The Psychonaut - Eudaemon

Journals - Custom Subliminals
#363

Today was my last day of the cycle with DR Red st2… This stage was filled with lots of anxiety and I mean lots of it, even today.
Fortunately I found Systema to start taking care of myself again, I haven’t slept as well as I did last night after class in like this whole year, I slept so deep I had trouble getting out of bed this morning.

Tomorrow I will start the washout and for the next cycle Im already set on DR Red st3, with maybe Spartan and/or Paragon. All the anxiety and the alcohol has my body aching a lot, its not that Ive been drinking too often, but when I do, I drink too much, but the anxiety has me always thinking about a drink.

There were very rough patches during this cycle, more than once I got to bed in the night wishing it to be the last one. All the ghosts and demons from the past came to the surface and it got a little overwhelming. Today I realized that I was looking for redemption and forgiveness, but from someone else`s instead of myself, that helped me move out of the darkness some more.

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#364

Since yesterday Ive been feeling pretty good and relaxed, its not an euphoric feeling or anything like that, its a calm wellbeing, a sense of peace.
I can describe it as a lack of turmoil and the comfort of being me, with a persistent thought that says “the pain is gone”.

DR and specially st2 is awesome, a pretty hard ride, but if you endure it its awesome.

It feels like Im not longer looking at the sunshine from the window, as I stated a whole ago, but that Im now walking outside in nature, bathed by the sun.

New Beginnings.

Im not gonna say that Im super confident and motivated about the future, but Im also not longer burdened by pain and the desire for things to be over.
Its a feeling of quiet acceptance maybe, or maybe a relaxed attitude towards whats to come. Not longer about negatives or positives… About living life and having experiences.

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#365

Day#1

Starting a new cycle

DR Red st3
Heartsong

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#366

Went out to the streets on a sunny day and confirmed my suspicions… Im recovering my sense of beauty and joy.

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#367

Its such a great feeling when things just flow and you are effortlessly riding the wave.

Systema was such a great discovery, Im enjoying a lot to be exercising, specially a discipline thats so different from what Im used to.

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#368

This is what I have in mind… Im gonna wait till the end of the week before building to see if I need to adjust anything.

1. Heartsong
2. Sanguine
3. Daredevil
4. Synergy Inescapable Gaze
5. Synergy Primordial Aura
6. Soul Connection
7. Ethereal Presence
8. Emotions Unfettered
9. The Flow
10. Negative Energy Transmutation
11. Stress Displacement
12. Lion IV
13. The Wonder
14. Carpe Diem
15. Gratitude Embodiment
16. Joie de Vivre
17. Intuition Enhancer
18. Mystery
19. Sexual Manifestation
20. Gorgeous Manifestor

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#369

Changed my mind about my custom, HS is out and LB is in. Im gonna use HS as long as Im in DRR st3.

My custom is focused solely on enhancing my appreciation, love and enjoyment of life, everything else will effortlessly stream from that.

1. Love Bomb
2. Sanguine
3. Daredevil
4. Synergy Inescapable Gaze
5. Synergy Primordial Aura
6. Soul Connection
7. Ethereal Presence
8. Emotions Unfettered
9. The Flow
10. Negative Energy Transmutation
11. Stress Displacement
12. Lion IV
13. The Wonder
14. Carpe Diem
15. Gratitude Embodiment
16. Joie de Vivre
17. Intuition Enhancer
18. Mystery
19. Sexual Manifestation
20. Gorgeous Manifestor

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#370

Yo bro what vibes do you get from my custom? @Lion Im curious about it…

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#371

It’s exactly as you said here:

I even expected The Wonder module to be there in it and there it was:

It’s a great custom :+1:

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#372

Excellent!! Today it all made sense.

You cant not have The Wonder…

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#373

Then I would swap The Wonder for Synergy: Wonders of Life. Spiritual Freedom adds another levels of enjoyment.

Since you have Joie de vivre and Carpe Diem Ascendet in it you could go for Synergy: Carpe Vitam instead. It has both modules plus unrelenting wealth motivation and energy, which isn’t a wealth module per se. And the synergized scripting makes both modules more interconnected.

But I have to agree with Lion, it’s a very good looking custom :+1:

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#374

Those are very good suggestions, but I already order the custom.
If I do a V.2 I will add those, this time I didnt want to spend that much in synergy modules, since I already have all of the others licensed.

Cant wait to listen to it… finishing DRR3 a new area begins for me subliminal wise.

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#375

Multi Layered
Simultaneous Processing
Changing Perspectives

Im getting this strange and cool vibe from DRR3…

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#376

Silly me thought DRR st3 would run smoothly, but since yesterday Ive been having recon… I feel paranoid that people dont like me.

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#377

Damn I didn’t catch that when running DRR3 but you are right.

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#378

I think I remember you talking about this at some point, but didnt realize it was st3 also

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#379

I did? Hmm must be because DRR4 is such a smooth sailing that I forgot DRR3 lol. Have been on one week of Stage 4 and it feels so good.

Keep at it bro! The sun will rise soon! The light at the end of the tunnel is the Red Dragon train barreling down at you in the form of ST4.

But before that, you will have to pass through the valley of darkness from ST1 to ST3.

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#380

I have no plans to run st4… Im finishing with st3 at the end of this cycle most likely.
Last night I received my new custom so today I started it with st3.

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#381

I think I misunderstood this as you having the same experience

But then…

So Im confused lol

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#382

Lol! It’s ok.