days over the last two weeks with my GF which she really appreciates.

Nice little reprieve from the grind, and I made money without grinding, too.

But now, back to work.

Thought to self: Hmm… I’ve been doing SO well with HOM, so I should probably go back to HOM after my washout (including Genesis)… but at the same time, I need that DRIVE, so what about Emperor? It’s HOM that’s been getting me all that success so yeah I’ll probably go HOM + Genesis next cycle, and if I need more work ethic, add in the commander or EOG1.

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#118

One thing people are surprised to hear is that despite all that I’ve been through, I never really did solve procrastination.

It’s just not the most important lever.

If I work 6 hours per day instead of 8, my work is 25% less effective.

However, within those 6 hours per day, if I’m doing the right things, I can be 100x more effective.

But listening to Genesis has me taking stock of my life.

Coffee? Don’t need it.

YouTube? Delete it?

Walking? Bring it back.

Meditation? Bring it back

Porn? Tried watching it today. Super bored. Turned it off. And I have no shame around porn either, since it’s not frequent for me. But I just had zero interest.

The cynical part of me is saying “we’ll see how long this motivation lasts!”

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#119

Washout day 2

a friend of mine has been listening to EOG1

He said,

“I think the subliminals are working!”

I asked how he knows. He said…

“I’m working my ass off. I’ve also realized that I focus on the small shit that doesn’t grow the company but keeps me busy and prevents me from spending time building the company. I’ve had a fear of building the company. Fuck that fear!”

I love EOG1. Even when you don’t believe it works, it works!

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#120

That’s awesome that you have other friends open to this stuff bro!

Only friends I have actively listening to subs are you, @Monarch and another online friend who only lurks and doesn’t have an account here.

How’d you introduce that to them? Are they from the lab?

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#121

LOL after enough time, 9 times out of 10, they want it sooner than we think.

#122

This is a piece of healing I’ve had recently too, regarding the complete lack of efficacy of the word “should” and changing that to “I want to”

“I want to do some zone 2 cardio” Ok mind, thanks for making that clear, let’s do it/figure it out

Changes the game

#123

I introduce subs to people as part of my coaching in the lab, privately, and if they’re really open minded, and it’s received well cuz i have authority.

This guy isn’t from there, he’s just a close friend, I introduced them to him 2 years ago and he brushed it off but now that he’s staying with me I just played it and he started noticing a change

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#124

It’s a lot sooner for me, i meant. I know her timeline, what I meant was I’m ready to do it sooner than I thought I was gonna be ready

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#125

Lot of entps found this to be good: Why Procrastinators Procrastinate — Wait But Why

#126

Deleting YouTube was actually crazy.

When I sat down for lunch, I wanted to pull out a youtube video.

When I had a no-show I wanted to pull out a youtube video.

When I was about to go to the gym, I wanted to pull out a youtube video… and every time I try to pull out a “music mix” for working out, I end up watching memes.

This was definitely an amazing decision.

My work ethic is great today and yet I feel more balanced, like, I feel like I’m working hard, but not at a frenetic pace, not pushing myself past my limits in an unhealthy way, mentally I’m happy, physically I’m busy.

Also didn’t drink coffee today which might’ve helped! Slower and more stable.

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#127

Washout day 3

I go to Medellin Colombia with my girlfriend on Sunday

My heart wants to go all in on sales right now.

My brain is saying “take time off and socialize/have fun”

But I have a false belief that it has to be one or the other.

#128

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#129

Colombia’s goal will be to work hard AND play hard

Focused from 9-5

Living life LARGE from 5-9

(My girlfriend will still be working 8 hours a day, so, I will have a consistent schedule)

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#130

Went out and socialized

I don’t want to read too much into m PERCEPTION of what happened

But my observations were

  • I was quieter and was ok with people “thinking I’m not talking enough”

  • I crushed it when we randomly played tennis even tho it was quite dark

  • I was very comfortable being myself and doing my own thing, had zero people pleasing tendencies

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#131

Washout day 4

STILL getting bloom from Genesis on this washout.

My addictions & impulses are WAY down.

And the result is “unfolding” like it would on RoM.

I’m not setting “quit” intentions. There’s no initiative I’m putting on myself to be less impulsive & self-destructive.

I just am unfolding into a reality where all of a sudden NOT drinking coffee seems like the most natural course of action, even though I’ve been hooked for so long that I can’t work without it.

It’s like I’m looking at coffee and making decisions completely objectively, with all the emotion and craving removed.

All of a sudden, YouTube seems crazy to have downloaded on my phone.

All of a sudden, I’m only interested in online gaming (chess) on other people’s computer, if it’s social, for an hour or two, once every couple of weeks.

I didn’t plan for any of this.

I’m just letting it unfold.

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Main Disc. Thread - Genesis ZP
#132

Solo genesis bloom

I’m working hard, but, working hard doesn’t seem so hard.

Longer hours feel more natural as I’m more in touch with myself.

Working with myself rather than against myself

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#133

End Of Washout Day 4, recon is fairly high

Thoughts had on recon, documented purely as a time capsule for what this recon currently looks and feels like. Take all of this with poetic license.

I feel like I’m missing something.

Missing something both inside of myself, and outside, in my life.

Outside of me, life seems dull.

While the revelations & introspections of Genesis are profound, I also feel like my life is boring.

While on HOM I felt like I was the King of something, on Genesis, I’m in touch with my vulnerability as a man… even with my tenderness as the boy inside the man.

HOM gives life a narrow focus - wealth & influence & prestige. And on HOM, I excel at those things. All the fixings of life outside of that, I can ignore, I can choose not to think about it, because as far as HOM is concerned, I am living my purpose.

But Genesis is much more than that. It’s about a balanced life. Wealth. AND social life. AND personal confidence. AND emotional healing. And I’m not the master of all of those. I’ve seen them all improve with Genesis, but, I’ve seen that I need to improve them, as well. So instead of feeling like king of the world I feel the holes in my life that need to be filled.

And yet, that same “boringness” is what I ascribe to be a Genesis “result.” Not “recon.”

That same boringness is what’s getting me in touch with my ability to slow down and do things right. It’s what’s getting me introspecting in the first place, late at night like this, instead of drowning myself in YouTube, my nightly habit for the last month.

I had a somatic therapy session where I got to FEEL into the physical sensations of trauma today and “be with them” instead of reacting to them.

At first, it was hard but interesting. I like a good meditative challenge. And it certainly was one.

But then I got to the point where my body truly relaxed, and I truly felt like I had sat with negative sensations until they passed. And I became so relaxed, the guide was speaking to me, and after just 20 seconds of her talking, I felt like what she had said was something she said 30 minutes prior. Time was moving so slowly, I was so relaxed and present - the type of presence where each moment feels like eternity.

So, that’s my experience today.

Maybe I’m just long overdue to feel feelings I’ve been trying not to feel.

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Sungaze's Journal
Operation Genesis & Legacy of the Spartan
#134

Washout day 5

I’m feeling HOT

This has been the most intense washout I’ve EVER taken by far.

I’ve literally seen more and more and more growth from results every single day of this washout. Day 4 was hell. Day 5 I’m feeling like god.

Attractiveness, I think Genesis did something to my confidence around that. I’m generally aware I’ve got decent looks but I looked in the mirror today and loved what I saw.

Lifestyle, life is fried ducking good. I go to Latin America on Sunday for a work away vacation with the girlfriend. Going to a wedding tomorrow. Been spending time with friends.

Work, there’s been an interesting new development on my relationship to wealth. I feel like on Genesis I’m mastering the 80/20 Pareto principle.

It’s becoming so easy to take action because I’m no longer feeling overwhelmed by “all of the things I have to do.” There’s just naturally one thing that seems right to do, I see the benefit of doing it, I don’t have any hang ups around not doing it, and I have the energy to do it, so I do it. It’s as simple as that.

I’m even getting less stressed out about money overall because I realize there’s only one or two major things I have to do to get results… instead of 100 to stress about. Life feels a lot simpler, which makes me a lot more effective (and less stressed!)

Also, it seems like my new priority is to do the 20% of the work that gets me 80-90% of the maximum financial benefit I can extract from a situation, leaving me in good financial circumstances but also not sacrificing all of my extra time just for a small amount added to my bottom line. I can use that time for other aspects of my life.

Relationship to self, I’m making decisions that are in my own best interest. Fear, impulses craving, addiction, uncertainty, unworthiness, all of those emotions are removing themselves from my decision making criteria. It’s becoming easier and easier to do the right thing. I never feel like I’m fighting myself or forcing myself, I always feel that I’m acting in a way that’s natural.

Relationship to money, despite my financial status changing virtually zero in the 14 days I’ve started running Genesis, I feel all of a sudden totally comfortable with my situation. Healing has been done, in a different way than EOG entirely. EOG makes me feel certain I will become a multimillionaire and successful… Genesis seems more focused on helping cultivate a MINDSET OF ABUNDANCE internally first and foremost.

Meaning, it’s not just that I’m confident I will one day have enough money… but also that I am confident that right now I have all the inner and outer resources I need to live a life of abundance.

Like legit until Genesis, one of the main reasons why I have been holding off proposing was because I didn’t want to pay 5K for a ring.

Now that seems ridiculous lol, scarcity is not in my decision making process any longer

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#135

My mom asked me what I’m doing differently

“You seem very calm”

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#136

Having deleted YouTube is very easy, still.

I’m very aware now of reoccurring events that make me want to watch videos. I still want to watch them even though I don’t have YT anymore.

Meals.

When I don’t have enough energy to feel “productive”

Podcasts while driving

Memes before bed

When I’m stressed with time to kill

And a few others

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