Risky Two Thousand Twenty Six

Journals - Major Programs
#59

February 3 2026
P&I 2

Acceptance + Action
Locus of Control, Locus of Focus.

I didn’t go to the gym because I’m stressed at work and decided to work some off of that backlog. Meta action? Don’t know… working out is good for stress too. But I did what I did.

I don’t understand how anyone reads/watches any other meeting females content/courses other than RSD? It’s like listening to YouTube subliminals instead of listening to subliminal club. To me it’s clear as day, one is 100x better, one is not.

But that’s just me.

#60

February 4 2026
00:30 - Dragon Reborn: Regeneration
00:30 - Godlike Masculinity
00:30 - Love Bomb

Good things this morning:

  • Doja Cat 🐈‍⬛ music
  • Eckhart Tolle
  • Peanut/chocolate protein bar

I’m on my city pop arc as well. Vibe~

I think WDB + City Pop will be a crazy cycle.

Foundation, zero point, point of origin.
Authenticity, masculinity, self-love, self-worth, abundance, presence, expansion, positivity, action and alignment.

Big list.

Met a doctor, he acknowledged my weight loss. That can’t be good coming from a doctor? 🫡

Wonder

Aww

Artistic things, creative, means and the end.

What the hell is self-love? What is self-worth? What am I trying to cultivate? How do I know I’m making progress? Lol

Chip in champ 🫡

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#61

February 5 2026
Processing and integration, type shift…

QiGong/Taichi for flow and stillness and embodiment. Get more into my body than head. Vitality, health and energy. Balance. Relaxation, nervous system balance.

City pop makes me feel good. I was feeling alot of stress but that subsided after focusing on what I can control, doing some breathwork and eating lunch.

Focus on relaxation. Focus on acceptance. Focus on non-resistance. Focus on action. Focus on your locus of control. But also let go.

Another day or two of 30s, then I might feel ready for 1 minute loops.

#62

February 6 2026
01:00 - Dragon Reborn: Regeneration
01:00 - Godlike Masculinity
01:00 - Love Bomb

Nothing special to say today, making progress at work. Still stressed. Yes dude!

Going for 1 minute duration today, feeling it out.

#63

February 7 2026
Rest and integration day

”Your goal is not to consume as much subliminal audio as possible. Your goal is self-mastery and the achievement of your objectives. Sometimes that means listening more; often it means listening less and integrating more.”

”… noting at which exposure tier reconciliation occurs and staying at that listening exposure until reconciliation is no longer discernible during a rest day, you would increase exposure to the next interval.”

Definitely recon today. I shall go back to 30 seconds. I’m also going to put space between the titles. Grouping GLM + DRReg together and LB on the second listening day.

City Pop Saturdays, like I’m on vacation in the Bahamas or Hawaii. Like I’m walking around in my Hawaii shirt, sunglasses and shorty’s, barefoot. With a iced cuba libre in my hand, or a Sicilian fruit ice cream. Is this ”my inner spa”?

“I care about this suffering. I see you! Care for a cup of tea?”

Attended a talk about accessibility and how to get certified in it. To be honest, it felt the least accessible certification, which is ironic lol they literally want you to jump through 10 hoops over months, that’s not even related to studying for the exam or competence/skill, just taking it, and then you have a bunch of credits you have to earn yearly to keep it, which is basically marketing activities for them. It sounds like the biggest pyramid scheme ever. But one great thing was the talkers tip of G LLM. Top notch! The rest? Mid! Accessibility is important, but it’s not 10 hoops and 400$ important. You just need some reading, apply it, common sense and get feedback when building software. Ez.

I got these books:

  • Radical Acceptance
  • The Alchemist
  • Tao Te Ching
  • Zhuangzi
  • Meditations
  • Mans Search For Meaning

I chose Radical Acceptance to complement LB. Don’t know of any classics for self-love. Feel free to share what completely changed your life.

I think I should just set a goal and trust my intuition instead of reading these books. Listen for inspiration. Rely on my self could be a healthy exercise, but old habits die hard.

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#64

Completely changed my life would be a bit much, but there are a few books that opened my eyes a bit more

  1. Existential Kink
    It’s basically a thesis that a shadow part of us, that we reject, “gets off” on our pain.
    Like this part of you has a rejection fetish, so it manifests situations, influences your behavior so you can experience rejection more often.

  2. Learning to love yourself
    Someone in here mentioned it, and it was a great read. Showed me, where I still didn’t treat me well. Speaking of it, maybe I should read it again since I’m on LB atm.

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Thoughts and Rambles
#65

That sounds good, it’s in line with the current way I work with shadows. Thanks! I think I’ve read a page or two of this one in the past. Will have to dive into it.

Haven’t heard of this one before, will check it out!

#66

February 8 2026
00:15 GLM
00:15 DRReg

Feeling grumpy as grump this morning. Many factors, so I’m going down to 15 seconds.

R.I.P - Rest, Integration and Processing. That’s what I call my rest days. It’s dark humour, I guess?

My current simple daily practice fits with GLM, and I feel peaceful and capable after doing it, ready to take on the day. Simple standing meditation, waking up meridians and simple qi gong exercises. I just want to be more consistent with it. At the same time, forgiving myself for missing days. Having compassion and love for myself regardless (LB/DRReg).

Biggest takeaway from man’s search for meaning is the concept of you always have the power to choose your response and inner attitude. Tragic optimism, finding meaning regardless of circumstance. This is also aligned with GLM. :mountain:

”I have power over my mind, not external events.”

Anxious about tomorrow, what’s the payoff, what’s the fear? The payoff is that I might be able to avoid pain in the future by compulsively and obsessively worry about that future and think about it, creating resistance and dense energy in the mind, living in my head. The fear is something bad in the future that might happen or might not happen.

Even though there’s no certainty of danger, it is out of my control or I don’t really know what will happen?The logic is ”I’ll suffer now in the hopes that I will suffer less tomorrow.” That doesn’t sound like a well thought out strategy. That means always cultivate suffering, as default setting. (I know, it’s probably an irrational defence strategy probably conceived in the past.)

I guess, instead, it’s about starting to cultivate a self-boundary to not engage with this bs. WuWei, tawakkul and let go.

You are the average of the 5 people, so I watch only live irl streams of ballers, if I’m gonna cope I want to cope good. Lol

The subs are amazing man. Manifestation galore! Nobody said it would all be peaches and cream. And this all from microloops only :ok_hand:

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#67

February 9 2026
Rest, integration and processing.

Foundation man. Deep roots! Authenticity, positivity, self-love, action and presence. Don’t build a castle on shallow foundation. Build it on pillars.

My nature is expansion. I don’t need motivation to expand. I expand naturally, inspiration, naturally. I don’t need to fear losing motivation or that I’ll be a hobo if I let go of the negative driving forces. I am expansion. I don’t need worry, self- hate or guilt to push me to expand. Expansion is my nature.

Damn it feels good to hit the gym.

#68

February 10 2026
00:15 - Lovebomb

Don’t sweat it bro, your nature is expansion.

I like ioi reports, but it’s also bittersweet because I think what if this person is wasting their time just beating around the bush?

I think about living life with regrets alot so I project. Because it’s probably my biggest fear, dying with big regrets.

To me it sometimes is like someone looking for a job (desperately in need) and they are talking about all these ads for jobs and money offers but they never apply and take the risk of getting rejected. But I’m thinking you’re always risking, you’re risking living an unfulfilled life full of regrets.

Just apply.
Screw approaching, just say ”hi”.

What’s worse?

But I’m grateful, because the mirror turns on me and I’m thinking where am I just farming ”IOIs” and where am I ballin’?

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#69

February 11 2026

Had a couple insights this morning how I’m on the right path with love bomb and others insights about ”beating around the bush.”

”Does this defy the laws of physics?”

Had a great meeting with the customers discussing what I’ve been building (and stressing about) since January and everybody’s pleased… A minor field need to be removed, but everything seem ready for stress tests. My whole team is biggin’ me up, calling me the integration wizard. So much love from people dude. Love bomb is the bomb! :bomb:

I had a thought to clarify my goals with this stack. The keywords were authenticity, self- love, self-worth and emotional health (healing). But what are my goals really? What am I cultivating more specifically?

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#70

February 12 2026
00:30 - GLM
00:30 - DRReg

A lot of processing today 🥲

But also many moments of addictive insights.

Album of the day
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The stack is telling me something with this recon, at 30 sec. I am working on authenticity, calm and self-love. But my reality is I guess not matching today.

I’m adapting.

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#71

February 13 2026
Rest day

The soft overcomes the hard…

Eat nutritious food. Love yourself. 1/1! Ceo!

Hydrate!

Sleep!

But no one is perfect, forgive yourself.

I’m thinking I should go back to 15 sec. :+1:

The goal is to feel what is authentically going on inside of me.

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#72

Once you’ve run LB for a while I can only recommend a customized version of it (maybe something Like my Ascendet Love Custom with LB and GLM?) adding emotions unfettered and way of understanding.
These modules are vibrational gold.

Since starting AL this year again, my ability to “feel what is authentically going on inside of me” rose by a few 100%.

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#73

Nice :ok_hand: I’ll see after a cycle or two

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#74

February 14 2026
00:15 - LB

Researching modules lol

I’ve noticed I’m having more dreams. I remember something, not much, but enough to know I had a dream.

Obsessing about something feels like running away from the present and is a type of resistance and coping. Why, the presence is so great? Well, because growth is not comfortable, feelings like anxiety and fear are not pleasant. So we escape. It’s dense.

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#75

That’s the reason I have Dream Traveler in AL and plan to add Language of the Dreams in the next iteration.
I don’t if if you’ve read a post in my journal earlier this year, but one dream opened my eyes about the influence RSD has in my life.
That was the moment I decided to add the new dream module to the next iteration.

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#76

That cool to hear, yeah I rarely remember any dreams, but running this past cycle I’ve had at least 2. I’ve jumped into your journal sporadically over the years, but will keep it in mind to look for it.

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#77

I don’t remember that much of my dreams as well. Mostly when I start a new sub or reach a certain threshold my processing gets so intense that I remember stuff.
The dream I mentioned was a sexual one where I was excluded. I woke up immediately from the emotional pain. After laying awake for an hour, I stood up and talked to Gemini.
That was the moment I realized how crazily are ng the influence of my RSD on my life actually was.
It’s not a regular occurrence, but one that initiated awareness.

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#78

February 15 2026
Rest day

The soft overcomes the hard.
Live as if you are living a second time now. Choose your attitude for the day, remember you can’t always control circumstance, but you can control your attitude. Find the meaning in the present and trust that the universe will conspire for your success when you follow your heart.

Just some reminders….

Another dream. I don’t remember exactly, I think I was talking with a lady about her sexual orientation/preferences or what kind of ” reality” dating shows she liked and she said she liked mixed genders and sexualities. :face_with_raised_eyebrow:

Feeling myazaki moments mixed with impatience and frustration. It’s a cocktail of emotions.

Alchemy of life. Grow through alchemy with life.

Perhaps just like muddy water, recon will clear with stillness. I’m trying that out and trying not to get in the way. I’ll let the mind and body do its thing, while I work on digging pathways.

If my goals are level 100, what’s level 2?

Part of action you take on subliminals is finding and figuring out what actions you should take, experiment and throw away what doesn’t work or resonate with you or your life at this stage.

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