Finally I have a journal in this section lol My high bit rate custom is not here yet but I can’t keep myself away from here
The cores of my custom are Limit Destroyer and Stark, and it has just slightly more than 10 modules.
When choosing the core I thought about Emperor since it did give me inner strength and certain grounding but at the end I went with Stark as I chose external effects over internal effects.
Stark works no denial and indeed it works quite naturally. I am more talkative irl and take part in the forum more. It is ironic that I am actually being more helpful on Stark than on Chosen given the objectives of them. Chosen made me wanna cut off myself from the world and focus on the intangible. Stark makes me extrovert and more willing to talk about my mind.
Limit Destroyer works without recon, it is straightforward and the concept of it is what I need.
For a long time I saw posts done by users Malkuth, Lion, Simon, Billions etc. as standard. I felt like anything less than those were not worth typing out since my posts added little to no value compared to theirs. But slowly I don’t think like this any more. I no longer overthink before or while I make a post. I am writing and participating in a way that is to the best of my ability and that shouldn’t be something to be ashamed of. Every little thing counts.
I had been looking for a album pic for the custom. In the past I would look for characters, be it real life or fictional, to represent who I wanted to be/as my role model. It’s different this time. While I was looking up pictures the thought I don’t feel like being anyone anymore. I just wanna be the best version of myself. came up of nowhere and I felt that thought. I found a beautiful inanimate pic that resonated in the first sight.
More will be revealed when the custom arrives