Damn long day, something just had to come up every time I pop into the forum or try to go through the Raikov copy and then I have to go do work on it.
@Chase coming a bit late, but I’ll have to give you a proper reply tomorrow.
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Posted the full review on the main disc thread for KB
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Ran one loop of Khan st2 and Wanted on Wednesday night.
Had serious sweating, rough sleep and a dream. Woke up Thursday and my energy flow was back to new baseline.
Still not able to feel the energy in my core yet, but it seems my theory of the energetic disruption seems to be mostly right.
Been a week and that ASBR micro loop still working overtime.
- All my social media feed shifted since Tuesday, it’s mostly business, wealth, content along with strategies and ideation.
- Desire to take the helms of our new family business cos I’ll take it to the moon
- Desire to go into branding/marketing.
- I also notice that the valuation process of the business entities and the people I want to work with are subconsciously being mapped out.
- And my compensation will be in equity.
These are not the first time I’ve felt and had all these, had them even before subs, but on ASBR the desire is so higher that everything begins to matter way less.
And I still don’t want to leave Khan yet, I mean I’m finally very close to my goal after working with it for close to 15 months—Accept that I’m built different on a very primal level, along with the skills to actually accompany that in my external reality.
Getting more and more detached from abstract thought which is usually one of my strongest/predisposed cognitive ability.
Not completely detached though, just toned down. I find that anything coming now is something I can mostly apply at my current level.
Also ties into my desire of being more grounded. The work has been underway for the most of this year and the results are now surfacing exponentially.
W year overall.
Now I have to make a decision between my headliners and then my accompanying goals.
Headliners
Khan St2
Wanted
ASBR
Also seems like I have insane flow factor with all three and I have goals highly related to all three
Accompanying goals
Health
Fostering capacity for more embodiment (flow factor)
Skill development
All the implementation of ideas here are going to be hard hitters and highly synergistic.
Custom options/ideas
Headliners
Adore Him
Dice Man
Skunk Works
Accompanying
Cradle
Bastion
Boundless Wonder
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Hmm, time for another ambitious set of tests with the headliners.
5s loops each, new listening pattern, and alternate the first sub each listening day. So three days total.
If it works as expected, I’ll put them in a custom and run it for about 4-6months😊
Now that I think about it, I can only imagine what a stack of Genesis and GLM will be like.
That’s like being fed unreal growth and momentum for the cheapest cost (recon and action) possible.
Hmm, I can extrapolate what I’ve done into the generalizable skill set.
In hindsight, what I’ve done is simply an application of the skill set, towards a particular outcome.
Now, which path has the most ROI?
Getting almost extreme disinterest in anything social—chatting, following people’s journey, reading walls of text, listening to conversations etc—until I’ve hit my goals.
My base state is almost completely flat—no uplifting emotional states, no rollercoaster—just flat nothing that borders on annoyance when I feel disturbed.
I know this is ASBR at play. The last time I used it for an extended period of time or felt more like acting from heavy force that easily got translated into anger.
Also scraped my plan to test the headliners. Currently testing ASBR, BL and NR.
Finally coming out if it
- body finally recovering properly
- sleep is deeper, just comes late
ASBR is now officially the second title with objectives that “keep me up at night.” The first is Khan. Both make my energy very restless, with desire for massive motion.
I see them when I’m awake, I dream of them when I sleep, like constant loop of organization, consolidation, rehearsal and desire. Actually I dream of both Khan and ASBR.
I was testing to see if I could keep Khan, Wanted and then sub ASBR with NR, but it doesn’t even cut close.
Overall, still battling with my stack.
My vision of using Khan St2 was for a very strategic and comprehensive identity rebuild, combined with Wanted. And for that I’d like to cultivate some specific skills with ASBR and BL to properly engage in that.
So I planned to shift Khan till after that, but It won’t let up. My decision might be to combine both, again.
Last time I did, it was too harsh. The force and rage were difficult to steer. I felt like the literal destroyer, a feeling that @Azriel noted in his journal too.
This level of sensitivity is kind of uncomfortable, at least till I adjust.
First was feeling my body with regards to motion, more I can feel the state/health of my organs?
Weird till say the least.
Also wtf is this sub, the presults I had on BL was absolutely crazy, but the results from one 30s test last week is off the charts it’s like seeing into a deeper level of reality, all without needing a lens.
And when the realization hits, evidence begins to flood. And as always they’ve always been, just my increased ability to recognize.
Also have another question.
Where does creativity come from?
I’m noticing my serious aversion to the answer as from the moment the question was conceived, I could sense it has heavy spiritual connotations.
Things I’m not willing to consciously face now because of its implications—how it applies to me and what I’ll have to change cos of it.
These days I still have lots of questions cross my mind, I answer them to any extent I can in the moment and then they go into the background.
For some reason I don’t write most of them down though, yet I feel this is a development for the better.
Still subject to change anyway.
The usual predisposition or flow towards extremes is always fascinating.
To the extent that fine control towards balance is the difficult work.
Now here’s my question ”Is this a natural order of reality or is it an outcome produced from the interaction of the orders in reality?”