The Psychonaut - Eudaemon

[Joa23]

Last night I had my “letting go in peace” dream and today I feel much lighter.
Anyways alcohol has been a strugle for me as a cope for pain and loneliness.

I started training Systema last week, Im getting fat and I spend too much time alone between 4 walls…
I need movement, exercise and socializing. Systema is something I wanted to learn for years and nobody teached it in my city… Last week in one of those funny coincidences I discovered a new school 200 mts away from my house, went for a free testing class and loved it.

[Joa23]

Today was my last day of the cycle with DR Red st2… This stage was filled with lots of anxiety and I mean lots of it, even today.
Fortunately I found Systema to start taking care of myself again, I haven’t slept as well as I did last night after class in like this whole year, I slept so deep I had trouble getting out of bed this morning.

Tomorrow I will start the washout and for the next cycle Im already set on DR Red st3, with maybe Spartan and/or Paragon. All the anxiety and the alcohol has my body aching a lot, its not that Ive been drinking too often, but when I do, I drink too much, but the anxiety has me always thinking about a drink.

There were very rough patches during this cycle, more than once I got to bed in the night wishing it to be the last one. All the ghosts and demons from the past came to the surface and it got a little overwhelming. Today I realized that I was looking for redemption and forgiveness, but from someone else`s instead of myself, that helped me move out of the darkness some more.

[Joa23]

Since yesterday Ive been feeling pretty good and relaxed, its not an euphoric feeling or anything like that, its a calm wellbeing, a sense of peace.
I can describe it as a lack of turmoil and the comfort of being me, with a persistent thought that says “the pain is gone”.

DR and specially st2 is awesome, a pretty hard ride, but if you endure it its awesome.

It feels like Im not longer looking at the sunshine from the window, as I stated a whole ago, but that Im now walking outside in nature, bathed by the sun.

New Beginnings.

Im not gonna say that Im super confident and motivated about the future, but Im also not longer burdened by pain and the desire for things to be over.
Its a feeling of quiet acceptance maybe, or maybe a relaxed attitude towards whats to come. Not longer about negatives or positives… About living life and having experiences.

[Joa23]

Day#1

Starting a new cycle

DR Red st3
Heartsong

[Joa23]

Went out to the streets on a sunny day and confirmed my suspicions… Im recovering my sense of beauty and joy.

[Joa23]

Main Disc. Thread - The NEW Dragon Reborn RED

Stage 3 could not have a better name, it literally feels like taking off on a jet plane and leaving whats not useful behind, while gaining a new perspective from above. Im stacking with HS which adds a very profound sense of joy and happiness, the desire to explore life and have fun. I was fully engaged a couple of hours ago in the act of discovering the magic and beauty in a particular moment of time, moments that are absolutely mechanical and invisible for most people. Im sure theres gonna…

Its such a great feeling when things just flow and you are effortlessly riding the wave.

Systema was such a great discovery, Im enjoying a lot to be exercising, specially a discipline thats so different from what Im used to.

[Joa23]

This is what I have in mind… Im gonna wait till the end of the week before building to see if I need to adjust anything.

1. Heartsong
2. Sanguine
3. Daredevil
4. Synergy Inescapable Gaze
5. Synergy Primordial Aura
6. Soul Connection
7. Ethereal Presence
8. Emotions Unfettered
9. The Flow
10. Negative Energy Transmutation
11. Stress Displacement
12. Lion IV
13. The Wonder
14. Carpe Diem
15. Gratitude Embodiment
16. Joie de Vivre
17. Intuition Enhancer
18. Mystery
19. Sexual Manifestation
20. Gorgeous Manifestor

[Joa23]

Changed my mind about my custom, HS is out and LB is in. Im gonna use HS as long as Im in DRR st3.

My custom is focused solely on enhancing my appreciation, love and enjoyment of life, everything else will effortlessly stream from that.

1. Love Bomb
2. Sanguine
3. Daredevil
4. Synergy Inescapable Gaze
5. Synergy Primordial Aura
6. Soul Connection
7. Ethereal Presence
8. Emotions Unfettered
9. The Flow
10. Negative Energy Transmutation
11. Stress Displacement
12. Lion IV
13. The Wonder
14. Carpe Diem
15. Gratitude Embodiment
16. Joie de Vivre
17. Intuition Enhancer
18. Mystery
19. Sexual Manifestation
20. Gorgeous Manifestor

[Joa23]

Yo bro what vibes do you get from my custom? @Lion Im curious about it…

[Lion]

@Joa23

Yo bro what vibes do you get from my custom? @Lion Im curious about it…

It’s exactly as you said here:

@Joa23

My custom is focused solely on enhancing my appreciation, love and enjoyment of life, everything else will effortlessly stream from that

I even expected The Wonder module to be there in it and there it was:

@Joa23

The Wonder

It’s a great custom

[Joa23]

Excellent!! Today it all made sense.

@Lion

I even expected The Wonder module to be there in it and there it was:

You cant not have The Wonder…

[Parsifal]

@Joa23

enhancing my appreciation, love and enjoyment of life,

Then I would swap The Wonder for Synergy: Wonders of Life. Spiritual Freedom adds another levels of enjoyment.

Since you have Joie de vivre and Carpe Diem Ascendet in it you could go for Synergy: Carpe Vitam instead. It has both modules plus unrelenting wealth motivation and energy, which isn’t a wealth module per se. And the synergized scripting makes both modules more interconnected.

But I have to agree with Lion, it’s a very good looking custom

[Joa23]

Those are very good suggestions, but I already order the custom.
If I do a V.2 I will add those, this time I didnt want to spend that much in synergy modules, since I already have all of the others licensed.

@Parsifal

But I have to agree with Lion, it’s a very good looking custom

Cant wait to listen to it… finishing DRR3 a new area begins for me subliminal wise.

[Joa23]

Multi Layered
Simultaneous Processing
Changing Perspectives

Im getting this strange and cool vibe from DRR3…

[Joa23]

Silly me thought DRR st3 would run smoothly, but since yesterday Ive been having recon… I feel paranoid that people dont like me.

Main Disc. Thread - The NEW Dragon Reborn RED

Now that I think about it, I stopped thinking about cycles a while ago and started thinking in breakthroughs. What I mean is I have an objective or a purpose for using a product and I use it till I accomplish that goal. Until I break through whatever limitation or problem Im experiencing at the moment, until I reach higher grounds. Stage 1 purpose was to heal my heart from a nasty break up. I did 2 cycles of st 1, because thats what it took me to heal the wounds of the break up, the pain, the …

[Lion]

@Joa23

thought DRR st3 would run smoothly, but since yesterday Ive been having recon… I feel paranoid that people dont like me

Damn I didn’t catch that when running DRR3 but you are right.

[Joa23]

I think I remember you talking about this at some point, but didnt realize it was st3 also

[Lion]

@Joa23

I think I remember you talking about this at some point, but didnt realize it was st3 also

I did? Hmm must be because DRR4 is such a smooth sailing that I forgot DRR3 lol. Have been on one week of Stage 4 and it feels so good.

Keep at it bro! The sun will rise soon! The light at the end of the tunnel is the Red Dragon train barreling down at you in the form of ST4.

But before that, you will have to pass through the valley of darkness from ST1 to ST3.

[Joa23]

I have no plans to run st4… Im finishing with st3 at the end of this cycle most likely.
Last night I received my new custom so today I started it with st3.

[Joa23]

@Lion

Damn I didn’t catch that when running DRR3 but you are right

I think I misunderstood this as you having the same experience

@Lion

I did? Hmm must be

But then…

So Im confused lol