Risky Two Thousand Twenty Six

Journals - Major Programs
#61

February 5 2026
Processing and integration, type shift…

QiGong/Taichi for flow and stillness and embodiment. Get more into my body than head. Vitality, health and energy. Balance. Relaxation, nervous system balance.

City pop makes me feel good. I was feeling alot of stress but that subsided after focusing on what I can control, doing some breathwork and eating lunch.

Focus on relaxation. Focus on acceptance. Focus on non-resistance. Focus on action. Focus on your locus of control. But also let go.

Another day or two of 30s, then I might feel ready for 1 minute loops.

#62

February 6 2026
01:00 - Dragon Reborn: Regeneration
01:00 - Godlike Masculinity
01:00 - Love Bomb

Nothing special to say today, making progress at work. Still stressed. Yes dude!

Going for 1 minute duration today, feeling it out.

#63

February 7 2026
Rest and integration day

”Your goal is not to consume as much subliminal audio as possible. Your goal is self-mastery and the achievement of your objectives. Sometimes that means listening more; often it means listening less and integrating more.”

”… noting at which exposure tier reconciliation occurs and staying at that listening exposure until reconciliation is no longer discernible during a rest day, you would increase exposure to the next interval.”

Definitely recon today. I shall go back to 30 seconds. I’m also going to put space between the titles. Grouping GLM + DRReg together and LB on the second listening day.

City Pop Saturdays, like I’m on vacation in the Bahamas or Hawaii. Like I’m walking around in my Hawaii shirt, sunglasses and shorty’s, barefoot. With a iced cuba libre in my hand, or a Sicilian fruit ice cream. Is this ”my inner spa”?

“I care about this suffering. I see you! Care for a cup of tea?”

Attended a talk about accessibility and how to get certified in it. To be honest, it felt the least accessible certification, which is ironic lol they literally want you to jump through 10 hoops over months, that’s not even related to studying for the exam or competence/skill, just taking it, and then you have a bunch of credits you have to earn yearly to keep it, which is basically marketing activities for them. It sounds like the biggest pyramid scheme ever. But one great thing was the talkers tip of G LLM. Top notch! The rest? Mid! Accessibility is important, but it’s not 10 hoops and 400$ important. You just need some reading, apply it, common sense and get feedback when building software. Ez.

I got these books:

  • Radical Acceptance
  • The Alchemist
  • Tao Te Ching
  • Zhuangzi
  • Meditations
  • Mans Search For Meaning

I chose Radical Acceptance to complement LB. Don’t know of any classics for self-love. Feel free to share what completely changed your life.

I think I should just set a goal and trust my intuition instead of reading these books. Listen for inspiration. Rely on my self could be a healthy exercise, but old habits die hard.

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#64

Completely changed my life would be a bit much, but there are a few books that opened my eyes a bit more

  1. Existential Kink
    It’s basically a thesis that a shadow part of us, that we reject, “gets off” on our pain.
    Like this part of you has a rejection fetish, so it manifests situations, influences your behavior so you can experience rejection more often.

  2. Learning to love yourself
    Someone in here mentioned it, and it was a great read. Showed me, where I still didn’t treat me well. Speaking of it, maybe I should read it again since I’m on LB atm.

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#65

That sounds good, it’s in line with the current way I work with shadows. Thanks! I think I’ve read a page or two of this one in the past. Will have to dive into it.

Haven’t heard of this one before, will check it out!

#66

February 8 2026
00:15 GLM
00:15 DRReg

Feeling grumpy as grump this morning. Many factors, so I’m going down to 15 seconds.

R.I.P - Rest, Integration and Processing. That’s what I call my rest days. It’s dark humour, I guess?

My current simple daily practice fits with GLM, and I feel peaceful and capable after doing it, ready to take on the day. Simple standing meditation, waking up meridians and simple qi gong exercises. I just want to be more consistent with it. At the same time, forgiving myself for missing days. Having compassion and love for myself regardless (LB/DRReg).

Biggest takeaway from man’s search for meaning is the concept of you always have the power to choose your response and inner attitude. Tragic optimism, finding meaning regardless of circumstance. This is also aligned with GLM. :mountain:

”I have power over my mind, not external events.”

Anxious about tomorrow, what’s the payoff, what’s the fear? The payoff is that I might be able to avoid pain in the future by compulsively and obsessively worry about that future and think about it, creating resistance and dense energy in the mind, living in my head. The fear is something bad in the future that might happen or might not happen.

Even though there’s no certainty of danger, it is out of my control or I don’t really know what will happen?The logic is ”I’ll suffer now in the hopes that I will suffer less tomorrow.” That doesn’t sound like a well thought out strategy. That means always cultivate suffering, as default setting. (I know, it’s probably an irrational defence strategy probably conceived in the past.)

I guess, instead, it’s about starting to cultivate a self-boundary to not engage with this bs. WuWei, tawakkul and let go.

You are the average of the 5 people, so I watch only live irl streams of ballers, if I’m gonna cope I want to cope good. Lol

The subs are amazing man. Manifestation galore! Nobody said it would all be peaches and cream. And this all from microloops only :ok_hand:

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#67

February 9 2026
Rest, integration and processing.

Foundation man. Deep roots! Authenticity, positivity, self-love, action and presence. Don’t build a castle on shallow foundation. Build it on pillars.

My nature is expansion. I don’t need motivation to expand. I expand naturally, inspiration, naturally. I don’t need to fear losing motivation or that I’ll be a hobo if I let go of the negative driving forces. I am expansion. I don’t need worry, self- hate or guilt to push me to expand. Expansion is my nature.

Damn it feels good to hit the gym.

#68

February 10 2026
00:15 - Lovebomb

Don’t sweat it bro, your nature is expansion.

I like ioi reports, but it’s also bittersweet because I think what if this person is wasting their time just beating around the bush?

I think about living life with regrets alot so I project. Because it’s probably my biggest fear, dying with big regrets.

To me it sometimes is like someone looking for a job (desperately in need) and they are talking about all these ads for jobs and money offers but they never apply and take the risk of getting rejected. But I’m thinking you’re always risking, you’re risking living an unfulfilled life full of regrets.

Just apply.
Screw approaching, just say ”hi”.

What’s worse?

But I’m grateful, because the mirror turns on me and I’m thinking where am I just farming ”IOIs” and where am I ballin’?

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#69

February 11 2026

Had a couple insights this morning how I’m on the right path with love bomb and others insights about ”beating around the bush.”

”Does this defy the laws of physics?”

Had a great meeting with the customers discussing what I’ve been building (and stressing about) since January and everybody’s pleased… A minor field need to be removed, but everything seem ready for stress tests. My whole team is biggin’ me up, calling me the integration wizard. So much love from people dude. Love bomb is the bomb! :bomb:

I had a thought to clarify my goals with this stack. The keywords were authenticity, self- love, self-worth and emotional health (healing). But what are my goals really? What am I cultivating more specifically?

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#70

February 12 2026
00:30 - GLM
00:30 - DRReg

A lot of processing today 🥲

But also many moments of addictive insights.

Album of the day
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The stack is telling me something with this recon, at 30 sec. I am working on authenticity, calm and self-love. But my reality is I guess not matching today.

I’m adapting.

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