Im actually surprised that you have decent looking bread in Canada.
From American TV I only know white bread like toast without a serious crust.
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The toast is buttered on the inside. Grass fed butter!
We’ve got some fantastic bread varieties where I live.
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RECON 
Been trying to reduce my screen time since I was experiencing recon but in a different way. It’s subtle yet I notice there’s stuff going on. I notice after the fact for some of it.
It’s all good though.
Today is rest day. Been enjoying some time with my girls at a country Airbnb with hot tub. They’re so happy.
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Day 17 ~ full loops of Stark & Seductress
Had lots of dreams without any recall.
I’ve realized where I learned that in order to be rewarded gifted or given anything that there would have to be some form of dramatics. Learned from childhood. That I would lose in some way by getting something
I also thought I had to learn things the hard way.
I learned to get rewarded for my “bad” behaviour. I got attention by acting out.
Not sure why I’m doing more inner child work during this cycle but it’s been called to my attention with recent situations.
I glanced at a book last night called ‘Zero Limits.’ Felt called to read one chapter where the Doctor said, “what’s going on in me that this came up in her? How can I be 100% responsible?” He believes that every client or person that presents something to him is a reflection of something inside of him that needs cleaning. We are all one. He said that healers clients are all perfect and it’s something about ourselves to heal.
This sort of ruffled me up a bit last night. Not sure if I fully agree but still helpful. Another resource to consider on this journey of life.
I’ve been feeling anger most recently and snapped out on someone last night that I’ve been triggered by many times. I don’t regret it. The old me would have hit them but the new me just expressed my feelings in a more verbally aggressive manner. Almost like I was singing hardcore music like the old days.
Today I will allow myself to enjoy the interplay of the darkness and the light. Find joy as I bear witness to this interplay without any reactions.
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Day 19 ~ Heartsong
And I keep whispering
To my soul’s memory of truth
So can you sing me your heartsong?
And can you make it sound true?
Can you believe in anything?
Can I believe that heaven sent you?
This song kept popping in my head prior to this titles upgraded release.
I feel this was a pre result and helped me make a lot of decisions even before listening. My intuition guided me back to this title. I resisted it for whatever reason. Here I am though.
I just listened to a full loop of the upgraded version and will listen to it again on my last listening day before I wash out. Excited to see how Stark and Seductress bloom with this title added back in.
There’s a lot I could say about love and romantic relationships. I’ve had quite the journey so far.
Excited to see what 2 loops will do for me followed by wash out.
I’m still super curious about Seductress Dark.
I am bringing myself back to focusing on allowing my intuition to guide me in prioritizing.
I decided to put on my lepidolite crystal bracelet this morning from my collection. When I headed to my healing room I felt drawn to my one crystal deck. I pulled the lepidolite card of course.
I’m going to share it below:
My son just told me I talk too much and that I am rambling … (since I finished HS loop.) 
Oh great.
I’ll have to make sure I am channeling my energy into my work, artistic expression & yoga practice, one thing at a time.
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I feel such a strong surge of energy right now.
Wowza!!!
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Vision Of Love
Treated me kind
Sweet destiny
Carried me through desperation
To the one that was waiting for me
It took so long
Still I believed
Somehow the one that I needed
Would find me eventually
I had a vision of love
And it was all that you’ve given to me
Prayed through the nights
Felt so alone
Suffered from alienation
Carried the weight on my own
Had to be strong
So I believed
And now I know I’ve succeeded
In finding the place I conceived
I had a vision of love
And it was all that you’ve given to me
I had a vision of love
And it was all that you’ve given me
I’ve realized a dream
And I visualized
The love that came to be
Feel so alive
I’m so thankful that I’ve received
The answer that heaven
Has sent down to me
You treated me kind
Sweet destiny
And you know that you did
And I’ll be eternally grateful
Holding you so close to me
Prayed through the nights
Prayed through the nights
So faithfully
So faithfully
(Faithfully)
Knowing the one that I needed
(Knowing the one that I needed would find me)
Would find me eventually
I had a vision of love
And it was all that you’ve given to me
I had a vision of love
And it was all that you
Turned out to be
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Day 21 ~ Heartsong full loopy
Working on simmering the anger I was feeling and reacting on.
Adding this in has gotten me thinking back on my engagement I ended and how much I likely hurt my fiancé at that time. I started crying while a Coldplay song came on as I went down memory lane.
He just got back from Mexico and my first thought was wondering if he went with a girl. I don’t know if anyone since I called off the wedding.
We had the date set, venue booked and deposits on everything. I walked away.
I started finding this feeling of wanting him to be happy no matter what.
My ego wants to cling and not let him go but I must detach from this.
Bring the focus back to my own Heartsong 
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Washout has begun!
My dreams were crazy last night. Very very very deep processing going down! I’m grateful.
Ordered my next book for kindle. Not finished the other one mentioned recently yet. (How to be the love you seek.) I am halfway done.
I feel it will be helpful for me both personally and professionally too.
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I realize that I feel extremely attached to Seductress and don’t want to let it go.
I could probably benefit from moving on to something new after listening to it for so long.
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Yes. Give her time to bloom before SD comes out.
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Maybe you shouldn’t let it go
Just take a break.
I feel I have become the seductress and it’s within me.
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Oh, cool
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Yeah. I purchased A Stark Black Reality & Phoenix today.
I wanna run that for a cycle after washout and see how that goes. Let my other subs bloom. 
I’d love if Seductress & Stark got upgrades.
I’m also curious about Seductress Dark. Waiting to read the sales page for that one.
Seductress has been a very foundational title for me since joining sub club in 2022.
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I feel/felt the same way about wanted which I ran nonstop since it first came out and just when I was about to take it out my stack wanted black came out lol and I’ve realized recently I’ll most likely never stop running it. It’s fun to me to see how far/deep I can go with the sub and all the hidden objectives I can unlock……
Seductress dark will probably give you crazy results
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A thought just came to me: I said I was done with healing titles, but Phoenix feels like a good choice for a cycle. Especially since what I was experiencing during my long washout and how my new year has played out so far.
Are you listening to Wanted Black now or stuck with Wanted?
Did you ever take a break from Wanted?