I get it now.
The perception shift. I woke up and instantly noticed that my view of the world changed. Everything looks the same but I am not the same.
I don’t know if someone replaced me overnight, but this new person isn’t concerned about anything to do with the past anymore. In fact he is quite handsome, stylish, talented in arts, works extremely hard and is perfectly comfortable with himself. So much so that it enrages his family. See, he isn’t supposed to be happy and attending to his own needs, his role is still the “identified patient” garbage can in which everything is his fault.
His view of the world is now less fearful and more hopeful because he travelled outside the narcissistic regime and found out that he could cope by himself just fine. In fact with extra money, he may just do that.
I wasn’t sure that Regeneration ZP would be that effective in a "system restore "of my whole being within 2 weeks, with the added bonus of a new pair of life goggles. I’m happy to have been proven wrong.