Some users, male and female ones, may take offense at that section of your post. You were clearly using the word to hurt in that case. And since we weren’t there we can’t feel like you did and so it seems a bit too much.
So yes, in this case I do believe the forum rules would prefer it if you censor yourself a little bit more.
Yes, under the right circumstances and in the right conditions, when in a safe place, it may heighten the sexual tension and excitement. But I don’t usually go into that much detail even in my handwritten journal. It’s a journal, not a porn script.
Out of personal interest, would you really give us all a play-by-play of your sexual interactions?
We usually advise people to do both. A handwritten private journal which goes into detail and a journal on the forum to show people your journey and allow them to both learn from it and to maybe steer you into another direction if they see you making mistakes they made on their own journey.
The journal on the forum doesn’t have to go into massive detail. In some cases, you can quote the exact words, in this case you could have shortened it to say you were getting angry and started throwing insults at her to make her stop following you.
The fact that you felt the need to quote yourself probably means you were reliving and feeling it again. I get that. Which is why I always re-read my entire post before I submit it to the forum, just to place myself into the shoes of a complete stranger reading it. Get a sense if it’s too much maybe.