Dragon Reborn - My journey

Date & Time: Tuesday, 07/26/2022 10:54:42 AM

Subliminal: Dragon Reborn

Stage: 01

Day: 4

Notes:

Before I start getting into what I really want to get into, I need to give some back story here. My ex’s & my relationship has been strained, at best, ever since we got separated & divorced years ago. Frequently, during the last few years, she has blatantly ignored the custody order, tried to get me in trouble with the authorities by filing false documents, etc. For years, I have been fighting all this, trying to find a way to catch her in her lies and deceptions. Additionally, during the last couple of years, she has turned my daughter against me, telling her lies about me, and making her hate me.

I, by nature, am not a malicious person. I know a great deal about psychology, but have always chosen to never use what I know in order to manipulate or hurt others. I, by nature, don’t know how to be deceptive and strategic with others (I should say that by nature, I probably do have this “gift”, but have always chosen not to use it, so I’m very out of practice - let’s leave it like that).

Well, recently, my ex tried to do her usual stuff, and try to mess with me, via the legal system. Usually, I would get angry, and curse and ask why the hell she has to be so deceptive and manipulative. This time, it was much different. I found myself planning 4 steps ahead of her, and before even I knew what was going on, I had successfully caught her in multiple lies and had reported her to the correct authorities, having direct evidence of her lies, trapping her in revealing her lies, herself, in text messages and emails. How did this occurr, you might ask? I found myself intentionally riling her, in order to highlight the situation for exactly what it is.

This is the first time I’ve ever done anything like this - but have wished, many times in the past, that I could do it.

At first, I got super angry, then depressed, then, even considered just killing myself, and opting out of all this sheer stupidness…but then, something interesting happened…I found myself getting angry…I mean super angry…and it fueled me, made me say, “no more, absolutely, no more”, and then I just knew I had to change the way I was doing things…change from trying to work things out for the sake of my daughter, to giving my full attention to trip up my ex, to expose the lies and hypocrisy.

I will keep you posted on what transpires, it should be interesting…I find myself being very calculating, and automatically using everything I know about psychology to trip people up all around me, to expose their true motives, so that there are not so many secrets, lies, and deceptions occurring around me.

This is not my natural bent - I definitely attribute this to running the DR sub - it’s like it’s beginning to heal my own view of myself, from one of deserving to have a shit life, to one of refusing to let people lie, deceive, and manipulate my life any longer.

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Definitely isn’t a simple sub!

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Bravo! I will be starting DR3 on Monday. I feel the same way. When challenged, I would take the easy way out and not challenge not to make waves but now I stand up for myself more and not take any BS. The Dragon don’t play! Lol.

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I’m posting this via my mobile phone, so excuse any typos or anything of that nature.

Just wanted to say I’m noticing an entire shift in my view of myself. All of a sudden, my mind is telling me / showing me my true value, instead of being focused on things not going how I’d like them to be.

Noticing myself have 100% more resolve when it comes not only to dealing with challenges that have arisen, but also taking them head on and not apologizing for the way I’m doing them.

Noticing myself sharing more about what’s going on in my life, and others giving me advice for once (usually I’m the one people come to for advice).

And overall I just feel good - which is completely unnatural for me, so this is a great shift.

I have peace about running DR, and think I’m going to run each stage for 45 days, maybe longer if I feel it’s needed.

I ran 2 loops today while making my breakfast. I use headphones with music going simultaneously. If you guys want to be able to do this, just set it up to ignore audio requests. I think today is day 6.

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Hmm, a little bit of subterfuge, eh? In which case, have a look at Power Can Corrupt.

Either way, if Dragon ST1 is revealing a way out of your unfair situation, absolutely take it.

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This exact thing (escaping unfair situation) started with me the day after my first listen of DR Stg 1:

Pretty cool to see the parallels. After completely reframing the nature of that relationship, things have gotten so much better for me in that department. I am confident your situation will improve drastically as well.

QFT. Embrace your inner savage. Uproot evil deeds with the sharp claws of truth.

“Of all evil I deem you capable: Therefore I want good from you. Verily, I have often laughed at the weaklings who thought themselves good because they had no claws.” ― Friedrich Nietzsche

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Thanks man! Yeah it is really cool to see the parallels for sure. I just chock everything up to the sub at this point, because I’m not doing anything else, except for listening to music and watching some documentaries once in a while in my free time.

Thanks for the quote! I love quotes; I’ve wanted to learn more about Nietzsche, I just have not gotten there yet. I think Philosophy has a lot of good resources. I have read Emerson quite a bit, and gotten a lot of good insight from his stuff.

Yes, I will embrace the inner savage; honestly, I try to be as un-intimidating as I can, as I’m always accused of that it seems like. I don’t know if it’s my bearing from being in the military, my stature, I don’t know, but I always try to put people at ease - but now, I sense something new forming in me, I’m not quite sure what it is yet, but it’s definitely much more aggressive and much less patient with people screwing me around. I’m looking forward to seeing the beast and learning to tame it.

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I had to look up the definition of subterfuge lol Yes, I think that’s a good definition of what’s going on. When you say have a look at Power Can Corrupt, is that a book, an article, or something else? I did a Google search for it, but got like a gazillion results.

I think more than revealing a way out of the situation, it is changing my own view of myself so I’m unwilling to put up with bullshit any longer, and putting my foot down and using all the knowledge & experience I’ve accumulated over the years to accomplish this…that’s my take on it. It’s still fresh, and honestly, I find myself doing things, without really knowing why I’m doing them, but I’m just going with them, using benign attention and just saying “okay, let’s do this then”, and it’s quite a ride. I’m definitely enjoying this sub, and think it fits me better, for where I am now, than what Ascension was.

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This is what @Michel meant by Power Can Corrupt

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Rock on. Interestingly, my first jiu jitsu professor is an Iraq war vet and former combatives instructor for the Army. Off of the mats, he always tried to be as friendly and unintimidating as possible, although sometimes it was just plain unsettling. He’s a tall guy, lean shredded but not big and buff, and being a multi stripe black belt with kickboxing experience, could absolutely destroy most people in a fight. So in some sense I think he felt the need to compensate by being overly friendly, but to me, made him feel a lot less approachable in general. He is still a super cool dude who I look up to, I just think it would suit him more to unleash that stifled tension and be more commanding.

My current professor is a perfect example of someone who is one of the nicest people I know, while still commanding an absolute respect. Although he is also much older and has had time to find that balance. And that isn’t to say that my other professor didn’t command respect, because he did, there was just that air of something that made it more unsettling by trying too hard to be nice. Also, I’m not insinuating nor assuming that this is the case for you, just figured the anecdote may help you explore that side of yourself.

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Thanks @Uber_Elysium, I appreciate it man; it looks interesting, and I’ve bookmarked that page to come back to later once I’m done with my DR journey.

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I am traveling right now, so I am not using my regular format, as all entries will be via mobile. I’m taking a pen & paper journal while here, so I’ll convert it when I get home.

To give a synopsis, this is day 11 for me. I noticed myself (more or less) automatically using mindfulness meditation on some rather deep and painful emotions that surfaced yesterday.

In addition, I also have my mind coaching me or guiding me, maybe both. I started to feel feelings of inferiority 2 days ago, but my mind told me “only compare yourself with yourself” (something Maxwell Maltz used to advise all the time). So, I started asking myself, am I better than yesterday? If so, I’m on the right track, if not, just figure out why not, and work towards that goal for tomorrow.

So that’s a synopsis of the last few days.

I’ve been listening every other day, 2 loops of DR stage 1 on my listening days.

Hope everyone is doing well.

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I am still traveling. Got some kind of a notification of being a user of the month; thank you all for that amazing recognition. I hope what I’ve said various places have helped some others, just as you guys have all helped me, too.

So, today I listened to DR Stg 1 for 2 loops in the morning when I woke up…I used headphones, while simultaneously playing some chill music I like.

I was beginning to think maybe not much more had been occurring, and then today, I found myself being super aggressive towards those who were trying to manipulate me. I also noticed a ton of looks in my direction from some very pretty ladies. One girl, whom I kept eye contact with for a few seconds, smiled, and I smirked back. I did not try to pursue anything because timing is more than horrible for that kind of thing. I mention it because I’m noticing some interesting changes occurring in myself.

That’s all for now, I’ll be more active here again when I get home in about a week.

Hope all of you are doing well.

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I’m still on vacation here. Listened to DR for 2 loops, this time I tried something different, listening on headphones, while watching a movie (and sound for the movie was also in the headphones).

I think this is day 13.

When I got done listening this morning, I had a very interesting feeling that things were going to start getting good, like I had the impression that I was going to start noticing some very (positive) dramatic changes occurring in the near future.

I’ve learned to pay attention to my gut instincts, and the best way I can describe this feeling was a gut instinct of some sort.

I am ready to see what happens next, and open to whatever changes occur.

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Date & Time: Thursday, 08/11/2022 03:18:26 PM

Subliminal: Dragon Reborn

Stage: 01

Day: 21

Notes:

Yesterday was really difficult for me; I went through a phase where I was just questioning everything. My job, my life situation, custody issues, my personality, etc.

I felt so exhausted and depleted, that I just came home after work, watched a couple of movies, and went right to bed.

Even this morning was difficult; I had no motivation to get moving, and still felt really depleted, but got my ass up anyway and did what I had to do.

Today, things shifted dramatically.

I came to a realization that I have been focusing on everything going wrong in my life, instead of intentionally choosing what I want my life to look like, and setting that as a goal and working towards it. I had the realization that I have accepted everything as fate, and accepted that there was no way to change it. Today, I had the thought just hit me out of the blue, “what if you started thinking about what you do want, and started to move towards that instead?”

I know this may sound so simple; it does to me as I’m writing this out, but it’s hard (maybe impossible) for me to get across how much of a shift in my thinking this is for me. The last few years, I’ve just been through so much on so many different levels, I think I started forming a “learned helplessness” mentality. For those of you who are not aware, learned helplessness refers to the state of mind of an animal (usually) that is encouraged to find an escape to a situation, but none actually exists, and they end up just giving up at some point. After the learned helplessness mentality has set in, a way of escape can be opened for the animal, and they still won’t take it, because they’ve learned it’s helpless to try to escape as it’s impossible.

My own situation has been very similar to said animal above - I’ve been trying things for years to “fix” stuff I’m in, only to have it get worse or completely backfire on me, and I know that at some point, I came to the conclusion that it’s better to not even try to fix it, because it’s always going to be fucked, and there is nothing I can do about it.

The fact that I had this realization is amazing, because I know my mind had to be so entrenched in the “impossible to escape” mindset for so long, that I was not even looking for a possible way to change my situation any longer - just accepting that it is the way it is and that’s that.

Now for some logistics; I’m amazed that it’s already been 21 days of running DR stage 1! I’m going to take 5 days off, starting tomorrow, and then run stage 1 for an additional 21 days. Right now, I’m thinking I’m going to run each stage for 42 days (21 x 2), not counting the 5 days off at the end of the 21.

So far, it’s been a roller coaster ride for sure; it’s really helped me to start questioning some things in my life, and also helped me to see some other things a lot more clearly.

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I came to this realization too during my first cycle of DR1. I was going through a lot relating to my personality, my career, my custody battle with my ex, my life situation… basically kicking myself hard for all the crap I created for myself. The holes I dug very deeply with this idea that I’d never be able to climb out. :tired_face:

I’ve become more aware of when I’m focused on what I don’t want vs what I do want and shifting my attention much quicker. I’m not as hard on myself either.

Adding LBFH to this DR journey has been a game changer for me!

I’m going to do 2 cycles of each stage as well, unless I am called to do more.

I continue exploring the idea of living from my end of my wishes fulfilled. Feeling into fulfilment and accomplishment of the things I want as thought I am already experiencing and have them right now.

Neville Goddard is my jam!

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@7empest

Thanks for writing; I love getting these little messages letting me know that someone else has already experienced what I’m experiencing - kind of gives me some hope that I’m on a good path, and the sub is working properly. I am exactly where you were when you were going through all this stuff, so I’m really happy that you are finding ways to make life more enjoyable.

I just got the email for LBFH, and I got that one, too! I’m excited to try it out, but I think I’m going to wait for a little bit. I want to run at least one more cycle of DR 1 before adding anything else.

Yes! That is exactly the state of mind I am beginning to (re)explore. I say re-explore, because I’ve been exposed to this before, but forgot it, due to the holes I’ve dug, as you said.

I really like Neville Goddard as well; if you would like more science as to how it all works, I cannot recommend Maxwell Maltz’ book “Psycho-Cybernetics” highly enough. There is a new version called “Psycho-Cybernetics Updated and Expanded” with Matt Furey as the editor, and I’d recommend that one, as it’s the original text (which is the best in my opinion); and Matt just adds his own insights to it, which really helps.

Maxwell Maltz was a plastic surgeon who noticed that people’s outward appearance did not necessarily correlate to their inner appearance; he figured that since he was a plastic surgeon, and since this inner appearance was affecting his patients (as much or more than physical surgery), he should understand what made a person who they are on the inside.

He is the one who coined the term “self image” and all “self image” psychology originated from him. He was writing in the times of automated missles that were guided by cybernetics, hence the title psycho-cybernetics.

Anyway, if it sounds interesting to you, pick it up, I’m sure you will like it.

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I wish I’d had the wisdom to read books multiple times. Or at least ponder on them and write out some notes after I read them. That’s one of the original books I read, Psycho-Cybernetics, and I only read it once. I got the audiobook now. I also picked up Zero Resistance selling by the same author but it seems I won’t even need it now that True Sell is here! But I’ll read it anyway too. :smiley:

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This is a post-post (meaning it is one I created via notepad & pen at an earlier date, while traveling)

Date & Time: Thursday, 08/04/2022 3:00 PM

Subliminal: Dragon Reborn

Stage: 01

Day: 14

Notes:

I definitely feel like I am becoming more mature with my feelings, and like some things are beginning to heal.

I am noticing myself becoming more introspective (and I already am pretty introspective, so this is interesting to me). I’m noticing I don’t feel as awkward around others (oftentimes, I feel almost like a fish out of water around others). In the past, I’ve felt awkward because I feel and think so deeply, that oftentimes I cannot relate to most people around me.

I intentionally try to avoid small talk, because I just detest it. I think this stems from my time going on humanitarian aide trips to other countries, and interacting with people who were drug abusers, homeless, and really didn’t give a shit who knew it. I would much rather interact with someone like that than someone who is trying to put on a facade with me (I can always see right through it).

This whole trip, I’ve had multiple people tell me I’m doing a great job as a dad (something that took me aback a bit, as I never had one myself, and have kind of just been stumbling through everything). I’ve had the mental clarity to know that I need to always check my motivations when it comes to my daughter - to put her well being above other stuff. I try to discipline her for her benefit, not because I’m angry or she didn’t obey me or something like that.

I was told I am very meek during this trip, too. I used to think meek meant weak, but I’m learning that actually it’s controlled strength - I think that is actually a good way to describe me. As Jordan Peterson says, don’t be nice or a gentleman - be a monster, but learn to control that energy within you and only bring it out when needed - I have instinctively tried to adopt that sort of personality for myself, as I built myself from the ground up, as I didn’t really have any great role models to use.

I listened to 2 loops this morning, of DR Stg1, through my phone’s speaker, while Coldplay was also playing.

This is day 14, started on 7/21; I’ve done 7 listening days and 7 rest days at this point. I’m still planning on at least 42 days per stage, and taking 5 days off after 21 days, and then doing another 21 days of stage 1 (and following this pattern for the other stages as well).

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I have that book but didn’t finish it!

Funny you mention it because I’ve been glancing over at it lately. :smirk::+1::boom:

I’ll dive into it very soon. Finishing up Five Lessons by Neville Goddard. Loved his complete reader too!

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