Washout Day 4
Alrighty! This was a good day, as well. Solid workout in the morning, then the workday which I felt was superb, and then a movie with friends in the evening. Top Gun: Maverick was just great! There’s quite a bit I could write here which just affirms the washout effects and benefits I’ve been getting so far, but I’ll just highlight one thing for today. Read on below…
The only funny thing about today was the conversation I had with my mom moments before this journal entry. Mentioning I’m a certain age and “I should think about when I should get married,” and threw out an age which would be just a few years away for me. “It’s not good to be by yourself for too long.” I get where she’s coming from because I’m getting older. That, and then she brought up that I should do that to plan properly for having kids (while affirming that having kids is the thing to do. It’s the purpose of life, according to her).
However, the age thrown out is not that old in the grand scheme of things. But well, this is a culturally South Asian family, so it’s not the first time I have heard of such a notion. And of course, there’s the thing about having kids—of course, I have no intention of doing such a thing. That much has been known to me for a long time as part of my path. My path is sure to be different from the path envisioned by my parents (sorry, I guess—but I shouldn’t be sorry).
The most interesting thing about this whole thing was that I mostly chose to listen and nod & not make much argumentation. I’m not even taking it that seriously, to be honest. In fact, it’s almost laughable. This is definitely a significant change within me compared to the time this kind of discussion came up last year when I got a bit more anxious and worried about the control I have over my life for quite a bit. I’m in control, and I’ve got my own plan. ME, the internal strengthening from Chosen and other subs, as well as the action I’ve taken so far this year (including moving out) has changed me a lot! Even the thing about “being by myself for too long” wasn’t that concerning, knowing the custom that’s on the way and how it’s going to help me out with that. I truly believe it’s going to work quickly, perhaps even more quickly than I initially expected it to when I first came up with the idea of the custom.
This is my reality and I’m running the show.