A Look At This Weekend
Well, this weekend was a doozy. The need to recover from the week—which didn’t provide much recovery time from the recent trip—and an unexpected series of events that got me thinking hard and struggling with good habits led me to think I should journal about them all in detail. So, here goes nothing. When you see the vertical line break in this journal, that means we’re progressing to a different day.
So the beginning of the weekend was fine, as I lifted, ran, and got my car washed in the early afternoon. Got lunch with a friend and learned quite a bit about them that I didn’t know before, either. The challenges started when that food set in and I felt uncomfortable. So after picking up my car from the wash I decided to go home and not do much for a bit. That laziness made me struggle with some habits, but at least I got to do my laundry while I was at home, in my downtime being inactive. After a certain point, though, I thought enough was enough and decided to switch things up by going to the outdoor sports arena in the evening (I had originally planned for the following day) in order to practice my technique.
Well guess what, I ended up manifesting some very interesting information. An individual there who noticed my practice gave some unsolicited yet amazing advice for how I can do what I want to do. He suggested some specific tools, a youtube video, and a general approach I had never heard from others before to excel in what I was specifically trying to do. I looked up this video the next day and as it turns out, it has critical acclaim, and to top it all off…he made this video. He’s in it. What are the odds of that?!?
That was great. I bought the tools right after my practice. It’s now night. The next unexpected thing was deciding to call a friend who just moved back to my area to get a late-night dinner. He had been in a different part of the country for practically the entire pandemic, so it had been so long since I had seen him. We happily meet and get food, but during the course of the convo, it was clear something was bothering him. I got him to open up, and he spilled the beans. Despite just moving back, he is already thinking of moving out of the area in a few months. What a shocker. But why am I mentioning this? Hold on guys, that’s coming. He’s dissatisfied with his career—particularly with regards to how much time he’s spent on it—as well as the high cost of living in my area. Not only that, it turns out he’s been facing some of those external pressures from other families to get married. He admitted that while he was getting comfortable being single, he now to feels it internally with regards to wanting a relationship and more. When considering these factors, he’d like to switch to a different job (one that ideally allows for full remote) and then move elsewhere…somewhere that’s cheaper and allows him to focus more on the time outside of work. Ostensibly this includes the relationship stuff; the entire conversation regarding the next steps was complex because he actually wasn’t certain about what he should do next…or what he feels is the most valuable thing to focus on right now. The questions I asked him to answer for himself—very important questions I should add—were questions he didn’t know how to answer and admitted he’s not been wanting to think about them and introspect due to their seriousness.
Well isn’t that somewhat relatable? It’s interesting to experience synchronicities within this universe. I related more to the concern of stuff around relationships and moving out of the area. Yea, I’ve had a bit of imbalance around work too but I know that it’s a temporary situation and it’s being done purposefully for a specific goal. After all, I’ve been running Chosen this entire year for work. I remember that we discussed in the middle of the above conversation the idea of moving out of the area to one that’s better for dating (better at least according to popular notions), which made me revisit my own thoughts that I talked about in my trip reflection. So as a result of this conversation I started to worry a little bit about my own situation and also even trash-talk my own area…again.
Thoughts on this night that I know got carried into the next day include the below.
- “I do agree, it’s a bit expensive here.”
- “This area sucks for dating. Where are all the good-looking single girls?”
- “Not that many things in the area are open late. It sucks for nightlife.”
- “This area’s too family-oriented. We need more stuff to appeal to the young singles.”
- “Am I going to get anywhere in the realm of dating / expanding socially once I start putting in that time after I get promoted at work, or once I start running MFO?”
- Recall that as per my trip reflection I’m discounting the current state due to the pandemic + intentional focus on my career throughout the year so far.
I wake up the next day feeling a bit sluggish—not the best sleep. My morning workout was also going by slowly due to the previous day’s thoughts as well as using the phone to chat about apartment hunting. You see, we haven’t locked in an apartment yet and that has started to become a bit agitating given that we’re getting into the summer. Throughout the afternoon I made some apartment visits again for open spots in our top picks and having thoughts such as:
- “Wow, some of these open spots suck! It’s a waste of time.”
- “Raising prices soon? These options are already expensive—that’s no fun.”
- “Well would you look at that—even this one which I thought was nice (as the apartments are becoming available for the first time literally this month) is next to a lot of construction that’s not even done yet!”
Do you see the connections between some of these thoughts and the ones from yesterday? I sure did. To be fair, the visits weren’t useless. Far from it, because it let me (in my mind) cross out some stuff and narrow my preferences further to where I thought of a game plan for where and what we’ll lock in when the opportunity comes up. But the accumulation of the thoughts above as well as the synthesis with the stuff I talked about with my friend yesterday was really starting to get to me.
And finally, am I being stupid for not even moving that far away from my parents’ place to do all this? Shouldn’t I move out of the area right now? These are questions that I quickly dismissed, to be sure, but by the time I got back home, I was feeling down.
I didn’t stay home for long, though, because I went to join my friends for watching the basketball finals. Now that turned things around. The environment, food, talking with friends, sharing my idea of what we should do next for apartments with my close friend (read: future flatmate) who was there, and the energy people had over the game got me to a much better place. I also walked around that area and did notice quite a few good-looking chicks which did make me feel better (funny enough) because it countered the notion that there aren’t any. On the drive back home I explained what had been going on with me over the weekend, including a portion of the previous night’s conversation. The resulting words from my friend made me remember some points and feel a lot better. This especially helped because my close friend has been on a similar path as me so we relate.
- We’re not in a place right now to take that much action on dating. And we’ve got bigger fish to fry (namely, locking down the apartment) so no need to think about this just yet.
- We’re aligned on the game plan I mentioned above, which is great.
- I got the news that my close friend actually has a bit more time before he has to move out, which reduced my worry a bit.
- My friend, a fellow manifestor, is confident that we’ll find our good pick and that things are going to work out. That also inspired confidence within me.
In the middle of this whole conversation I’m having, my friend tells me, “What usually helps me for stuff like this is to journal about it.”
Well, here I am! 
It’s actually amazing how introspective these conversations over the weekend have been. First to bring up some challenging thoughts, and then second to resolve them. I’m glad I pushed myself to go outside more than I expected to, because doing so brought in some incredibly useful information, thoughts, reflections, and confirmations that I for now am in the right area, doing the right thing. It’s crazy how so much can turn around in just a short period of time. Weird that this lesson reverberates just a week after getting it in the trip…
On the upcoming custom
Perhaps I was trying to make the order date for MFO a bit too magical by waiting for the beginning of this month to order. I realized that because of the 3-5 business days rule for standard orders, my order may still be processed tomorrow! Fingers crossed that it gets ready tomorrow and that I’m at least able to run it on that day since that day is scheduled to be the first day of stack 4b.
When I saw those chicks in the area where I was watching the game with friends, the idea of “manifesting women” came up. I then remembered that I have these two modules in my custom.
So if I have these two modules in my custom, then I’m going to be warping reality so that I more easily observe (just to begin with 
) beautiful women in my area. I have less to be concerned with than I think. Just wait for the subliminal, run it, take action and see what happens! The sub isn’t here just yet, but I’m getting excited for it!
I appreciate both the readership and feedback from others here! 
