ok…no subs yesterday (“rest day” and all).
Today was Love Bomb, Libertine, Emperor day. All Zero Point.
I also listened to an audio I have that is for reframing behavioral choices. Cthulhu knows I need that.
Prior to running anything, I got some business advice from a friend. I didn’t react well to the advice. Recon anger. Like bad enough I was driving and had to stop at the library parking lot and just relax. Heart rate was through the roof.
I needlessly extrapolated from that bit of advice to a larger set of possible problems that could arise. Definitely seemed like recon from running Love Bomb, Libertine and Mogul on Wednesday.
I took a break from life, listened to my behavioral reframing audio and then today’s ZP stack.
Felt fine after.
As I was running the stuff, I imagined some sexy fun time with Zelda on a whim. Been kinda suppressing stuff about her lately since I have no real way of seeing her now that she’s gone.
I felt amazing after imagining up the sexy fun time. I think maybe pushing down the stuff about Zelda hasn’t been such a great idea. I’ll just own that it’s still there for now.
Another part of what I did whilst running the stack was to just watch a tree blowing in the wind. I was parked at the local library.
Watching trees blowing in the wind is 2nd only being at the local park where it’s next to a narrows and inlet that eventually spill out into the Puget Sound (SHOUT OUT CASCADIA!)
I’ll explain my theory someday as to why I think watching trees/water helps me so much.
I watched the trees for a bit, it calmed me down. Then I drove to park at the restaurant to wait for a delivery to come up. One came up for $11 from the restaurant.
I went in, and Moonbeam is working today. I told her I’ve got a pickup for whoever it was.
Now, she’s cute as hell. Probably the cutest there of all of them, Zelda included.
Normally, if I want to say something flirty to a girl, I’ll think of what to say on the way there, and end up feeling so damn nervous until I say and up to 10 mins AFTER I say it.
Like I totally psych myself out.
Today, I was in there, and just asked “How late are you working tonight?”
She said “I’m here all night!”
So I said “Awesome. I’m coming back later on so I can get some fries and say hi to you, because you’re fun.” (wtf?)
She smiled and said “Awesome! See ya soon then!” (Not sure if this is the typical “be friendly because he’s the paying customer” or not…but her smile is a bit intoxicating, so I’ll take it)
It just came out…no nerves…no time to psych myself out.
The only thing I felt is shock that those words just flowed out of my mouth cavity.