The Conqueror’s Bliss: Prelude

Journals - Custom Subliminals
#321

What a way to end one year and start another.

Honestly, I don’t know what to write, not even in the mood to introspect. Although I don’t know when it’ll be, I’ll have to wait till it comes to me.

On another note, I feel like I’m losing touch with my major development from GLM, which was reaching and holding a space beyond limits of any kind, then harnessing it to realize my truest self and reality, with myself as the guiding light. Like embodying a me unbound by convention.

It’s like this solid formlessness molded the way it should be. And one of its effects is lots of mental and internal flexibility in self development, which I used to blend beliefs and archetypes.

Now I feel like I steeped out the door of this space and gradually backing away, while still staring at it.

#322

Also I’m finding it really hard to be amongst people that don’t strive for greatness or success. There’s this depth of anger that feels painful that comes up consistently. From my current perspective, my environment reflects this, even family. They are not bad people, they just don’t perceive success and reality the way I do.

I see a scenario or performance and the cues for practical improvement flow to me in real time, then it annoys me that they have chosen to remain mediocre.

I’m bouncing between leaving, how to leave, rebalancing relationships, helping people grow to my level and the potential pain generated from “abandonment” for me and the other. And it’s really hard on me. This is always why I’m careful with the social aspects when I’m on Khan, Emperor and now ASBR.

With ASBR I’m solid potentiated force, just there and burning is good enough to deserve my emotional currency, I don’t have any desire to share it and when I try to, I feel disconnected from myself like I’m acting.

Most are worried, saying I look sad, few say I look angry, but in reality only annoyance->anger are evoked when I observe ‘inadequacy’ or someone bothers my ‘peace’, not even me could do so otherwise. I just feel solid, with a potentiated calm and expressions that seem flat/bland, which people misinterprete.

I know this is my expression of the success, inner circle and resilience scripting in ASBR, and will be a running theme till I resolve why I’m expressing it this way.

PS: this is my own experience and may not be the same as yours.

#323

I know it is arrogance for me to assume that everyone else sees with the depth I do and yet decides to stay inadequate. Then blame them for not seeing the depth I see because it has always been way for me.

I know most of it is just me projecting my standards.

And this is one of the battles I’ve consciously been struggling with since I was a young child—the capacity to let people be on their own journey, just participate and leave when it’s time, rather then imposing my own standard of reality on them.

Anyway I got one step closer to resolving it since GLM and Wanted. But this current phase with ASBR is something else

#324

Tested Wanted with ASBR about 4 times now, Wanted adds a lot of balancing for the social aspect.

I still mostly don’t give a shit about engaging people, they’re not as interesting as usual, but when I’m engaged I don’t feel like I’m acting and my inner voice doesn’t scream “leave me alone” as consistently as before.

Essence: To Be The Prize will most likely make it into the custom.

#325

The more I use subs, the more I realize identity isn’t fixed at all.

Personal reality is like an infinite base and archetypes are simply shifting the area(s) of focus to a specific theme or subsection of my inner world for the moment.

Of recent, there hasn’t been any sub that I haven’t expressed most of what is written in the sales copy (not necessarily with full depth), including the archetypes.

It’s just that some of them are

  • Tricky to wield
  • Contain some parts that are fundamental to it that I don’t want to express
  • Or outright difficult to consciously guide from my current level of development.
#326

Now this is me trying to replicate the magic I had on my last stack while still moving towards my goals😭

This shit hard

#327

Black titles are built different, if you can handle it. Its accelerated personal growth that seems to shatter current personal reality

#328

Recently I’ve been noticing fear, fear born is perceived lack. I’m getting scared that I don’t have enough money to achieve my goals and I don’t even know how I’ll get that money.

Paradoxically, the sense of overwhelming success when I desire it is still very present and my income is coming back to baseline after the slump I had for the most of December.

#329

Been having three reminders looping in my mind for about three days now— “you must be comfortable being dominant and taking charge,” “difficult conversations need to be had” and “Embrace it”

I didn’t understand it up until yesterday, I got another ping saying “you are not a stranger to intensity, embrace it, for it is necessary”

I had a very difficult conversation about something that has caused me pain, given me sleepless nights and has stunted advancement—leaving people behind.

It’s just one part of the conversation, but it’s a first step. Besides that my decision has been made.

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#330

Did U get these reminders as revelations from nse of the titles or did U simply discover them from some other source?

#331

They came as revelations, but I can’t really say they are NSE-like, where they get triggered from an external manifestation. Here, It’s like my subconscious directly speaks to me in these moments.

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#332

I’ve set my plan for this year, but I’m keeping the sub plan flexible as it’s still subject to change.

I’m getting hungry, very hungry for reality breaking wealth along with something else, to be the center of reality, as a natural result of who I become. Then I read the copy of ASBR core and I see “Become a commanding presence in everyone’s world.” Completely explains my internal state on this, apart from the “over-resilience” I tend to express.

I’ve had these feelings before, an image was being built around it, customs included. I finally modified one of my custom plans to fit my current goals and desires.

And if cares not taken I might end up running ASBR in QTKS for the rest of the year.

#333

More money than god

The phrase has also been looping in my mind, but less frequently, along with a feeling very similar to it.

Now I remember it’s a book about the pioneering of hedge funds I read halfway through about 4-5 years ago.

I got to checking the wealthiest people in the world for the first time in maybe 3 years. Elon’s floating value is quite mind boggling, then I got another ping “bubble” I understand this is currently a market bubble that will correct itself before the markets he spearheads move towards efficiency. Man still wealthy regardless.

Then I got to checking wealthy people and living areas in my city and there are some big movers here. Most of them own private organizations though, so the financial data isn’t easily accessible.

#334

Fourth time I’m noticing the desire to be a big player in my school and city.

#335

Wealth pathway has been identified, wondering why I had all those dreams and thoughts I had when I restarted testing ASBR.

It felt like an itch I’ve been suppressing for a long time, then the dam bursted uncontrollably. Then I added BL and it felt like the fragment to reality behind how it functions got revealed.

Time to acquire the first directly monetizable skill under this.

Definitely not what I expected at first.

#336

Umm, so I just found someone with almost the same idea I have, executed on it and has already scaled to giving education on it since about 5 months ago🤦‍♂️

The only difference is the target avatar and level of vision required. I feel kind of late.

But now there’s someone to learn from, I can easily monetize using his pathway, while refining mine and actually sharpening my skills😈

It took under 15 mins after my previous post to find this guy

#337

Am I actually late?

#338

Can’t sleep

#339

Slept extremely late and for about 5 hours.

Now, I’m finally containing all my goals into structured actions that is actually satisfactory.

Yet I’m extremely bothered at the amount of risk exposure I’d have to take on just to start moving the way I want.

#340

New mental loop established ” You choose this, embrace it, x” with the ‘x’ usually being the third part that relates to what I engage (thought, action or perspective) in the moment.

On another note, The “crouching dragon” (sexual energy I feel around my abdomen) has been back for about two weeks now, except there are a couple changes

  • It’s not flowing yet, but I feel it all around my torso. I only get this feeling on Khan, KB and EB.
  • The activation conditions have broadened. It activates of sexuality (including having absolute control or just the thought of doing so), learning (reading, upskilling), self embodiment, mastery of body and achievement. It activates even when I entertain just the thought relating to any field listed.

A week ago, I was gifted a couple books and I had this feeling like I hit a bump of coke. Honestly I felt like an addict being handed my drug of choice. Pretty interesting.