Lol no need to thank me 
, swing by anytime Mr. Vision. I believe in you mate
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Good grief… dear lord… gee whiz. LMAO
Feeling like a goddamn animal right now… I mean I got what I asked for by stacking all the super sexual subs together. This is too much, it’s like all the sexual energy from each sub compounded onto each other. I’ve been working out 2 times a day, eating protein like a barbarian and having sex 3 times a day but I don’t seem to get tired, even with the WANTED shifting. I think my body or energetic system has somehow adapted to the WANTED stuff or something, I literally don’t know what happened. Or it’s still early and will kick in soon. My diet has been different lately too so maybe there’s something in the diet helping my energy levels. Today I got a dozen Samosas from a friend of mine for Diwali (Indian Festivity) and I gobbled 12 of them like nothing. I have become Kirby incarnate. LOL ironically I found a gif of Kirby eating watermelon which is my favorite fruit… I literally eat watermelon like a Hippo.
Yeah those samosas, I think are deep-fried so I kind of slipped but screw it, WANTED will use it as fuel for the gainz. I could say no and be like that, but at the same time, they made it with their family, lol… and kind of brought it to me like I don’t have a choice to eat it LOL. Also, I got teaser pics from a “friend” of her Halloween costume and nearly drooled on my phone. Some things are too sexy they should be illegal. I feel like a kid who peeked at his Christmas present early… I shouldn’t have done that with all types of energy flowing through me. Remain calm, Luther… you will get yours son…
Also, Khan has an inner voice thing going on, where it’s like coaching me or something. It’s pretty damn awesome. Fuck, everything is awesome.
I need to take a break for another week until I’m back on RICH/EOG… Happy Halloween to everyone in advance and stay safe, all that good stuff. Whoevers reading and whatever… LOL
Rampage mode activated
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Step 4 is the most important time to stay with a sub, that’s the hinge point where change is on the other side. That fear is the subconscious mind’s last ditch effort to reject the changes coming before it becomes too late. 
Bruh. Goals.
It’s not that WANTED doesn’t fit you.
You’re in what’s called the WANTED paradox.
Listen very carefully to what I’m breaking down here because this is somewhat advanced:
The desire to run WANTED for most men comes from a place of low self-love/self-worth. They want the validation of women chasing them and swooning over them, just as you described. It’s extremely typical, cookie-cutter and normal.
However… that exact desire is a direct block to the goal of WANTED and so it’s pulled to the surface. The men are made aware of it in order to grow out of it because it holds them back. This will occur 100% of the time.
Connect all the dots of what I just explained.
That desire you had for running WANTED is actually in direct conflict with the goal of WANTED itself.
So the more you progress with WANTED, the less that desire will be there.
It’s a brilliant paradox and this can apply to many realms of growth but I will keep it relevant to your situation.
These paradoxes are precisely why ZP makes you more aware of WHAT you want and WHY you want it. It’s because ZP is based on congruence, and more often than not… the reasons for running the subliminal in the first place are incompatible with the congruent internal framework of the end goal.
Quick Example: Beta Male is internally traumatized so he runs Khan out of the desire to conquer, dominate and tower over everyone. That desire itself, is being driven by internal trauma… it’s overexaggerated compensation for a lack of internal power. So when they start running Khan, they’re filled with internal power and now the initial reason that they had for running it… is no longer there. The desire to run it has been offset by the congruent development. That’s the thing with congruence, it looks a certain way.
What you need to do is find within you a different reason for running WANTED than you once had. If you’re unable to find that reason, then indeed WANTED is not for you.
I can offer a few that worked for me:
- wanting to explore sexuality, romance and attraction from a place of curiosity/appreciation for life
- boredom (screw it lets just see what happens and have fun)
- lackluster romantic/sex life that you want to improve on because you deserve it
- become a more attractive version of yourself as way of learning what that’s like as an experience while focusing on what it can teach you
Those are just off the top, but yeah this:
- I want to feel good with having women swoon and lust after me
is not going to work as a reason. The internal framework attached to that is very weak/beta male and not going to cut it for the progression with WANTED because it’s objectively unattractive. It’s based on unaddressed internal trauma and is therefore incongruent.
In order to become a congruent WANTED man, that type of disposition won’t be there… it’s literally impossible.
You’re actually still progressing with WANTED and it’s extremely clear.
Clear progression. Your entire journal is riddled with signs of progression with WANTED. You even mentioned getting insane IOI’s which is no better indicator of being a “wanted”.
Exactly. You’re only able to attract the women that are compatible to your level of congruence. You’re still holding onto a paradigm that is fundamentally conflicting with the overall goal of WANTED so there you have it.
If you keep progressing you will keep growing and unlock access to the type of women you want - as a reflection of your own growth and development with the subliminal.
This is how your journey has went.
- Virgin running WANTED.
- Got a girl, got insane IOI’s, but from women that don’t interest you.
- Thinking about dropping the sub by questioning your initial reason for running it.
Your #3 is directly connect to the “but from women that don’t interest you”. It’s all part of your progression, lol.
Note: This is all my opinion.
Bringing this to my journal because it fits with the thread of congruence/incongruence. LOL thanks!
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Lol yeah… speaking of that stuff… I had a deep introspection about a week ago. Friend of mine wanted to record while she… while we were going at it. I said yeah whatever (wasn’t really thinking straight). She sent it to me later and I started watching it lol. I was sitting there like an idiot thinking to myself “wait does this count as porn, if I’m watching my own porn?”. It was so what the fuck-ish LOL like the level of confusion I had, I can’t put it into words. It was a mixture of weird, cringey, hot and “wait a second am I a hypocrite” and oddly enough, some part of me didn’t want to delete it from my phone. Definitely not doing that again. lol
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Something really, really, really weird happened yesterday. I suspect it’s WANTED, but I’m not sure. I’m a little spooked right now to be honest. It might actually be a part of a progression of Khan now that I think of it.
Anyways, yesterday I went for lunch with a colleague of mine. We were sitting in a restaurant (indian style chinese food /kirby), talking about work etc. I get a text from a “friend” of mine asking me to meet her sister who came to spend time with her for the week. This is very common for me nowadays… ever since beginning Khan, I mainly meet women through network type of manifestations rather than through approaches. It’s very convenient, lol. So anyways, I text her “yeah sure” not thinking anything of it. Lol…
On my way home from work, I stop by her house. This is where things get a little weird. I ring her bell and she greets me, I give her a hug etc. I walk in and boom, I begin to have this unusual unsettling feeling. It’s a feeling that I haven’t had in a loong time, like an intuition of “something isn’t right here” but you can’t put your finger on it. Her sister walks out from the kitchen and comes to greet me.
Holy fucking shit.
I don’t know what’s going on here, but it’s almost like I’m manifesting a… mirror? I don’t get it.
Her sister was extremely attractive, had a very strong aura, I mean almost overwhelming. You would think she was running WANTED or Seductress for 5 months. Something about her gives me this vibe to where it’s like she’s the “female” me. I’m talking about she had the aura of mystery, seductress vibes, everything. None of my sexual energy, looks and etc worked on her. It’s like she was immune, I’ve never seen anything like it. I got closer and looked into her eyes (this thing I do where I project laser-like sexual energy into their being) and it’s like her eyes had a barrier but yet her own eyes were filled with so much energy. Since starting SubClub subs, I’ve never encountered a woman as “powerful?”, I literally don’t know what word use here… LOL. I don’t know if she uses subliminals, magick or whatever but I’m 101% sure she does something, there’s just no way. It almost feels like I’ve “met my match” so to speak as a manifestation to grow from somehow. This shit is really weird. I was completely entranced by her, which is very very rare for me and I mean very rare. I’m a very strong coquette but somehow, she was out-coquetting me which makes absolutely zero sense. She was also starting to seduce me subconsciously. My mind was just firing off in response to her influence. It’s like she had me wrapped around her finger without even trying.
It was literally like this:
Lol… yeeah. She’ll be at one of the Halloween parties and I’m going to be ready. We’ll see cupcake. We’ll see.
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Lol I can watch porn and get girlfriends/sex.
I don’t know why that’s somehow the indicator of success. I don’t know why people generalize like that.
The only thing that matters is quality of sex/romantic life and quality of relationships.
I’m going 1 step further into what actually matters… and that’s where you’re going to see the difference.
Person A (porn addict):
Quality of sex = 1/10
Quality of relationships = 1/10
Person B (sexually healed):
Quality of sex = 8/10
Quality of relationships = 8/10
Person A and Person B BOTH have multiple girlfriends and they BOTH have a lot of sex.
As you can see, that literally doesn’t mean jack shit.
See what happens when you get beyond the extremely vague shit? Yeah, lol. 
Porn addicts don’t like going a step further like I’m doing right now… to you know, the
stuff that actually matters, because then they lose the conscious defense of their addiction.
This is a common tactic used by addicts for various addictions in general. It’s called hiding behind generalized comparisons of success. When you keep things as surface level as possible, then you are left with the illusion that everything is the same. When you go deeper like how I’m doing, you realize that - it’s not the same at all.
A 1/10 vs 8/10 is not the same. LOL
Sometimes we avoid eye contact with the reality of things because it makes us feel better. It’s a
child-like coping mechanism, which is what all porn addicts do. They’re all children that haven’t matured, which is why they have insanely weak frames and are brainfogged all the time.
Every single man that I’ve met in real life who watches porn, had such a weak frame. It literally reeks like no other.
You know how men with high testosterone levels go around in public and they can feel how they have
something “more” than all of the estrogized men? It’s almost like that, when I’m around porn addicted men. I literally feel like a wolf around guinea pigs… and their frames, aura and eye contact etc is so ridiculously weak that I have to tone myself down and accommodate their metaphorical state of castration. They’re not even men in my opinion. Only a couple people will know what I’m talking about here, but yeah.
I can detect people who watch porn in 2 seconds, lol they’re all so weak. They make the dating market too easy for me. They make the competition too easy LMAO. Porn is there to demoralize and weaken men on all levels. There’s a reason why it’s free and easily accessible to literally everyone.
Despite all of this, I really don’t care to be honest lol. Like I said, if guys want shitty sex lives and want to eat out of the trash can, it doesn’t affect me. It doesn’t take away from my life or well-being.
You know how I rate the quality of sex/relationships of porn addicted men so low. Those same men go “how do you know that?!”. Or “Who are you to rate? It’s all subjective!”
LOL. This is what they do because they’re so brainfogged and literally lack the capacity to think. You see, someone who has been a porn addict their entire life, isn’t able to objectively rate their quality of sex or quality of relationships because they’ve never been sexually healed. They’re unaware of a broader context because they haven’t been there and don’t know what it’s like.
Someone who only knows how to eat out of the trashcan might think that what they’re eating is an 8/10 because that’s within the context of the trashcan.
However, when you expand the context and bring in a 5 star restaurant, then suddenly their
8/10 is actually more like a 1/10 in comparison. LOL.
People who live in the porn world, don’t have access to the superior comparisons because all they know is the porn world. It’s like living in a box, but the joke is only on them because they’ll be having mediocre sex lives/relationships and nothing more. The fulfillment won’t be there, which is another thing with porn addicts.
Again… this is Congruent Reality vs Traumatized Reality. If you’re in the Traumatized Reality, you won’t know anything about the Congruent Reality.
Bringing this to my journal because it kind of fits with the congruence/incongruence thread. Thanks LOL
Cheers
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was a tough pill to swallow but all you’re saying makes sense. Thanks for your great thoughts, i definitely learned something valuable today.
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hmmm… good question. I don’t know. It could be more like performance review.
current khan playlist, lol
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Woke up this morning and just felt like a total badass. These feelings are too strong it’s like I wake up on morphine. Once you get through the healing/recon, you just feel incredible.
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Yesterday was crazy… LOL.
Way too many things happened and I don’t feel like typing right now but I’m a wizard lol
My face is permanently like this for today 
all is love and god is good
I’ll get this journal entry out of the way now so I don’t have to later LOL.
Yesterday was a long night.
I was in role since 7pm and I was having too much fun. Like I mean really in role, as in someone offered me a drink later on in the night and I spat it out yelling “Vat is this shit? Where iz my blood??” LMAO. They were talking amongst each other saying “Luther’s lost it” and I was cracking up inside like a maniac lmao. I also scared some young teenager shitless near my friend’s driveway. There were 5 of them playing with fireworks and I just crept up from the darkness behind one of them, he didn’t notice me. I went “Hello…” he turned around confused and I showed my teeth which spooked the poor kid. LMAO.
I was doing all types of shenanigans like this. For most of the time I was with 2 of my “friends”, however they didn’t want to be vampiresses lol… 1 of them was a witch, the other a kitten. We went to a few parties together, just hanging out and having a good time, etc.
I met my other “friend” (the one I mentioned in previous post) who was surrounded by 3 guys when I walked in lol. I couldn’t blame them. When I saw her, I immediately looked around for her sister (Ms. Mysterious) and she was staring right at me when I found her. Her costume was a witch, but like a super adult rated version… very revealing to say the least lol.
Later on, I end up isolating her and found out that she was crazy about me but was pretty much a master at hiding it. I’ve never met a woman in my entire life who was this good at hiding her attraction. I’m actually so impressed that I’m going to reward lol. I was literally 90% sure she was a lesbian after our first encounter. I even hinted it to her sister in clever ways, in hopes of getting some answers about it but I got nothing. I didn’t want to go “hey um so like, is your sister a lesbian?”
because that’s just weird LOL. So I said things like “Your sister looks just like you lol, do you guys have the same interests”. Stuff like that lol.
So fast-forward, when I isolated her, she started to become “normal” as in typical signs and indicators of attraction. Gazing long into my eyes, smiling at me, blushing, laughing at everything I say, flirting, etc. This will sound insane but part of me was kind of disappointed but at the same time I was super on guard. In my mind, I was thinking “If she’s that good at hiding her attraction, I wonder how good she is at faking her attraction”. I had that initial skepticism/confusion but it eventually got better. I was just constantly pushing the limit and using everything in my arsenal. Ended up having a really hot make-out session but no sex lol. Today I texted her going “I hope you still have that costume, if you know what I mean.”
She replied “Oh. I have something better.”
So now I’m in suspense LOL.
I still think something is up with her, as I have to follow my initial gut instinct. My plan is to get to the bottom of everything and I know exactly how to do that… the same way I get the truth from every other woman I date. That’s a secret though, hahaha.
But yeah, that’s 50% of my Halloween in a nutshell. The other 50%, the stuff I’ve been anticipating and manifesting for weeks… I don’t think I can put in this online journal because it’s just too much. It’ll likely scare people and shit LMAO. I have to be mindful of random people who read this stuff
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