The spotlight will no longer spark fear or nervousness, as on every level of your being, you know that you belong there anyway. Being in the spotlight will feel like going home after a long, stressful trip. You’re exactly where you need to be.
Feeling this especially. Walked up for a presentation with absolutely no plan and just was winging it knowing full well I didn’t know all of what I was talking about. It was really lax and the professors didn’t expect us to know much, but having all the eyes on me was honestly fun. I leaned into the ignorance a little bit and got a few good laughs.
I interleaved Vibes ST4 with some of Regen, not all since I did listen a bit yesterday. I’m actually feeling a ton of Stark Black vibes around me. Not sure if it’s ASBR blooming or Vibes giving me a new medium to understand the scripting in. I’ve actually been getting the feeling to switch back to ASBR, but it’s a feeling that’s inconsistent with the rest of how I’m feeling, so I’m fairly certain it’s recon. If it is, then it means I’m close to a breakthrough already, which I’d like.
I actually want to try my own little journaling exercise, so I might as well do it here. Just to relate the ASBR objectives to my life since I’ve been feeling such a strong affinity recently. I want to lean into it and become more cohesive. with what I’m subconsciously projecting
ASBR Objectives
Objectives:
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Unleash Your Innate Potential: Tap into the depths of your being — unlocking the potential for greatness that lies within, transcending the mundane to achieve the extraordinary.
I feel like I’ve become this consciously? Like I’m consciously able to tap into all the deep subconscious structures that can lead me to the extraordinary. Like if I wanted to, I could lucid dream entering the depths of my mind to get whatever I need to succeed.
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Transform into a Force of Nature: Evolve into a being of unstoppable inner power with unlimited external resources, where every step you take resonates with the force of your will, making the impossible possible.
This just feels like moving in sync with my deeper self and having the resources to reflect that. If I decide that I want to do something, like really want it, I’d accomplish it. My brain would become plastic and reform in exactly the way I want it to get what I want. The world itself would bend to my will I feel like.
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Command Respect and Admiration: Walk into any room and naturally become the center of attention, commanding respect and admiration through your mere presence.
I feel like I’ve been living this without consciously realizing it for the longest time lol. It’s only more recently that it’s become incredibly obvious, like being the center of attention and leader of the social interaction almost (I hate words like alpha because of how overused they’ve become). There’s a masculine core in me. If I let myself just rest and relax on that core, it’s like the rest of the room follows. Like how rapport needs to be felt in you to spread, it feels like if I feel steady, secure, and relaxed in that feeling, the entire room follows. It doesn’t matter how large it is.
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Become a Beacon of Innovation: Cultivate the ability to see beyond the ordinary, bringing forth groundbreaking ideas and innovations that reshape the world.
This might be one of the hardest to describe, since I feel like innovation has just bled itself into how I think. I inherently want to break the norms I’m presented with. Not necessarily in a violation way, but like subverting the expectation in the best way possible. I don’t want to be “normal”, everyone else does that. I want to do what you didn’t even know was possible. It’s just a natural desire and trait, that’s why it’s hard to describe here. It feels like the feature snuck up on me while I was focusing on other things and I didn’t realize it, so now it’s hard to recognize as a feature.
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Wealth Mastery: Unlock a profound understanding of wealth, enabling you to attract abundance and prosperity effortlessly.
This is the most interesting one, and also one that I feel gets the most disservice. I get opportunities that are almost made for me at least once every few months. They’re all great, but since I’m still a student, it’s not like wealth is what I’m working towards every day. I go to class, do my assignments, work in a research lab, and get involved in wealth things whenever I have the extra time. So it feels like I may be stuck at the foundational part of this module. In the past few months I’ve started to try to involve myself more, which I know will work out. I feel like the reason for a lot of opportunities falling through at the last minute has been because I myself wasn’t involved. If it got attracted to me, then I should be the one to manage and pursue it, not the people close to me. I’m the one getting the scripting to manage it, I’m the one that went through the change to get it. This is the number one area for change that I’d like to see in myself this year.
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Dominance with Grace: Exert influence and control over your surroundings, not through force, but through the sheer power of your will and character.
It honestly doesn’t even feel like dominance. That masculine core is just naturally dominant. So when I lean into it, its urges or just resting on it itself, I naturally start leading and taking control of most things. My favorite thing is that when I’m in an environment where I’m clearly outclassed, the core itself just takes up less space. It’s not like I get overwhelmed with insecurity, I just know my place in the environment. When I say things like “rest on”, it’s probably easiest to visualize this masculine core like a big, warm rock. Big enough for me to sit on, and warm in the sense that it’s incredibly comfortable to just rest and relax on. Imagine a cool breeze as you lay on a rock in the sun. Kind of like that. At this point, I don’t even feel like it’s dominance. It’s just the natural order of things. I don’t think about it, it just happens when I am who I am.
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Unbreakable Resilience: Forge an indomitable spirit that can withstand any challenge, turning obstacles into stepping stones towards your goals.
I think this obviously manifested when I first started the title. Recon is a direct challenge to me rather than a reason to feel like shit. Resolving it means my direct growth, so why wouldn’t I want to embrace it? Same for other things as well. Sometimes it feels almost contradictory, I want to be challenged so that I can overcome it and prove myself. If it’s easy, sure it’s easy, but it isn’t as fun as pulling out all the stops and still coming out on top. It’s like the champion of some game getting challenged by someone and feeling the fear of losing for the first time in forever. It’s invigorating and adrenaline inducing.
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Extreme Cognitive Enhancement: Sharpen your mind to perceive and understand complexities with ease, elevating your cognitive abilities to new heights.
Similar to resilience, just that the moment I’m challenged intellectually, I’ll adapt immediately to win and learn whatever I need to. It doesn’t matter what methods need to be used, I will understand it.
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Romantic Magnetism: Draw in meaningful and fulfilling romantic connections, captivating the hearts of those you desire with your charisma and allure.
Millionaire heiress and girls generally of higher economic status expressing interest. That’s all I have to say on the romance front specifically. But it feels like the charisma and allure thing also fall into place once I lean on that masculine core. My comedic timing gets an insane boost and it’s like I know exactly what to say, do, and what facial expressions to make. I could complement a specific person’s vibe if I wanted to and know exactly what they want.
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Harness the Power of Fame: Learn to navigate the waters of fame — using its influence to further your ambitions — while maintaining your true self.
I guess I’m still learning this, but the fame effects I’ve gotten have been amazing. The “eventually powerful people will know your name” thing definitely applies. My school’s administration would cover for me HARD if I had an event I had to miss weeks of class for. In addition, a ton of influential company presidents and investors know my name, as well as well-trusted insiders and well-connected contacts.
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Embrace the Spotlight: Find comfort and belonging in the spotlight, where being the center of attention feels like a return to your true home.
See my report from earlier. Being in the spotlight literally feels more comfortable and fun than not. Only thing that tops it is being asleep or just being able to rest, or working on something that I really like.
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Cultivate Popularity Through Value: Achieve popularity not merely by being liked, but by being invaluable, offering something unique that no one else can.
I’m understanding this more and more now. I feel like I’m developing my values and what I uniquely can offer to the world. Actively being worked on though, so I don’t want to say too much.
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Ethical Dominance: Exercise control and influence while respecting the autonomy of others, balancing your desires with ethical considerations.
Again, it doesn’t even feel like dominance. It’s just natural. I don’t think about any individual person or control. My ethics are literally just a vibe check with myself like “is this cool?” and if I feel like it’s too much of a dick move or infringes on someone in some way, that action is out.
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See Beyond Societal Veils: Develop the vision to see opportunities and patterns hidden from the average eye — capitalizing on them to create your legacy.
I feel like this has also started to show up. Since I’m not actively involved in industry work, I don’t have too much experience on capitalizing on it. But seeing beyond the veils definitely exists. I’ll even be able to guess the financial and strategic position of certain businesses based on a single decision they make. Also a few human nature/collective patterns, but I don’t direct my attention too much to that right now, so I can’t say that much.
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Unparalleled Innovation: Generate ideas and solutions that revolutionize industries, redefine norms, and establish new paradigms.
Yeah, especially now. See the innovation stuff above, but this bleeds into every part of my life now. I like coming from a perspective no one has ever seen yet.
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Personal Transformation: Undergo a profound transformation that elevates every aspect of your being – physically, mentally, and spiritually.
This has definitely been the most dominant feature. I’m always undergoing this transformation and it feels like I’m always ascending higher than I was before. My standards keep rising, and I keep adapting myself to reach them. It honestly feels like this has been an insane investment, and that once I’m in an environment that directly reflects my own being back to me, I’ll start reaching success almost immediately.
A lot of writing even for me. I’m glad I did it though, it’s nice to see these things I think about out in words now. My own theory is that major titles work by instilling the “core” of what it’s about, and all of the features act as byproducts/explorations of how that core expresses in the world. That’s why it’s not fair to call them just modules. As soon as I started interacting with that masculine core, a ton of other features immediately went into effect. Maybe I should just start calling it the Stark Black core. It’s ingrained deeply enough that I can just go back to it whenever I need. Once I’m better in sync with it, I think going back to ASBR will be golden. It’s still golden now anyway, considering I’m basically listening to the same sub. I just want to be able to operate from it like it’s as natural as breathing. I’m reaching that point, I just need to trust it more.
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