I started Dragon Reborn three days ago. Not sure how to journal but will read into it more. Is it to keep track of the days and cycles (using the thread as a log)? I used to just run subs for hours but with zero point I’m sticking to the schedule. That would help I think.
Anyway, I chose DR because I think it will help me overcome my past. My past isn’t crazy dark or anything, but I was depressed for many years and came out of that in 2015. I carry a lot of hurt as tension in my body as well (in my shoulders especially) from that pain. I think I’ve heard of it as “emotional armor” before. I’d like to overcome that too.
I chose limitless executive because I just started my first company and would like to be successful in that. I used to run Emperor and then also Stark a lot. I think ZP is quite groundbreaking, I never had crazy results from subs (even up to Q) but after deciding to check in with subclub after a hiatus I saw ZP. I ran Stark ZP for the first time on April 27 and that very same day filed for my LLC. Wow. I’d been putting that off for two years. So immediately I saw that ZP is different. So, I thought if that is that powerful then what I could really use is true inner healing. I have a lot of inhibitions, I’ve come a long long way from them but I’m still very inhibited in deep ways.
I would like to run Stark ZP with these two and might. Maybe once a week from what I’m reading?
Ok, now for some results so far. Just two listens across three days of DR. One of LE.
Immediately I noticed that it was causing me to face my insecurities. Even while listening to it the first time. The next day I had a big fight with a romantic connection with whom things have become very complicated. I started enforcing new boundaries, and some crazy stuff has happened since then. It’s still kind of raw so I’d rather not talk about it here and now. But I’m seeing DR at work.
One positive is that I went out for beers and grub with my jiu jitsu training partners. And was doing really well in a group setting which has always been hard for me. I’ve been training with this academy for a year now and I’d never gone for beers with any of them. I jumped at the opportunity when that is something I might have been hesitant to do, or just not gone, just a couple days ago. I might have still gone, but I would have felt a lot more uneasy about it, I think.
To be honest I’m a bit nervous to run this sub, but excited as well. Those two are the same feeling though, no? Just depends how you look at it.
Ciao for now