Rest day.
Here we are, a solid 1.5 weeks since I’m back in the area. Work has kept me busy during the weekdays—since I was gone so long I had a lot to catch up on. Not to mention, there are some critical deadlines coming up. Thankfully, my subliminal stack has helped me be quite productive—sometimes a bit much for my own, given the work hours I’ve had as of late! I’ve got to relax. It’s why I intentionally kept last weekend light, and this weekend initially wasn’t going to have much until my friends and family started coming up with some ideas. So I went to a movie today and I have a few events tomorrow.
Over the past week and a half, that trip’s city has been in the back of my mind as I compared it to where I live. You see, one of the reasons that trip was important was because I wanted to see whether I’d like to live in that city. I had a very positive impression from my trip, although there are of course some tradeoffs. The weather’s not as great over there and living there would be quite expensive. However, my job has an office there and I could meet more people. It’s a place that’s known to be good for social mobility and also for dating (something which has been tough to come by over here, even with my subs). Amazingly enough, I’ve come to terms with the idea to saying bye to everyone here (it’s the region I’ve been in my entire life) were I to move out. In some big ways, I’ve framed it as a positive! Anyway, even if I want to move out of this area it will not be until sometime next year. There’s just too much else going on for now. There’s no need for me to figure out here a definitive yes/no answer; even my roommate, who had a positive view of the city at the end of the trip, has had more conflicting thoughts in the time since we’ve gotten back.
That’s OK, neither of us needs to figure it out by the end of today. We’ll let this, along with our experiences in our area, tell us closer to decision time what to do. However, I am very confident that when it’s time, I’ll make the right decision for myself.
Alright, so what am I to do here? My current stack is just as I mentioned in my run listed 9 days ago:
- Truly Wanted (QTKS Custom, 3 min)
- Career Sub (5 min)
- I’ll reveal this soon enough, when I make my custom thread asking you all for feedback on a custom design centered around this title!
- Revelation of Dreams (30s)
Tomorrow’s the AsCh day so I’ll be running TW + RoD + AsCh, likely with some specially tuned durations to emphasize TW.
More than subs, though, I’ve been thinking about what I can do to be better. Particularly, what can I do to be more interesting of a human being? To be more relatable, to be one who can connect better to others? In addressing this issue I feel I have underutilized manifestation (at least as of late). I recognize that my lists have become very sparse since early August. Oddly enough, it felt very natural to do this; It has been three years since I discovered Neville Goddard-style manifestation. (Readers can find the journal Man for Himself where I wrote about that). However, I want to get back into it to especially manifest changes in myself. This is what I now write this journal for—to deliberate over what kinds of things I want, as they can translate into manifestations.
I know what my high-level objectives are, and that’s reflected in the subs I’ve chosen. Let’s hone in on Truly Wanted, because when I think about how I want to be better I think mostly from the perspective of what’d help me from a romantic and (even) social sense.
What do I know? I mean in terms of facts and cultural knowledge. Things I can talk about with other people. Common topics of discussion. I think about this a lot especially when people bring up a certain sports team or perhaps some festival/concert/etc (so I suppose having more experiences is part of it). It makes me think, I should start watching that sport, going to concerts/etc so I can have more to talk about with others. At this current point in time I am not opposed to such things, but I wouldn’t say I have the natural inclination towards such (otherwise I wouldn’t be here writing this). One way I acted out something like this was by getting Spotify Premium so I start listening to more music, and discover the latest songs. The motivation there really is to foster more social connections. A similar line of thinking makes me think about watching more shows, reading the news (a slippery slope, that one), and other stuff that simply makes me more ‘relatable’ so to speak. It’s why I put in the module Wisdom Personified in my custom.
Through Wisdom Personified you’ll utilize all the knowledge and experience you have, including the ones you forgot you had, while being guided to rapidly develop and find new ones.
Don’t get me wrong, I’ve connected with plenty of folks over aspects of the human experience and some other deep stuff, but not everyone is going to be open to that level hence me asking for me to change like this! I also want to be part of more conversations, even if it’s just at a lighter level.
Game. There’s the online game and the in-person skills, too. I have access to a pretty good resource for online game but I simply have not utilized it enough alongside a (not-fully-developed) habit of using the online pathway. Additionally, I need to put myself out there more for the in-person skills. But like I hinted at above, it’s a bit challenging due to the idiosyncracies of my area. It’s why even though I know of in-person bootcamps that could teach such things, I would be hesitant to do them while I’m here. Still, I do want to go to many events and have fun talking to others while letting Truly Wanted shine through. But I don’t give myself much pressure on this right now. Pressure isn’t the right thing to give myself, anyways. I look to have the intrinsic motivation and energy to go out there. I need to be consistent in both my study of game and also application/practice of it. Currently how to get to that point is unclear to me.
What’s interesting is that although Truly Wanted has very little recon, it also does not have such overt results so far. That’s QTKS working in both ways, as QTKS purports to provide highly naturalized results. However there are some very particular things I’m looking for from my custom and I haven’t experienced them yet…to be fair, today marks just one month since I got the custom, and the standard listening was disrupted during my trip.
” emoji which I thought was funny. Definitely unprecedented stuff. Meanwhile, I continue using the app that I got on a few days back (the same one that my friend motivated me to set up). Some more activity on there, which is nice to see.
)? Maybe there’s some fun to be had in the best-case scenario, but I don’t think that’s a good idea. In the changes I am to go through due to TW, I’d rather be doing that with people outside communities close to me. (Not to mention, I’m currently not interested in jumping into a long-term relationship, especially with me considering a move out of the area. I’ll know for sure after the next trip whether I’d want to do such a move.) Honestly speaking, I’ve shut the door on this, but I’ve not locked it—yet, if the door opens again it won’t be because I tried to (at least based on my current understanding).