There she goes… 💃

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#84

Day 21 ~ Heartsong full loopy

Working on simmering the anger I was feeling and reacting on.

Adding this in has gotten me thinking back on my engagement I ended and how much I likely hurt my fiancé at that time. I started crying while a Coldplay song came on as I went down memory lane.

He just got back from Mexico and my first thought was wondering if he went with a girl. I don’t know if anyone since I called off the wedding.

We had the date set, venue booked and deposits on everything. I walked away.

I started finding this feeling of wanting him to be happy no matter what.

My ego wants to cling and not let him go but I must detach from this.

Bring the focus back to my own Heartsong :heart:

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#85

Washout has begun!

My dreams were crazy last night. Very very very deep processing going down! I’m grateful.

Ordered my next book for kindle. Not finished the other one mentioned recently yet. (How to be the love you seek.) I am halfway done.

I feel it will be helpful for me both personally and professionally too.

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#86
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#87

I realize that I feel extremely attached to Seductress and don’t want to let it go.

I could probably benefit from moving on to something new after listening to it for so long.

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#88

Yes. Give her time to bloom before SD comes out.

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#89

Maybe you shouldn’t let it go

#90

Just take a break.

I feel I have become the seductress and it’s within me.

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#91

Oh, cool

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#92

Yeah. I purchased A Stark Black Reality & Phoenix today.

I wanna run that for a cycle after washout and see how that goes. Let my other subs bloom. :slight_smile:

I’d love if Seductress & Stark got upgrades.

I’m also curious about Seductress Dark. Waiting to read the sales page for that one.

Seductress has been a very foundational title for me since joining sub club in 2022.

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#93

I feel/felt the same way about wanted which I ran nonstop since it first came out and just when I was about to take it out my stack wanted black came out lol and I’ve realized recently I’ll most likely never stop running it. It’s fun to me to see how far/deep I can go with the sub and all the hidden objectives I can unlock……

Seductress dark will probably give you crazy results

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#94

A thought just came to me: I said I was done with healing titles, but Phoenix feels like a good choice for a cycle. Especially since what I was experiencing during my long washout and how my new year has played out so far.

#95

Are you listening to Wanted Black now or stuck with Wanted?

Did you ever take a break from Wanted?

#96

All the best with ASBR and Phoenix. I understand how you feel. I love WB so much that using anything else feels wrong. Though externally I haven’t gotten all the results I want yet, I still feel more myself on it.

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#97

This will be good for me. :heart: 1 cycle.

I’m looking forward to the bloom of Stark and Seductress. I also listened to the new HS a couple loops prior to washout.

Spiced things up. :rofl:

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#98

I’m listening to wanted black. I stuck with wanted until wanted black came out. I’m so in love with living this archetype I’ll double down and stack updated wanted with wanted black for a cycle for fun when it comes out.

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#99

I think one cycle with Phoenix will help clear up some things in preparation for Seductress Dark.

Maybe it’ll be Stark Black & Seductress Dark. :flushed:

We shall see! :rofl:

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#100

I’m floating around in my head about this next cycle I’m experimenting with before I take on my 2024 stack, which all depends on what I feel towards Seductress Dark (when released), and if other titles get upgraded.

Part of me was thinking to keep listening to Seductress while using Phoenix & Stark Black, but that’s probably not a great idea. :rofl::rofl::rofl:

I want to allow Seductress to bloom while I explore the other 2 new titles for a cycle.

I’ll keep at my daily self care and yoga practice. I’m very well disciplined now. I am the conscious creator of my reality anyways.

I can’t even skip something from my self care routine here and there anymore. Its rock solid!

#101

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Before bed selfie last night. :heart:

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#102

I have the urge to listen to Phoenix right now… hmm :thinking:
I’ve only been in washout for a few days from subs I’ve used long term.

#103

Please close my journal @RVconsultant

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