The Journey Begins: Warrior

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#44

Chosen From Within is crazy. The regeneration scripting is, wow.

I had a dream yesterday about a friend in my past, I don’t want to put too many details about it but it made me rethink my actions of the past, and her significance in my life and the role she played. Her rejection of me in the dream really hit me emotionally in the dream, and now it’s having me wonder about what her role was in my life. I cut off contact with everyone from my past, but that dream made me remember her and the relation we had. Just makes me wonder, 'cause the dream shows clearly that there is something there within me. A chapter that I wanted to close by cutting off the people of my past is a chapter that still remains open, despite my efforts to drown it completely. There is something still there, and makes me wonder how to go about it.

I think I might need to go back to social media again, and restart a presence there. The important thing is to not fall into the trap of comparison and artificiality involved when consuming social media content, so I still think I need to build myself personally before I could go back. Still, that dream makes me wonder…about things.

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New Disc. Thread - Chosen From Within ZP Experimental
Main Disc. Thread - Stark ZP
#45

Also, yesterday was the first time I felt the benefits of MTM since I started running the sub. I was in a better flow, was able to start firing combinations from southpaw for the first time and at one point I entered a perfect flow state while hitting pads with the instructor, and even he was like “shit that was fucking smooth”.

Just can’t wait for MTM ZP so that I could speed up these results, but happy to finally see some benefit so far.

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#46

And wow, now that I think about it, yesterday was the first time that I thought back to where I was at my absolute lowest point in December 2020. I thought it had to do with the song I was listening to, but I think it may also have something to do with CFW now that I think about it. Thinking about that period of my life really made me emotional, but also grateful in a way. It’s hard to say, I really need to think more about it.

Also, my writing seems to be coming off a lot smoother than usual. Is this Stark coming into effect? Who knows.

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#47

this is most definitely coming from Stark bro.

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#48

Yeah that would make sense, as it’s my only solution I can think of to some problems that CFW has identified for me.

But again, I don’t think I’m ready to go back to social media to be honest, I feel like I need more personal growth before I do so. Hard to say what the precise next steps are, but I know that the focus has to be on getting better.

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#49

Wow just had another crazy dream, this time I was watching the Matrix series in an abandoned building, except my mind created a completely different story for the Matrix Reloaded. I don’t remember the details but it was a cohesive plot, to the point where I got scared in the dream of what was going to happen next and paused the movie. I forget the details, but there was a sort of equation extracted from a girl’s mind and projected onto a board but that extraction was compromised and the machines stormed into the building as Trinity and the rest of the crew pounced on this girl the moment the equation appeared, which was also the exact moment that the explosion caused by the machines occurred.

There’s a few other details I’m omitting about the dream, which I’ll sum up. I took a bus to go see a live sports game, I got off and stopped at a sandwich shop and I was surprised to see no one was scanning for vaccine passports. I left and walked to a building nearby, I think a mall, and I come across a friend from high school with his girlfriend I presume, both wearing t-shirts of that sports team (everyone around me was, kinda like they were all going to the game). I went on a computer while talking to them, to look up how awful this sports team was lately (as that’s where the conversation turned) and then I found myself walking towards that abandoned home.

Now after the movie scare, I went down the stairs and, again, not gonna give too many details about this but all I will say is someone I used to speak to transformed into a girl, naked, Caucasian, thick with gorgeous thighs with tattoos from her thighs to her upper body. The interesting thing of note was how she had two tattoos of a FAMAS assault rifle, one pointing upwards on her left hamstring and the other downwards on her right. She was staring at me, with a look as if she knew I was watching her closely and she was happy about it. She kept eye contact locked with me and went to the kitchen sink to clean the dishes, the downstairs layout of the home was very similar to where I currently live. That’s when I woke up.

These dreams man. What the hell is going on hahaha

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Main Disc. Thread - Stark ZP
#50

Yet another crazy dream again today. Don’t remember the details but there was a fight with a bunch of people getting into a building I was in, where a party of sorts was going on. Huge party, the building was some sort of industrial complex.

I think watching the original Matrix trilogy this week has permeated my mind apparently :sweat_smile:

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#51

Also had my interview today, think it went fairly well. Interviewer made it clear that the program is very difficult so I should get a head start ASAP, so I think I’ll start today.

I’m not sure if I want to replace CFW with Lovebomb for my next cycle, but the cycle after that I will need to make space for Limitless, as that will be a staple of my stack for the program (the same way MTM is a staple of this stack).

Also desperately hoping that MTMZP is released by mid-February at the latest, I need to run at least one full cycle of it just to see its effects.

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#52

Damn boy, CFW manifestation on steroids with you :eyes:

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#53

January 30 is the end of this cycle. February 5th will be the beginning of my next cycle, and I’m thinking about what to run next.

While CFW has felt great to run, I believe that it will have to be sacrificed for Mind’s Eye. The reason is that it will help boost Stark and MTM, and allow me to focus on the two biggest things coming up: my return to school, and my development in Muay Thai while I can still make it my number one priority.

I do want to run CFW again in the future, just because it makes me feel fucking great. I also wanted to run LB for at least one cycle, to absorb its good vibes but I don’t know when I’ll be able to, to be honest. Maybe I should replace Stark with LB, I don’t know. It’s hard to say at this point personally. I think I’ll run LB during April, since I won’t be able to focus on Muay Thai that month. I was also thinking about trying Paragon in the month of April, maybe with Limitless or Mind’s Eye.

I’ve got plenty of time to reflect on my upcoming stacks, we’ll see how it goes. Two things I am certain of though; I need to try Mind’s Eye ASAP, and MTM is the center of this journal and must stay that way.

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#54

Ran loop 1 of MTMXZP, training next time on Thursday so we’ll see how it goes.

Also ran Pre-Q’s Beyond Limitless lifecharger so that I could get started with learning some coding. Need to get a head start if I’m gonna succeed in this program, so I’m going to begin with Java and take it from there.

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#55

Ran BL pre-Q lifecharger again today on my rest day, but feeling a lot more lethargic now actually.

So I guess I’ve learned not to run these lifechargers on my off-days, since I don’t want it interfering with my stack.

#56

I suspect this is what happened from yesterday’s BL experiment. Concepts that were tiring to get through flew off the top of my head with ease today. I was actually surprised at how I was getting questions correct lol.

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#57

I wonder to what extent MTMXZP helps directly with technique and ability, versus taking action towards improvement. I am very self-critical so perhaps that’s the reason why I’m not seeing substantial improvement, but I feel like I’m taking a lot of action towards making myself better. So far it feels less like a skill boosting sub, and more of a sub that will direct your life towards boosting the skill in question.

Perhaps I’m a little too early to really see it too, so we’ll have to wait and see. Just keep on running the sub.

Also thinking about using @Billions’s new listening pattern starting my next cycle. I think I can handle 3 subs a day, plus the 2 day weekly breaks combined with the easy schedule and 4 day washout period makes me feel confident in its effectiveness. Of course, I do think running that type of cycle requires at least some “synergy” with all 3 subs; that’s why I think it will be crucial for my next cycle to take out CFW and replace it with Mind’s Eye.

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#58

Mind’s eye in Qv2 was a lot lighter than most subs so I think that it’s a great third sub.

I think that especially if you’re running 3 subs in a day, it might be effective to experiment with the 5-7 minutes per track idea. It’s actually really good. I’m only listening to two subs in my stack but I’m still experimenting with the reduced listening time. I listened to stark and Mind’s eye at 5 minutes per loop and they both kicked in fast. It’s not even a “reduced listening schedule” or anything like that… from the sounds of it, it sounds like it’s just caveat-free better in most cases.

#59

I’m not so much concerned with the reduced listening time, but more with the idea of cutting off the audio mid-script. Since we don’t really know how many loops of each script plays within the 15 minute timeframe or the intervals in which each script loop begins and ends, that is where I’d be concerned with accidentally cutting things off.

What are your opinions on those concerns of mine?

#60

My opinion is that Saint officially recommended that someone listen to a track for either 5 or 7 minutes and therefore it’s okay. It’s an official recommendation.

My best guess is that the first minute of every ZP loop has the exact same primer, and then each ZP loop for that specific subliminal lasts two minutes long.

0-1 minute: generic primer
1-3 minute: loop 1 of script
3-5 minute: loop 2 of script
5-7 minute: loop 3 of script
etc.

We know for a fact that every ZP has a primer that’s the same across them all, so this is not hard to imagine as an accurate model of how the scripts work.

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#61

Gaming Mastery X isn’t just for boosting skills, but it’s for those who are serious about becoming professional gamers. For those people, it’s a long term game adding motivation, discipline to train, increased efficiency in training, better self-awareness of where you need improvement, and the endurance in long-term resilience, plus all the mental skills needed to ascend to become a true pro-gamer.

For those who aren’t trying to become pro-gamers specifically but just want casual improvement, other subs would be just as good.

MTMX is probably the same way in the sense that if you’re serious about improving over a long period of time, it’ll be the way to go, but it won’t give quick results.

I did 8 years of martial arts, much of it muay thai and kickboxing, and I know for a fact that while the mind helps in martial arts, what’s most important is the mind and body becomming one… so even if your mind is already improving, it will take time to train your body how to do what your mind is starting to know how to do.

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#62

Given that the 5 minute thing came from username SaintSovereign, who knows how long the script is, it’s probably safe to assume that you won’t be cutting things off at an inappropriate place. Some relevant quotes:

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#63

Just had my 2nd interview at my 2nd choice program and wow, I freaking hit it out of the ballpark. If I compare the 2 interviews I did, this one while having more loops of Stark under the belt were on a completely different level. My charisma and confidence was just something else, with nerves of steel. Just to be clear, I’ve always had that charm and confidence since I was a child, but Stark has allowed me to tap into it much more easily.

The interviewer basically told me that I’m a guarantee to be accepted without telling me (because she wasn’t allowed to). Also being interviewed by a woman versus a man in the first program really allowed me to turn on my charm and confidence, it’s like an automatic thing that happens when I speak to older women.

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