Lol. I’ve got one of those too
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Day 17 ~ SB full loop
I’ve decided that I need to reduce my daily caffeine intake. I’ve been drinking more than usual past few months. I ordered a variety of herbal tea blends. I enjoy my mushroom coffee but with the addition of a nespresso machine I’m drinking too much espresso!
A woman looked star struck when she walked past me at the cafe. 
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Day 18 ~ rest day
I’ve been noticing how most of my parts have become mostly harmonized and content with the way things are going, while my manager part seems to be in my awareness a lot right now. I am noticing when it’s her trying to run the show rather than my core true self.
I was inspired to review parts work last night while sharing with a friend who hasn’t explored this work before.
My manager part has softened a lot without the other protectors so heavily involved. She is beginning to trust me more. I am curious how old she is. I am gonna connect with her more. I think I was subtly avoiding and distracting myself from her.
She’s been the know it all, perfectionist type, who doesn’t wanna be wrong or vulnerable. Who doesn’t think she needs help. Probably doesn’t want help because she may be seen as incompetent or go through those same icky feelings all over again.
I remember struggling with math concepts in grades 4/5 when some major trauma happened in my home. My baby sister almost died resulting in major surgery. My dad, who is a math and science genius would try and help me. This created a lot of resistance and I felt stupid.
I was very creative and intuitive. Very vivid imagination. I wanted my dad’s acceptance and approval, which likely created some cognitive dissonance, and the people pleasing started.
This part of me may potentially be around 10-12 years old. Could explain the challenges I’ve been up against with my 11 year old daughter!
I’m excited for this deeper exploration. No more avoiding!
Edit: my boobs feel like they are a cup size bigger
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I’m having to grapple with a 3 year old and below, down to the womb issues, there’s no personal stories associated at that age, no cognition that can be intellectualized to help me right now, it’s mostly breath and body work for me, to let these frozen energetic imprints release from my body, it’s slow and painful, I signed up for this before coming to this earth, not complaining, my life is incredible in so many ways.
I’m 34 and because of this I feel closer to a teenager/whiny child in my psyche than an emperor daddy, while also feeling the gigantic maturity of my deeper self, I’m getting closer and closer to reintegrate those parts fully but damn what a work.
Thanks for being who you are which allows me the space to be comfortable sharing this here.
You are so tough and so loving, I can’t wait to be able like you to guide others on their journey, blessings sister 
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Last listening day of this cycle ~ RM full loop
I decided to go to the lingerie store and get measured for bra size and I did in fact go up a cup size!
Time to replace my bras. I’ll credit the support from Seductress and Helen of Troy for this!
I’m definitely feeling more chatty today with strangers at the mall.
I brought a pair of leggings to Lululemon and they replaced them free.
I had to draw a line with a client today, which felt very empowering!
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Welp, I see my patterns atm. Experiencing some recon. Looking forward to washing out starting tomorrow!
Having some clarity!
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Wash out begins!!! I was having a lot of dream activity throughout the night.
I woke up early on my own without an alarm on my “sleep in” day. Got my butt up and moving freely to get whatever’s going on in there to process.
I did a fascial movement release geared towards full body for stress release when I got up. I noticed some tense spots in my mouth, so I did some trigger point release.
I thoroughly enjoyed sitting outside with the sunrise while I sipped on my mushroom coffee. Planted my feet in the cold grass for a while.
This recon creeped up on me!
My moon time is coming in 3-4 days, which could explain things hormonally that contribute to my emotional and mental state atm.
I find the luteal phase closer to moon time can sometimes be when recon hits me the hardest if I’m not eating the right foods or staying as hydrated as I need to be.
Seeing some patterns that need to melt or dissolve away with love!
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Happy washout days 
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Someone told me I was being creative about how I approached conflict with my kids earlier.
That felt good! 
I was explaining the way the mind can be influenced by those around you, but dumbed it down to their ages and stages! I talked about projections.
I got into trauma and what goes on in the mind and body and what can help.
I discussed ways that conflict can be normal in a family and how to be helpful according to their position in the family and what not.
I shared relatable examples.
I was triggered and thought, “I better use this as a teaching moment, rather than lose my crap!”
Win of the Day: Embracing Projection and Strengthening My Self-Concept:
Today, I was labeled as narcissistic, and I see this as a win that emphasizes my self-concept and the power of choice. This label reflects the beliefs of the person making the judgment, not who I truly am.
My self-concept is rooted in my worth and authenticity. When faced with negative projections, I have the choice to accept or reject what I hear and see from others. This moment reinforces my belief that what isn’t aligned with me will naturally reveal itself.
I view misunderstandings not as barriers, but as opportunities for growth and connection. They allow for deeper conversations and insights into different perspectives.
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I had an intense interaction online yesterday playing a video game, I usually mute everyone so I don’t get to hear idiots and teenagers’ drama and frustration while playing, but yesterday I decided to turn on voice chat.
In one of the games I was insulted by two guys who are friends and really went after me, french compatriots, they kept throwing all kinds of garbage at me, it was actually painful because all the stuff they said where actually precisely what hurts in me, my past negative stories and painful ideas about myself, they were so precise in their insults that I realised it’s work from my higher self, I attracted this experience to help me get rid of remnants of painful projections on myself.
It was unbelievably magical in one way but at first it was just plain painful because they triggered many layers of painful emotions. I felt compassion for them and felt strength in myself for realizing the beauty and perfection of the events I am creating for myself to heal in the most unexpected ways.
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That’s wonderful! 
Your level of awareness is evolving as you go deeper and deeper.
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Yes and this is where I get to understand that the worst interactions are actually great teachers.
Now that I think of it my story sounds like a perfect manifestation of Phoenix, facing my fears and pain through the intense fire of this interaction.
I definitely felt the resilience scripting kicking in
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That sub is so good. I think I listened to it for 3 cycles.
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Did you write a review somewhere about your experience with it, I’d be curious to hear in your words how you felt with it.
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I would have to go digging. I’ve truly embodied the scripting though, and it ripples through all that I share along with all the other great titles I’ve put a lot of focus on.
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I’m noticing some bloom with SB.
A musician from a pretty famous hardcore band followed me on IG and sent me a message. He said he’s looking forward to my content on spiritually.
My views and subscribers are going up a bit more.
Seeing a bit more engagement in my private group.
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Someone just told me they’d basically walk 250kms just to see my beautiful face!
I had a lot of disturbing thoughts throughout the night. It was a pretty restless sleep. Haven’t experienced something like that in a long time. I took my time getting up.
I feel much better now.
I am looking forward to DD in my next stack.
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