The Empress Within: Chronicles of Self-Mastery and Inner Reign

New cycle has begun:

Genesis + Seductress.

Letting SB bloom this cycle.

While having my shower this morning I began to feel really great about the day ahead and my life in general. Yes there’s some things that bother me, but I can change the way I perceive those things and things naturally start to shift.

My client called me the reframing queen the other day and suggested that I create a course on that.

I had a client come 2 days in a row for Reiki and a coaching client booked a session outside of their regular package. I recently increased some of my rates.

I notice where I get annoyed of the way some people operate in lower states of consciousness and wish they would just wake the eff up. There’s gotta be some ways I can target that audience indirectly. Maybe they will have an aha moment when watching some of my content, or not. I used to get aggressive attempting to force them to wake up. That’s a misuse of power and energy.

The archetype of the Empress embodies qualities of nurturing, creativity, and abundance. She represents the essence of feminine power and leadership, characterized by her ability to create, sustain, and nurture growth and harmony. The Empress is often associated with fertility, both in a literal and metaphorical sense, symbolizing the capacity to bring new ideas, projects, and relationships to fruition. She is compassionate and intuitive, using her wisdom and empathy to guide and support others. Her domain is one of beauty and abundance, reflecting her role in fostering a flourishing and balanced environment.

Inner reign refers to the profound sense of control and sovereignty over one’s own thoughts, emotions, and actions. It represents a state of self-mastery where an individual governs their internal world with confidence and clarity. This inner sovereignty involves self-awareness, emotional resilience, and the ability to align one’s actions with personal values and goals, effectively leading oneself with purpose and authority.

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If you wanna check out my previous journal:

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Shaved armpits are cool.

I let them grow for awhile before I clean them up :sweat_smile:

"Once you grow up, you realize you don’t want to be crazy in love.

You want to be calm in love,
stable in love, patient in love,
understood in love, safe in love.

Your partner should give you peace of mind and reassurance, not constant little heart attacks and high anxiety." :black_heart:

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Day 2 ~ rest day

I dreamed I was marrying my ex fiancé.

But it was like all these stressful things gone wrong…
I was trying to get an officiant and the keyboard wouldn’t let me type… couldn’t text to search…
No matter how much I tried!
Then I thought of my friend and contacted them…
His mom moved stuff around and I didn’t like that either…
It was like an urgent let’s get this done!
But then I consciously worried about taxes…
And how I’d lose what I have…
And then I thought,
We didn’t have to register and make it legal. lol

I fixed up my YouTube bio and Facebook intro while having my coffee.
Had a one off session with a client on Zoom. It went really well.

I’ve decided I’m gonna send audio only replays and not video for coaching calls.

I’ve been having people commenting on my sexiness.

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Day 3 ~ Genesis + Seductress full loops

Dreamed of flooding and catastrophic events, while also experiencing sexual fantasy of one of my tattoo artists. He lived in my neighbourhood and had a massive boner. Okay? lol

I feel a bit of mental fatigue right now which I am handling okay. I did a lovely morning ritual outside with the sun shining on me. :heart:

I went to a psychic fair with a new friend who offered to pay for a reading. I allowed them to pick me up and drive. I usually do all the driving! The psychic medium said I am a quantum manifestor and a starseed. She went on to say things that were extremely accurate in a very unique manner. I was drawn to her because of her training in NLP & Hypnosis. She had nothing negative to share. She was straight channeling truth and love. The final cards she used for reference were the seal and salmon fish.

I created a new thumbnail for YouTube with my own photo on it. I plan on using it for a while.

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Day 4 ~ rest day

Dreamed a lot with no recall really other than the feeling of my bf trying to come back. I notice myself reflecting on that relationship over the past couple days. Wondering why I sometimes miss the idea of him. What was it about him that kept me hanging on for 2 years? He was clearly narcissistic and borderline amongst other things like addiction and lying problems.

Anyways, enjoying this morning time outside with my coffee, yin music & reading NLP book.

I’ve been cleaning and organizing a lot around my house. I don’t like how I feel when things aren’t clean or tidy, so I do something about it!

Genesis definitely has my playful friendly side coming out more. I’m noticing it in how I act in public places talking with store workers and strangers.

Teaching a private half hour yin yoga class today with a friend.

I’m manifesting money a bit more since adding genesis back!

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Yes this! I thought I was just being a dick, but it’s a misguided impulse to empower, grow, and wake people up. Really glad you voiced this.

Hopefully, Empress will come out soon :slight_smile:

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Definitely! :100: :fire:

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Day 5 ~ Genesis & Seductress full loops

I had a lot of processing happening as I rolled around in bed last night. I allowed myself to take my time getting up. I prefer to not be frantic as I rise up for the day. I bend and move time in my favour!

I had a thought about inner child and parts work and how it doesn’t have to be boring or difficult. It can also happen in organic and natural ways when you move from your heart space.

I had some 90s music playing after listening to my stack, which led me to revisiting memories from my childhood and pouring love into me from that time in my life. I found myself healing some of my father wound. Seeing and appreciating my dad differently. I found myself dancing in a hip hop ballet style right in my driveway out in the open. It felt so liberating!

I remembered who the eff I am, all the parts of me and where I may have strayed from the path out of fear and judgments from others.

Remember who the eff you are and claim that boldly! :heart::heart::heart:

I can listen to songs that once got me crying and now find inspiration and channel it into my work!

I am in a phase of life that at times gets me feeling pretty anxious, but I know I’ve got this. No matter what! I’ve interrupted so many patterns and collapsed many old faulty structures. It feels like I’m naked and exposed, but it’s all gravy!

Rather than manifest another codependent dynamic where I distract myself with the excuse of needing to fix and save the other, or them fix and save me, dancing through the trauma drama triangle…. I focus on self love and empowerment. Being in my essence and continuing to embody my amazing qualities.

Gosh it can be so exhausting playing from my old way of “living.” Which wasn’t really living…:rofl:

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Day 6 ~ holy processing Batman! :joy:

Today is rest day and I’m very thankful for that.

I am thinking I will take my youngest out in nature today. It’s so soothing for my soul.

My dreamworld and sleep was a bit restless and full of things related to falling apart or falling away… I’m allowing this process…

I understand this full moon energy and retrograde can be playing its part, but I’m doing okay for the most part.

My new client paid me for their first session next week. I was bold and direct asking for payment to lock him in and he obliged, of course. :smirk:

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Day 7 ~ Genesis & Seductress full loops

Dreamed of my late friend who died tragically back in 2016. He was struck by a vehicle on his skateboard only a block away from his home.

In the dream he gave me some coins and some sort of advice… it felt really lovely. I woke up immediately after the dream was complete… he seems to make an appearance in my dreamworld when I need it the most… 🥹❤️

I miss him so much in this physical world but understand that his spirit lives on and we will always be connected.

He inspired me to have more fun and be creative… he complimented my vocal style which meant a lot to me since he introduced me to that genre. (Metalcore) he inspired me to explore business… to be free! He taught me a lot about music back in high school… he was a really great musician and music promoter! He put on a lot of shows in my hometown. He left this world far too soon but left a large impact on so many of us to make our days count and go after our crazy dreams…

He won’t let me give up :slightly_smiling_face::relaxed:

I’m feeling a bit emo sappy these past few days.

My ex fiancé is open to meeting in person next week to go over our court crap and actually sit down and talk. This is a big move for both of us. I would honestly love to be a family together again. Nothing else really makes sense to me. I think of him often and feel so deeply for the guy.

I’ll never forget when we reconnected years after our bands played together. We locked eyes and I just had this inner knowing that there was something special about him… about us…

I always thought I’d want a tall guy with tattoos and big muscles… but that isn’t everything…

He’s great the way he is…

Anyways, it’s a step in the right direction after years of bs with lawyers and court rooms… other people trying to speak for him…

I was afraid to be alone with him after I left him and went on my journey of transformation… I felt this sense of humiliation shame and guilt… that’s been coming more undone…

“I’m a big kid now!” (Huggies commercial) :joy:

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This song though… 🥹❤️ the feels…

Day 8 ~ rest

Genesis seems to help lighten the load of any recon… it brings out my playful side which gently subsides irritability or anger brewing!

My new oracle deck shot out the Confetti card twice this week. It’s about playfulness and celebration, happiness. If you want more success then celebrate the success of other winners too! Rejoice in their winning rather than experience jealousy or envy. That just brings you into the energy of lack and lower consciousness.

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Day 9 ~ Genesis & Seductress full loops

In this very moment, you have the power to change your destiny forevermore. You have the power to choose between greatness or misery.

When you choose the path of greatness, failure is erased and is replaced by wisdom.

Success has never been so tangible. The path opens now, and always remember – you, and only you, are the hero of your story. You are both the writer and the main hero, the creator of your reality and the created.

The Genesis of your story is now, at this very moment, the adventure of a lifetime is before your eyes.

Will you walk the path?

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Day 11 ~ Genesis & Seductress full loops

Before bed a client was sharing a concern, which led me to revising it in my dream world. That was really effing cool!

I’ve been able to go lucid most of my life from what I can remember, but I don’t remember ever using revision for another while asleep!

That got me looking at brainwaves and sleep cycle stuff this morning. Turns me on :smirk::sweat_smile:

Basically you are to make things mean what you want them to mean according to your new self concept / identity / state. If you’ve actually detached from the old then why are you still giving life and meaning to the old ways?

“It doesn’t mean what you think it means.”

See what you wanna see.
Hear what you wanna hear.
Feel what you wanna feel.
Taste what you wanna taste.
Smell what you wanna smell.

Exercise the lovely use of your imagination!

Test it :heart:

I’ve truly realized how much doing some intense exercise helps subside recon! Even if you can giver for 5 minutes!

I just put on some metalcore & flew through Sun salutations. I’ve shifted. I feel bad ass!

I was a sappy emo :black_heart: yesterday.

"Map Change"

Am I the only one that saw the sun burn out?
The locusts keep their rhythm. My watch has broken down.
I wake up and take on water, sink to the peak of despair.
What I need is a cigarette. No more prayers.

The planets unaligned.
We are saints without a shrine.

A storm comes and the city’s abandoned.
The ship is going down with the captain.
Oh-oh oh-oh.
A storm comes and the city’s abandoned.
The ship is going down with the captain.
Oh-oh oh-oh.

I am the man that sank Atlantis.
I am the man that sank Atlantis.
I am the man that sank Atlantis.
The bottom is not the lowest we get.

Further down still the dark’s absolute.
And further down than that, it’s only me and you.

I assure you that hell is not a myth.
We both vacation there.
Hell is not a myth.
We spend each winter there. No one can prepare.

A storm comes and the city’s abandoned.
The ship is going down with the captain.
Oh-oh oh-oh.
A storm comes and the city’s abandoned.
The ship is going down with the captain.
Oh-oh oh-oh.

I am the man that sank Atlantis.
I am the man that sank Atlantis.
I am the man that sank Atlantis.
The bottom is not the lowest we get.
I thought I knew the best part of the secret,
I thought I knew the best part of the secret,
I thought I knew the best part of the secret:
The truth is the thing we forget.

The glory I had witnessed was just a sleight of hand.
These hearts cannot be salvaged, these bones cannot withstand.
I have either been forgotten or I was never seen.
Now I’m in the negative space between.

I’ve weighed down the earth,
Through the stars to the pavement.
I’ve weighed down the earth.
No use trying to save it.
I’ve weighed down the earth,
Through the stars to the pavement.
I’ve weighed down the earth.
Not sure I can take it.

I’ve fallen out of frame.
A strangled, distant flame.

Clenched in the jaws of anguish are only godless men.
Chaos is drawn to silence like life is drawn to death.
The dusk is so much clearer than the dawn had ever been.
I’m a ghost, I’m a ghost, and yet

I’ve weighed down the earth.
Through the stars to the pavement.
I’ve weighed down the earth.
No use trying to save it.
I’ve weighed down the earth.
Through the stars to the pavement.
I’ve weighed down the earth.
No use trying to save it.

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Day 12 ~ rest

Vibes…

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