Risky Two Thousand Twenty Six

Journals - Major Programs
#81

February 18 2026
00:15 Love bomb

You’re like a guy who got into it for bad ass Warhammer tournaments and deep and long nights of skirmishes with your friends. But instead you’re on forums for hours a day, reading about it, painting your pawns and knights, buying new ones, painting those and now the months, if not years, have gone by and you’re just a figure painter and collector. Lol not a single night with friends, not a single battle. For what? What are you doing man?

Tick tick tick! Wake up!

I have so much tension in my body holding me in coping and supression and tension. My soul wants out.

I’m done.

F this.

I’m committed to release.

To be free.

To get unchained.

To let go.

I’m ready to expand.

Whatever it takes.

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#82

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I was temped to use the 2 core embedded thingie, but I’ll wait. I might do it if something comes up that’s important for my keywords and this years focus.

Building a solid foundation and framework.

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#83

February 20 2026
Rest

Interesting dream.

I was sitting at a table with friends. I was leaning away from my tall pint and talking to this girl to the right. Then I turn around and my beer was gone. My friend to the left had this smug on his face and I saw my beer was empty next to his.

”Wtf, you drank my beer?”
He: ”i didn’t”

Then I notice girl opposite from me was wiping beer off the table and floor.

Girl: ”Aren’t you going to help?”
I realized he spilled my beer.

I got up and started helping her wipe. But had a sudden call for calling him out and wondering why I was (or she) cleaning and my friend is just sitting there. He was the one who spilled it. I became aware of all the ways I don’t respect myself and give others the free pass of being stupid and douchebags.

I should have said, you (girl) stop cleaning and you (guy) get the f up and clean and get me a new beer.

I don’t have problem with being assertive, I just tend to default to being passive automatically and in retrospect even 5 seconds in, I realize what I did. It’s like if someone enters a room I automatically get up to greet them, even before knowing if I know them or not, if I like them or not.

I also remember before this happened, I was talking to the girl on the right, it was a colleague of mine and she was looking super hot, glow up, aura, halo effect, she was talking to me in her native language and I didn’t understand. She was being flirty and teasing, then realized I didn’t care I found the whole energy exchange or vibe so hot that I just felt good and kept listening. Soaking the vibe, passively. It was as if she was running WDB and I was mesmerised. And she kept talking in her own language because I could tell she saw how turned on I got.

Anyway, then the earlier incident happened lol.

I love that I remember dreams. Why didnt I hVe them before? Is GLM / DRReg being processed properly because I run 15 sec loops? Am I just in a dream phase?

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#84

I think it’s from DRReg. I’ve had dreams ever since adding DRReg, and not so much with GLM. Something about inner spa probably does it.

I’m running 15s loops as well. More than a month already, actually lol. Only recently I stopped having recon on rest days

insane sub though, even at 15 seconds it led me to a much happier, rested and productive state, as well as healing some nasty limiting beliefs. Can’t even begin to imagine the life after working up to full loops and working through all issues

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#85

That’s good to hear. It’s awesome indeed. I ran 30 sec today, but I’ve been running 15 sec for a while too. It works, it’s awesome. I might try your plan of focusing on one duration each cycle.

It might not be so linear though. Like might work for 00:15, 00:30, but 1 min or 3 min might be too disruptive, and you might need 2 cycles on 30 sec.

Somedays I’m reasonable, patient and don’t mind. Other days I want to push it.

More of the former lately.

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#86

I actually just listen accordingly to new instructions. Increase exposure when not having any recon on following day; if recon, decrease exposure

It’s just that I’ve got a lot to work through with Regeneration, so it takes a while for me to stop having recon

And instead of decreasing from 15s, I decided to suck it up because there’s not much left to decrease more haha. The recon wasn’t really that disruptive either, so I didn’t mind. Just longer naps, more dreams and overall less energy temporarily (probably due to chronically overstressed nervous system finally relaxing)

EDIT: and one more reason I take time with Regeneration is because I want to give more focus to other titles in my stack - Genesis Mogul and Khan Black, so I decided to use Regeneration at one or two exposure tiers below. So if KB and Mogul are at 1m, Regen would be at 15-30s, for example.

so despite not having recon from Regen at 15s now, I’m not increasing exposure just yet because I haven’t built up to 1 min of GM and KB at the moment

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#87

I see, got it. :ok_hand:

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#88

February 20 2026
00:30 - GLM
00:30 DRReg

Some recon, not entirely sure if I should go back down or keep going.

People have been really nice lately, loving. Especially females. :kissing:

Even other females commenting on how other females seem extra nice (when a product owner saw my communication with a customer). :kissing_smiling_eyes:

The double core I was thinking about was GLM + KB4. I’m still doing QiGong, and the rewards are compounding.

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#89

February 21 2026
Rest
A common cold today.
A common recon today.

Create
Build
Process

The greatest hindrance is escaping the process.

Appreciation
Love
Self-love
Celebrate authenticity
Self-acceptance
Forgiveness
Crucible of life itself
Respect
Understanding
Stillness
Peace
Presence
Joy
Stoic
Discipline
Humility
Will
Congruence
Alignment
Patience
Healing
Soften
Process
Spaciousness
Release
Non-resistance

Get off that YT.

Focus on your course, Taichi content and TM. Perhaps recommended reading.

Get off PC at 10.

Create!

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#90

February 22 2026
00:30 - Lovebomb

Recon, cold.

A lot of anger the past two days. I believe I’m clearing suppressed emotions. But who knows!

I just guess there’s no shortcuts, experience the growth. Even the growth pains.

One thing that helped is putting my phone away for most of the day.

#91

February 23 2026
Rest day

My most important ”battles” is right before sleep and after waking up. The boundary around sleep. That’s where my efforts should be focused for pure presence.

”They don’t allow their own kids near these devices and on social media…”

So many dreams, I don’t know what’s real or not lol

I had this dream where I had a valuable resource/infrastructure that was a gateway type of thing. Like it was a tunnel in my yard that could give a shortcut to the city, and I had this gate around my house, and was a gatekeeper. And this one guy threatened me to give him a copy of the key. Then his goon threatened me on different day showing some kind of slaughter device that was called the rooster beheader. Lol it actually sounded reasonable but only now in retrospect I think he was going to use it on my d.

Perhaps this is one of my fears of success.
Being a target for people who use unethical methods to get their way. I guess I just need to protect myself in a more proactive manner.

Perhaps this is also a metaphor for suppressing my sexual energy?

Masculinity is many things, and one of them for me is the value of freedom. Including protecting and fighting for that freedom.

Interesting day.

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#92

February 24 2026
00:30 GLM
00:30 DRReg

Trust the process. It’s changing, you’re changing, trust that the flow is flowing. You’re exactly where you need to be doing exactly what you need to be doing. Your purpose is expansion, you will expand. You can’t not. Let go. Trust the dao. Wu wei!

I know I sound like a dao hermit, but I’m actually a fan of many religions and philosophies and think deep down they point to the same thing.

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#93

February 25 2026
Rest day

Patience, we’re cultivating a foundation.

Friends! Like 5 deep cool authentic guy friends that I interact with daily if not weekly. I have too many shallow friendships. It’s on me as well, I tend to not reach out and child those deep friendships.

#94

February 26 2026
00:30 - LB

Have had the push to add some zen and declutterring my office space. How that will increase my QoL. I’m just being a lazy gremlin. Will improve alread at least one aspect each day. Today I’m removing the LAN splitter I don’t use and use one headset for both work and gaming.

GOING THROUGH RECON!

#95

Unc anime right here!

#96

February 27 2026
Rest day

Day 38 of this cycle and stack. Can’t wait for the washout, integration.

1 mouse removed
1 keyboard removed
One lan splitter removed
My work/play space is cleaner!

Now I need a roof lamp and a bookcase. A painting or two. Desert, desert power.

Input (subliminal), processing (rest, acceptance and journaling) and embodiment (action).

Don’t know if 30s is my optimal dose. Perhaps too high. I will stay at 15 s.

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#97

February 28 2026
00:15 - GLM
00:15 - DR: Reg

”The washout period is necessary to avoid long-term overexposure and to allow for deep integration.”

I’m thinking of taking a long washout after this cycle. It’s going to be hard to take a long washout, but I think the integration will be good for me. I haven’t taken a long washout in years. It will do me good. :+1:

Do some soul searching. Why am I not happy alone? Why do I hate myself? Increase your capacity to living present to the moment. Your capacity to enjoy life. The capacity to have a regular day and enjoy it.

Hardcore inner work.
Hardcore lifestyle changes.
Hardcore social skills.

Outer circle - 100 guy/female friends.
Inner circle - Tight 5-10 friends

Godlike masculinity + DR: Reg (name embedded). That makes my listening day easier = GLM+DRReg + LB on same day, 15 sec each.

With love bomb, a great sub would be something like new ascension. Something ZPU and connected to building the foundation. With adaptive scripting.

QiGong, Neidan, Taichi and Yoga.

Breathwork, pranic breathing.

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#98

Into this kind of music lately. 🫶

#99

March 1 2026
Rest day

Unstoppable anger found in me today. I noticed myself notice myself projecting it on everything external that was bothering me, but it was that anger from nowhere, it’s not my surroundings fault.

Anyway, I put in an order for GLM/DRReg embedded custom. This one keeps on giving and I got stuff I want to work on.

This month’s theme is fear and self-trust.

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#100

I know this feeling just to well.
Had something similar happen today, though it was more annoyance than anger.

I think it’s some deeply stored emotion rising like a bubble from the floor of the ocean.

I experienced this mostly on Ascendet Love as well as on Khan 1. Connecting factor would be the I AM module. Or it’s something unrelated, caused by different scripting but leading to similar emotions.

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