2023 maybe lol
Going to keep it real here… I’ve been procrastinating on my business projects. Haven’t been transmuting the sexual energy as well as I’d like to be… but I’m going to really crack down starting on Monday. I made a promise to myself.
Also, lol
highly sexual stuff 18+ warning, please
I’ve started reading the Kamasutra with a friend of mine, it’s really interesting. I wonder if there’s some Sexual Mastery type of stuff in Khan… I’ve been doing strange things with my partner, like yesterday I proposed this game where we play with each other’s uh “stuff” while naked. The rules are you can’t drop eye contact and you can’t stimulate yourself. It’s very intimate and vulnerable lol but this seems to be incredible for developing that sexual connection, it’s almost like when I’m fingering her I’m listening, perceiving everything in her energy/facial expressions/body. It’s like a mind/body connection type of thing going on, it’s hard to explain. It’s like we’re learning each other on a deeper level. We also both went into a trance-like state, it was weird. Eye contact is powerful lol. The sexual energy on Khan sure is something 
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I was reading the Khan objectives today out of curiosity (it’s been a while) and I realize that I’ve manifested all of them lol. It feels like the recon has subsided and I’m being pushed into the next level/reality of Khan. This is exactly how WANTED ZP felt in the later months. My main goal now is to manifest a passive income so that I don’t have to work as much… then I’m going full daredevil mode lol
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deeply personal introspection part 2 (not as dark lol)
Had some really great introspections going around lately. Entering my next stage of Khan and I’m excited.
I also realized how hedonistic this post sounded so I have to add more clarity before I make SubClub look bad lol:
I don’t want to scare people from running Khan into thinking that it just makes you use/chase women and become a sex-crazed hedonist. When I journal, I sometimes forget that while I understand the context of my own thoughts, concepts and ideas… someone reading can interpret it completely differently which is often the case since I live in a completely different world than most people. I forgot that people will make assumptions based off of their own projection/framework of thinking because they’re all porn addicts lol. It also doesn’t help that I have a propensity to not adjust my introspection aside from X rated stuff, since it’s my journal and I hardly give a fuck about who reads it unless it has potential to be damaging to the SubClub.
Anyway, I’m just going to bump this up here
This is also what I refer to when I talk about healed sexuality. Khan didn’t make me addicted to sex, it made me aware of the real reasons for my strong sexuality. I don’t have hobbies or socialize like everyday people. When my buddies were inviting me to go out and do guy things, I would skip out and instead meet women lol. I realized that I’m not really addicted to sex… everything is positive. Sexual addiction was probably not the right word for me to use because it’s disrespectful to people who actually have that issue - which is serious (I apologize to those people). I don’t go to therapy or anything and nothing is controlling me. What I’ve discovered, is I’m a people-oriented, very sensitive individual when it comes to energy, connections, emotions, feelings etc. I don’t get that type of stuff in the boxed in, watered down everyday world of functioning so what I’ve done is used the realm of romance/sex to envelop myself in that realm since it’s after-all the pinnacle of it… but because I don’t get that level of depth from anywhere else, I lost interest in other things.
Now that the recon has subsided and I can see things with clarity, I realized that I don’t actually have any issues lol. When I have manifested the financial freedom that I desire, I fully intend to go back to what I was doing. I think it’s just somehow tied to my deeper nature or purpose for being here.
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I should’ve went for a Hippo instead of Koala lol
I eat way too much watermelon.
Anyways, today I’m feeling dark and sexy.
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A friend of mine is starting some cute Youtube channel and wants me in one of their videos. I said “sure, how much you paying me though” lol, just as a joke, I wasn’t serious. They said they’ll buy me dinner. I’m going to order a shit ton of food tonight LOL. These gainz ain’t cheap honey. I’m chalking this to R.I.C.H manifestation since it’s free food pretty much and saving me money lol
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Since you’ve understood the positive now, what do you think was the primary perspective or belief as to why it was addiction? Like cultural norms, conditioning, expectations, etc. It’s just interesting because something was weighing you down like an anchor.
Clearly this part of khan did some cleanup
Dissolve, heal and remove all mental traumas, negative memories, etc. preventing you from fully embracing your sexuality and becoming a sexual person.
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When I started getting results with WANTED/PS, my buddies would get mad that I’d skip out on them and hint at the idea that I’m hypersexual. They would sneakily joke around with it. I go to the washroom and come back, they’d say “what took you so long mate? You shagging the janitor?” like it was that bad. It still is, lol. I didn’t know what hypersexual meant at first so I googled it and started going down into that rabbit hole becoming super self-conscious about whether or not something was wrong with me. People would ask me in general conversation such as “What you been doing these days” and I wouldn’t have a normal answer because of no hobbies and inability to relate, which made me even more self-conscious about how I’m integrating in society lol. I would constantly swing between these 2 conclusions
- There’s something wrong with me
or - Thinking my buddies are all just jealous that they can’t do what I do - basically the whole mediocrity shtick that I do lol that they’re all traumatized, repressed sexuality and I started lecturing them that if they don’t think about sex every 10 seconds then something is wrong with them LOL. There was a lot of ego there as well, in a “you guys are lame nerds” type of way which wasn’t good lol because that’s a sign that I’m not as healed as I think I am and stuff was getting to my head. Khan and the universe sat me the fuck down and whooped my ass hard in order to humble me lol. I actually got into an argument with 1 of my buddies when I was lecturing them, which I regret. It almost turned into a fist-fight and looking back, I realize that he would’ve whooped me too lmao. I had to use PCC to do damage control and re-strengthen that relationship.
I started giving myself a lot of leniency because I thought to myself “you’re not even 30 yet, you’re young, you’re learning”. Khan was in my ear going “Shut up, that’s a cop out. Be man and take some fucking responsibility, you’re not a teenager anymore”. The same cultural norms/expectations that I let wreck me, I used to downplay my mistakes. It was some next level hypocrisy going on lol.
But yeah, on PSZP that juggling between both sides through uncertainty was a form of recon and it was just immense fear. It settled down when I switched to Khan and I thought I figured it out but then Khan brought it back and with 10x the force. I panicked and completely gave into #1 and through that panic and disappointment within my self I overexaggerated that something was wrong with me as a way of just inflicting self-blame. I gave into #1 but I went unnecessarily far with it probably out of my own spite and disappointment with myself. Recon mixed with fear is like being lost lol but I guess it’s part of the Khan journey in self-discovery because once I got through all of that I felt way better as if I finally had some closure. As if I no longer have to swing between #1 and #2 in constant uncertainty. That’s the weight that’s been lifted, I have more clarity in who I am now which gives me a sense of freedom.
Definitely did, also in Stage 2 it says: Total Reprogramming will make you question yourself and your deepest aspirations, emotions, beliefs, personality traits… until you come out reforged with a purpose akin to steel. That definitely happened as well I think lol
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Hey yo, are you shagging the janitor again rn?
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This is the really valuable stuff to understand when it comes to growth. How we transition from point A to point B, but point B is so out of the norm of everyone around us nothing makes sense internally because there’s no point of reference. It’s like walking around in the dark for a bit till you reach the end of the tunnel.
Thanks for sharing. Sometimes I wonder if everyone holds onto that internal framework of their personal reality with a deathgrip when things change or if there are some people who don’t care. They just go. Alongside that point if there’s a way to stop relying so much on our subjective experiences in life building the framework of our currently reality. Said framework ending up more like a prison at times.
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Thanks for sharing ! What came up for me when I read the above was:
I realized a while ago that a lot of guys here(including myself) have a belief that we are broken and need to improve themselves. This in itself is a huge black never-ending and fulfilling hole and slows down real growth!
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I have never eaten so much food in my life, lol. I think it’s Spartan stimulating my appetite for the gainz. I’m pretty sore from working out (still haven’t adapted lol). Today was leg day and I’m already feeling it in my glutes and everything. I might’ve jumped into heavy weights too quickly but it’s not a big deal. Despite not doing pull-ups in a long time, I can still knockout 15 with good form which is good. I’m gonna aim for 30. I also want to eventually Bench 300 but I have a ways to go lol… I believe I can get there though and that’s what matters
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Monday has arrived, so I better get on it lol
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I’m bring this here to my journal @Malkuth lol. It’s time for me to explain myself
I don’t really get triggered in that type of sense of being offended, feeling attacked etc.
I do get cognitive dissonance in the form of well, imagine someone tells you that smoking cigarettes is healthy.
Whether you’re consciously aware of it or not, your facial expression will automatically resemble confusion because what entered your mind doesn’t make any sense. It’s too far out from you and is utterly ridiculous to you because it conflicts with your beliefs.
I often get that when I come here and increasingly more as I develop with the subliminals like Khan (month 5 of ST4). That’s the type of cognitive dissonance I battle when I come around here.
An example of that is just the other day I was scrolling and saw someone blame their lack of height as the sole reason for why people treat them like trash.
That’s not even the most fucked up part. The most fucked up part was that only 1 person, actually said something to the poor guy to question his perception.
What does that say about the environment? Most people here are all talk, they don’t actually care. Just because one is nice, polite and agreeable, doesn’t mean they care. If you’re young, about to do something stupid and aren’t thinking straight, then your father will slap the shit out of you… because he cares. The peaceful, politically correct, dancing around offending people type of stuff is not enough for certain levels of nonsense.
Half of the people here are deep into their own healings, they don’t have the time to care about other people. I care a lot, that’s why I’m the most vocal, that’s why I make long ass posts. That’s why I’m the one challenging people’s perceptions that they’ve locked themselves into. I stir up necessary discussion and get people thinking. I don’t just talk the talk, I walk the walk too.
When it comes to action-taking, I don’t understand all this subjectivity, convoluted LOA crap.
For me it’s as simple as 4 words.
GROW. BALLS. ACTION. TAKE.
Like say it with me. Chant it if you have to.
It’s that fucking simple, why is there even massive discussions being had about this.
That in itself is ridiculous.
All people need to do is listen to the subliminal and abide by those 4 words then get all the results they want. It’s too simple. I don’t understand why people are making it all complicated and complex for no reason… I really don’t.
Back to the cognitive dissonance.
Not too long ago, I saw someone actually make a thread here that went something like “Why is working out so important?”. Absolute insanity, LOL
Like I don’t understand this type of stuff, it’s too crazy. How is that not insane, it can’t just be me.
As someone who has massively grown with these subliminals, it’s like a mixture of
- I understand your journey and where you’re at
and - What the fuck am I reading lol
When you’re incongruent then there’s less of #2.
It’s similar to:
people who are desensitized to the violent human acts of this world versus people that are so incompatible with it that they don’t understand it.
It’s not just a matter of understanding/empathy, it’s a literal mechanism of belief systems and ability to integrate and understand perceptions which one is literally incompatible with.
Now people are proposing the idea that taking action is irrelevant or that a subliminal like LBFH can make you a weak, people-pleaser “yes man”.
Like honestly, just a whole bunch of nonsense (let’s be real here) and when I treat it like nonsense… then people feel attacked, get triggered and feel belittled.
People who don’t take it seriously don’t care as much as they think they do because if that stuff isn’t treated like the nonsense that it is, then it opens the door for normalization of it. New people can get mislead and acquire false misunderstandings which affect their growth and subliminal journeys. If people start downplaying action which is vital, for crazy results, then the door is being opened for people to not take action and blame the subliminals, scripts, technology and company for their lack of results. People don’t take this stuff into account because they don’t think ahead or deeply enough.
It’s some weird shit but whatever lol. I’m taking a break from here until 2023.
I might not even come back honestly, it’s just too much madness.
Thanks for giving me the alley-oop to explain myself. You’re a badass, keep getting those awesome results 
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Thank you for all your contributions, I’ve found immense value and guidance in your posts. Wish we had more people like you here.
Keep kickin’ ass you krazy koala 
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