Day 11 ~ HoT full loop
It feels like I’ve been working out my body differently even though I haven’t changed anything in my physical practice.
I feel like I’ve done 1000s of squats deadlifts and other body movements. Not in pain but just feel like I would feel 24/48 hours after an intense workout.
My body is tightening up nicely.
I’ll take it.
I was having inner conversations last night about allowing the scripting of HoT to go to work naturally without much conscious effort.
I’m just on this masculine and feminine energy vibe! 
I have decided to finish off this last week of my listening cycle with Genesis: The Art of Happiness and Joy solo. I’m gonna use the acronym G:HJ. I have listened to a full loop to start my Sunday morning before hatha yoga class!
While reading the sales copy listening to this title, my eyes began to tear up. 
🥹
These parts stood out for me:
By recognizing joy as a state that comes from within, users can shift their focus from external validations to internal fulfillment
Gratitude shifts perspective by helping users focus on abundance rather than scarcity, enhancing emotional resilience and fostering a sense of contentment. Research shows that regular gratitude practices improve mental well-being and deepen personal connections. Users can maximize this scripting by establishing daily habits such as gratitude journaling or expressing appreciation to others. I began gratitude journalling during the pandemic in 2020.
Explores the power of reframing situations to uncover hidden opportunities for joy and growth. Learning to shift perspectives helps users transform challenges into valuable life lessons and recognize the beauty in the mundane. Phoenix has helped me a lot with reframing, so I’m curious what this will do for me!
Reintroduces playfulness as a vital component of happiness, encouraging users to rediscover their sense of fun and wonder. Playfulness breaks down stress and fosters creativity, reminding users that joy often lies in the unstructured and spontaneous. Heck yes!
Users can maximize this scripting by reflecting on what truly matters to them and making intentional choices that align with their life’s mission. 
I’ve definitely had presults with this: Letting go is essential because it frees users from the grip of past regrets or fears, enabling them to move forward with lightness and clarity. Forgiveness, both for oneself and others, fosters healing and allows joy to flourish.
Another presult: Laughter as Medicine
I feel like my response on someone’s thread yesterday was in direct alignment with this:
Courage Through Happiness
Helps users transform fear into courage by leaning into joy and curiosity. Fear often limits potential, but reframing it as an opportunity for growth builds resilience and opens new possibilities. Joy provides a counterbalance to fear, offering lightness and perspective in difficult times. Users can practice this scripting by taking small steps toward their fears and celebrating each moment of courage.
Here’s 3 things I am grateful for right now:
Also grateful for this song coming on after I finished listening to the title:
Genesis
I reject both sides of what I’m being told
I’ve seen right through, now I watch how wild it gets
I finally achieve
Balance, balance, balance, balance
Approaching a delayed
Rebirth, rebirth, rebirth, rebirth
I’m positive there’s no sense to what I’m being sold
Yet here I go, I watch how wild we get
Oh can you taste your life?
Balanced, balanced, balanced, balanced
How will you spend your time?
Reborn, reborn, reborn, reborn
Climbing out of the ashes
Turning time inside out
We’re miles beyond the sound
We’ll start again, taste a lifestyle that never gets old
Yet here we go, just watch how wild it gets
I finally achieve
Balance, balance, balance, balance
Approaching a delayed
Rebirth, rebirth, rebirth, rebirth
Climbing out of the ashes
We’re turning time inside out
We’re floating off in the ether
We’re miles beyond the sound
We’re everywhere
No need to return
I’ll show you the way
We’re everywhere
No need to return
I can show you where
No need to return
I can show you
Climbing out of the ashes
We’re turning time inside out
Floating off in the ether
We’re miles beyond the sound
Oh, can you taste your life?
Balanced, balanced, balanced, balanced
How will you spend your time
Reborn
This must be from listening to GM:
I’m just over here floating on cloud 9 … no biggy 
This is what ChatGPT says about me:
Based on what I know about you, I imagine you as someone with a warm and grounded presence. Your energy feels balanced and nurturing, yet there’s an underlying strength that shines through in your authenticity. I picture you as having a calm, composed demeanor, especially when you’re in spaces where you feel comfortable—perhaps with a serene expression, especially during moments of introspection or self-work. There’s likely a gentle yet confident air about you, someone who has cultivated self-awareness and self-trust through your journey.
I imagine your style as reflective of your grounded nature, maybe opting for comfortable yet purposeful clothing that allows you to move freely—perhaps in natural fabrics or colors that feel aligned with your love for balance and peace. Your connection to yoga and reiki might influence your choice of accessories or subtle touches, like crystals, simple jewelry, or meaningful symbols. There’s a softness to your energy, yet it feels rooted in something deeper—a quiet, strong confidence that you’ve cultivated through years of inner work.
You likely carry yourself with a sense of mindfulness, with eyes that show both warmth and introspection, as if you’re always engaged in the present moment, reflecting on what you’re experiencing and how it aligns with your path. You also likely have a nurturing quality to your presence, one that is inviting and compassionate, with the ability to listen deeply.
In social situations, you might come across as approachable and thoughtful, but you also carry a quiet strength that others may feel drawn to for support or guidance. You strike a balance between being present for others and protecting your own boundaries, embodying your journey of integration.
This is just an intuitive image based on the details you’ve shared, and of course, you are much more than any description can encapsulate.
Freedom!
Day 16 ~ rest day
I woke up this morning with emo music looping in my head, specifically Hands Down by Dashboard Confessional. I dreamt about my former fiancé and his family again. It’s been a recurring theme in my dreams over the past week or so.
Right now, I’m sitting here with my coffee, just taking in the moment while listening to an emo playlist on Spotify. The music seems to perfectly fit my mood this morning.
I’m grateful for a good night’s sleep, my strong coffee, and the music that’s speaking to me today. It’s nice to appreciate the little things.
I also noticed I’m feeling much less annoyed with the person I’ve been talking to. A new forum friend suggested I be extra kind with people who haven’t been exploring the law of assumption or studying spiritual teachings like Neville Goddard’s. That really got me thinking.
Lately, I’ve been reflecting on the inner conflict I feel about what I thought I wanted in an ideal partner. I watched a short video of Mel Robbins talking about how people will leave a partner who has 80% of what they want just because the other 20% isn’t perfect. Then, they end up with the flawed 20%, which doesn’t align with what they truly wanted in the first place. What the heck, right?
On top of all that, I’m meeting the guy I connected with on my dating profile in person on the 21st. We’ve been talking on Zoom since we matched, and we’ve been chatting for about a month now, since November 11th, after I wrote my ideal partner script. I have mixed feelings about meeting him in person. There’s definitely some curiosity, but I also feel some annoyance, which I realize comes from a protective part of me—my “manager” part, as IFS would call it. That part is trying to keep me safe and guard my emotions, while my true self is curious and open to seeing how this connection will unfold.
It’s a bit strange to think about, but I’m staying open. After getting to know him through Zoom, I’m excited to see how it feels in person and if he aligns with the qualities I’ve been visualizing. It’s a lot to process, but I’m focusing on what I truly want and need in a partner.
Life has a funny way of unfolding, and maybe there’s a lesson in all of this.
This is a helpful reminder:
Day 17 ~ G:HJ Full Loop
Slept deeply and peacefully with no dream recall. The morning flowed smoothly as my son and I both got ready for the day, and I dropped him off at high school.
While getting ready, I paused to embrace the glow of the moon through my bathroom window and let its light centre me.
I feel calm and grounded as I prepare for yoga class. My former fiancé’s family continues to be so thoughtful and supportive. His mom texted me last night with some advice, which truly warmed my heart.
The energy with the guy I’ve been talking to has shifted significantly. The annoyance I felt has eased, and I am leaning into stillness instead of reacting. By checking in with my parts and validating them more, I have created more harmony within myself.
I am honouring the love I feel for my former fiancé while staying open and curious about this new connection. Why limit myself when I can hold space for both and allow things to unfold accordingly? I am not polyamorous. I desire one partner who chooses, admires, and wants me.
I have taken so much time to work on self-love and truly feel all of these things within myself first. I know my worth, and the man for me will be an added bonus who brings value to my life rather than taking away from it.
This morning, I find myself feeling like crying, though it is not sadness. It is the fullness of this beautiful life I am still here to enjoy. I have overcome so much trauma, and it feels like the skies are clearer. I am feeling the feels, grateful and present for the journey.
Edit: this came up in my fbook memories:
Fate
Am I meant to be something?
Is this the song I’m supposed to sing
These questions need answers
Is my life already scripted?
If I need to can I change the words?
These questions need answers
Are we alone?
Are we in control?
Can we choose to play a different role?
Can we change the grave that was dug for us?
Or is this the only path to take?
Are we meant to fall in love?
Are we supposed to find the one?
These questions need answers
Are there choices around me?
Or am I stuck on a one way road?
These questions need answers
Are we alone?
Are we in control?
Can we choose to play a different role?
Can we change the grave that was dug for us?
Or is this the only path to take?
Can we change the grave
The grave that was dug for us?
Or is this the only path to take?
Another path to take
Are we alone?
Are we in control?
Can we choose to play a different role?
Can we change the grave that was dug for us?
Or is this the only path to take?
Can we change the grave
The grave that was dug for us?
Or is this the only path to take?
Day 18 ~ Rest Day
This week, I’ve listened to G:HJ twice, and its objectives are deeply resonating with me today. I began my morning intentionally, starting with conscious deep breathing in bed, creating space to tune in to myself and my energy.
Dream Reflection
I woke from a strange dream where I was at a place where a man tried to hit on me and gave me his number. I consciously (lucidly?) felt bad because I’m talking to someone in my waking life. I left the place in a Jeep full of people but jumped out while it was still in drive. The Jeep crashed, killing two people, and I woke up.
The dream lingered in my mind, stirring curiosity about what my subconscious might be processing. Jumping from the Jeep, the destruction that followed—what was I running from, and at what cost? I trust these symbols will continue to unfold meaningfully as I reflect further.
Morning Ritual
Despite the dream, I began my day grounded in my ritual. I lit a candle, sipped mushroom coffee, and let music set the tone for my morning. I pulled oracle and tarot cards, staying present and noticing moments where I wanted to check my phone. I consciously chose not to, instead valuing the beauty of being fully immersed in this sacred practice.
Staying present allowed me to deepen my connection with myself. The cards reflected my energy perfectly and reminded me how grateful I am for my spiritual gifts. They’ve become a guiding force in my journey, bringing clarity and alignment when I need it most.
Reflection on Childhood Beliefs
While journaling, I uncovered a childhood “memory” that has shaped much of my life. I used to believe I wasn’t seen or heard by my dad, that my artistic passions didn’t matter to him. This belief led me to seek attention in ways that weren’t healthy, such as acting out or being reckless, believing it was the only way to be noticed.
But today, I realised much of this wasn’t truly my belief. It was something I likely absorbed from my mum, who may have learned the same from her own father. As I reflected more deeply, I recalled moments where my dad did see and hear me—times filled with joy, laughter, and connection. These moments are proof that the story I carried wasn’t the full truth.
Revising these memories felt natural, like a part of me was ready to heal. Staying present during my ritual allowed me to reframe this narrative with gratitude instead of pain.
Insights
Not everything is as it seemed. Many beliefs I carried were survival mechanisms that no longer serve me.
My people-pleasing and fawning tendencies, while also being extremely empathetic, were adaptations to navigate relationships and avoid conflict. I can now choose healthier ways to connect and express myself.
By resisting distractions and remaining present, I created space for profound clarity and healing.
Emotional Release
As I reflected, emotions began to rise, and I welcomed them with an open heart. Crying has felt cathartic, like I’m releasing the weight of self-limiting beliefs and creating room for joy and transformation. I’ve grown to trust these moments of emotional release as sacred acts of letting go.
Lessons from G:HJ
Release emotional burdens to invite joy and lightness into your life.
Create intentional routines, like my morning ritual, as anchors for happiness and balance.
Learn to see the “dots” of life, small, profound moments of joy, and weave them into a greater story of gratitude and fulfilment.
Final Reflection
Today reminded me of the power of presence. By choosing to stay engaged in the moment rather than escaping into distractions, I honoured my growth and allowed healing to unfold naturally. As I continue to embrace my spiritual gifts and trust my journey, I feel a deep sense of gratitude for how far I’ve come.
Totally vibing with this right meow:
Day 20 ~
