ZP - Wanted, Chosen and (Undecided)

Journals - Major Programs
#71

I had a dream last night about having two identical backpacks. I originally had one backpack which I would keep with me all the time and bring it out with me along with the contents inside. The second backpack seemed to have been “smuggled” into my room and was stuffed with completely different contents. In the dream, I was instructed with subtlety to just keep the original backpack in my room but use the 2nd backpack with all its contents as my everyday backpack because the 2nd backpack actually contained what I needed and what really belonged to me.

In any case, the assumption was that people would only see the backpack and not what was inside it - and what was inside the backpack is more important than what is outside.

I am not sure what to make of this dream, and whether it has any relation to what I was talking about in the astrology thread.

#72

Two loops of Emperor ZP (ultrasonic) today.

Felt a little bit light-headed for a while.

Went to see the doctor over my cold yesterday, and he told me a lot of stuff that made me wondering if my cognitive ability was breaking down as I wasn’t understanding and putting together what he was saying at all. Yet, the doctor had been speaking about just some regulatory changes and medical procedures in the context of the pandemic.

Another thing interesting that I realised last night as I lay on my bed was that I seemed to have this idea that my eyes were just tools, and I was actually “something” looking through a pair of optical equipment.

Also, I think my visualization ability seems to have improved as I could remember visually some mathematical formulas I learned in my FMVA -learning course. I somehow re-create the image of the formulas that I see in my mind when I try to remember them.

It reminds me of the days when I was a high-school student, and I spent so much time memorizing the text in my history textbook that I could remember which pages had images and where those images were located.

That was how I passed my high-school history exams - by rote memory.

Otherwise, nothing else I think I could report.

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#73

Was he using layman’s terms or medical jargon? That may impact your ability to understand what he was talking about.

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#74

He tried to explain to me in simple terms but it was just confusing for me to understand the ever-changing COVID-19 control regulations. But then, I had not been following up with any changes in government policies given the volatile situation.

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#75

Subliminal Break Day.

Last night I dreamt that I protected a girl that I was fond of - she had come to my country for some work in work and preparing to board the coach back home with her colleague when she was waylaid by her own countrymen. I raised a chair and slammed it on the ground before telling the bullies not to mess around with me, and another friend of mine appeared with some “reinforcements”. Couldn’t remember the outcome but anyway in the dream I did send her a message asking her if she had reached her hometown safely.

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#76

1 loop of Emperor ZP (ultrasonic) today.

Interesting dream I had last night referencing some thing that took place about a year ago.

I was dreamt that while I was sleeping in my bedroom, the living room was suddenly filled with smoke and I went to my living room to investigate, and realised there was a very small fire on the table - this was the same table that had caught fire a year ago in my real life. I tried to blow out the flames with no success, and eventually the small fire died down on its own. Anyway, some of the objects on the table were partially charred.

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#78

Ran 2 loops of Emperor ZP (Ultrasonic) today.

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#79

2 loops of Emperor ZP (masked) today.

Decided that I will take a five day washout.

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#81

Going simple on my mind - I have decided that I will run Mind’s Eye ZP and Mogul ZP every alternate day at the same time over a 45-day period, including a five day washout period.

No other subliminals and I will stick to this stack until early March.

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#82

I seem to have lost interest in every other subliminal since deciding to focus on running these two ZPs every other day until March 2022. Have also lost interest in reading other threads or commenting anywhere else in the forum.

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#83

Subliminal Break Day.

Have been feeling very reclusive recently and not wishing to interact with anyone. Just focused on improving my financial situation.

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#84

Slept late and woke up late. Had a strange dream about the relationship between the weight of a physical object (e.g. a ball) and the number of times it is posed on Twitter.

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#85

Wondering if I am have been going through severe reconciliation even by listening to two light ZP subliminals.

Been feeling mentally tormented and ironically unable to see where I am heading with regards to my wealth goals after some of my previous opportunities.prospects which I was very much optimistic about had evaporated this month, sending me back to square one.

Finding it difficult to make the decision on whether I should continue in my current direction or change the course of my ship. Perhaps, I’m at a point when I cannot further take any more risks in business.

Another thing I had been questioning about my self is , “How important is image (i.e. about how people perceive me) to me?”. This question naturally led to another question about why I want to be wealthy?

For me, I’ve struggled for a long time to stop seeing myself becoming wealthy as a means to become validated and accepted by my peers, many of whom are quite successful (at least on the surface).

While that’s a factor, I feel that this is something I should work on overcoming while I run Mogul.

Given some difficult circumstances that my family went through over the two past two decades, becoming wealthy has been more to actually help my family financially so that other non-financial issues can be more easily resolved. A lot of the problems in my family can actually be solved if we had more money to solve, and I would have a happier family.

I don’t really trust the “poor people are happier” narrative - that seems to be what rich people say anyway.

Other than that, another driving force for me to become wealthy is actually because I really want to help people with wealth (as well as through my connections). I was actually working in this goal half a decade ago before my entire life went down south and I in a way had lost what I had earned in many aspects of my life. I want to be in that position again, where I was developing very very deep relationships with various people and building a strong network where I could make a difference in their lives.

So I guess HOM ZP should be in my stack one day, but for now I’ve got to solve more immediate problems.

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#87

Subliminal break day.

It seems like I finished reading three fiction novels in 4 days. My visualization skills weren’t too bad after as I could imagine most of the scenes unfolding in the novels (as long as I understood what I was reading), but my goal for visualization is much higher and I will work hard to achieve it by time I finish my stack.

It’s funny but I also realise that my imagination of my name being called by somebody in my house seems to have increased. Yea, that person would call my name every day, but now I am imagining that I’m being called by the person. This took place a few times last year, but seems to have increased in the past week. They take place when I am in a relaxed position.

I’ve spent much more time than how much I am paid for a certain long-term project for my business partner. I treat it as having a sense of ownership and building up my own experience and understanding of his business, which I want to play an increasingly greater role in.

I’m a bit clearer on this now and I know that I have a unique set of knowledge and experiences which I don’t want to put to waste. Question is how to monetize it and how I should plan my sales strategy.

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#88

Subliminal Break Day.

Some idea on creating a subscription-based platform to sell my data coming up. I had been actually playing around with this concept until my business partner roped me in to help with his data platform.
I guess I could figure out how to create something on my own without destroying my relationship with him.

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#89

I ran two loops of Dragon Reborn ST1 ZP today.

Shortly after running the loops, was seeing myself in my mind’s eye - both first person and third person - being engulfed in some kind of fire and having headache.If I am to attach any feeling, it’s a feeling of despair and wanting to give up on life.

The images are still running as I type. It’s hard to explain the visualization. Like most of my visualizations, they are never graphical overlays onto my field of vision, but similar to the type of images I get when I try to remember something that happened in my past.

It’s also interesting because right before running Dragon Reborn ST1 ZP I was very worked up when a friend of mine gave me some unsolicited advice when I told him about my plans to do something. Though it’s typical of him to give some unsolicited advice and I therefore do not reveal much about what is going on in my life. Everytime situations like that happened, I would get all worked up and be reminded of my anxiety and my tumultous life.

I told myself after running Dragon Reborn ST1 ZP that it’s better I just ignore him and don’t let him affect me since this is my life and only I myself know what I am facing and in which direction I should go.

#90

Decided I will stick to my stack of Mind’s Eye ZP and Mogul ZP and leave anything other subliminal for March 2022.

HOM ZP will be useful for me at a later point of time.

#91

1 loop of Mind’s Eye ZP and 1 loop of Mogul ZP today.

#94

I played one loop CFW ZP on Saturday night. Had difficulty sleeping early, but I woke up feeling some optimism in my life and that I could actually achieve some of my immediate short term goals by just taking sone action that I hadn’t been taking and not caring about limiting beliefs.

My plan now is to run 1 loop of CFW for the next 3 Saturday nights so that I will have completed 3 weeks.

I may add in a loop of anothet ZP sub in the middle of the week if I don’t get any reconciliation from CFW.

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#95

It’s a very mild form of confidence and optimism today and yesterday that I feel with CFW. It’s not the type of brash, “I can do anything” type of energetic confidence, but a type of energy that just guides me slowly and slowly dissolves the limiting beliefs and some fears and anxieties I have over certain issues.

Today I rewrote my CV and reorganized my company’s marketing material, and will reach out to a lot of clients I was anxious of approaching and therefore stayed away from. I have become less conscious about potential clients judging me, given that I’ve extensive experience in my field and shouldn’t treat myself like a greenhorn in the industry.

I also have to organize an alumni gathering this month, and realised that I was more formal and confident in my communication with my target audience.

Finally, I seem to be able to let go of some thoughts that have been clinging unto my mind for a long time. Many things that I used to be concerned about…they don’t seem to pester my mind so much anymore.