Did you forget?
So soon?
Why have you forgotten…
…… the entire reason for the beginning?
The visions that kept you up at night.
The reality almost made tangible.
To be the only eye in your storm.
Remember your decision
Remember your pledge
To behold The Conqueror’s Bliss
What does it mean to be inevitable?
Is it possible for a being bound within the laws of existence?
What does it demand?
To what end?
To see the entire world sprawled out beneath your feet? To take whatever you please? To conquer your enemies?
Childish platitudes.
You know there is more and the entirety of reality knows that too.
In the end, will you be satisfied?
People around the world on their own journeys, doing amazing things, what a life.
I’m in awe of such a reality.
So many things to say, so many experiences to live.
So many things to accomplish, so many things to learn.
So many questions, with answers waiting.
I want it all, and I will have them. I just have to bring myself to approach them one at a time.
But this is much different from what I expected. I had always thought resolve was obsession.
Perhaps, two things could be true at once.
I feel like my stack has been expressing itself more in my external reality and lately I’m craving deeper intensity/immersion with my internal world and actions.
I currently recognize this as recon.
Just revisited a journey I embarked on last year for a health and cognitive overhaul, which I didn’t see till the end.
Brought up the original line of questioning and it’s evolving into a full on life overhaul.
Now, I’m going to take these questions/reasonings and convert it into an action template organized by seasons of immersion. It’s a template because I choose to embrace refinement, even on the journey.
Health
Mind
Spirituality
A grey area that I am actively avoiding. Various experiences, opinions and beliefs, most I didn’t choose or even take the time to integrate. I honestly don’t feel ready for this, so I’ll just do the minimum, till this season comes.
Wealth and Material Assets
Privacy
Defense
Sovereignty
NOTE
Somethings I write here will not make sense to you, as I’m mostly speaking to myself to refine my thoughts.
Other times I could just be writing raw direct stuff as they come to my field of observation.
And then, organized results😁
To see clearly. To love. To serve.
Is this all there was?
The answer to the entire equation?
Hidden in plain sight?
How is this even a secret?
And just like it is, reality is a paradox. It is simple and it is complex. It serves the ultimate purpose, but can also be weaponized.
Consent is required.
Nothing can influence you, your situation or your soul without YOUR consent.
By you participating/engaging, even if ignorantly, you have consented.
When you sign, when you say something as simple as “yes” in conversations, or even participation (active or “going along with the flow”), you have consented.
I’ve been having incidents since last week and I’m just realizing the development that had to take place to get to that change in behavior.
So basically, I’m in a conversation and I reach a point where I explicitly have to say “yes” yet I feel an internal aversion to saying it. Four questions pop into my mind
You are the zero point.
Everything is interconnected and grounded in practicality - physical, spiritual, metaphysical, conscious, unconscious, order, chaos, even paradox.
There is always a method to the madness.
You either know or you don’t.
If consent is required to any form of influence, how can consent be received?
Making the interaction as transparent as possible/required and outrightly gaining consent from the other party.
Consent is neither inherently good nor bad, it’s simply reality.
I’m not sure why, but I can perceive consent being manufactured and weaponized on a global scale. I don’t know if it’s intentional or just how society is, but I don’t like it in the slightest bit.
It is your responsibility to pay close attention, to know when your consent is being weaponized against you or to create justification against another. And it is also your responsibility to have the capacity for defense and victory.
Just leaving this here
From what I’ve experienced using dense stacks, I’ve realized that you can run dense stacks in theory, but there are four requirements, to make the absolute best of them. Without the requirements, I find results are often times subpar for me.
Before I get into the requirements, I have to say something that still held true, even on dense stacks—Spreading your attention and resources too thin will significantly increase the chances of inefficiency and sub optimal growth. Hence, YMMV.
How harmonious are the concepts in the sub with each other, to you?
What solid outcome can you picture from the interplay between all subs in the stack?
If it doesn’t make sense to you, well you’re going to spend a lot of time trying to make sense of it before active development starts.
The current state of your internal and external world, with regards to the concepts being discussed in the sub.
Your environment is your pathway of manifestation. After all, the results we seek must be grounded in practicality.
This also plays well with NSE’s manifestation of new experiences. Creating an environment that could give you frequent luscious new experiences, would support a positive feedback loop, where growth is natural.
Also, how open is your environment to change from you and external factors? Your friends, workplace, family, lifestyle etc
This is the reflection of identity into external reality. Your physical attractiveness, dressing, behavior, linguistics etc. This is the part where most people sense first, and, even though it’s sad, it is the limit some will be able to accept.
Now, imagine you hear a voice, immediately, something has been stirred within you. Your head swerves instinctively so you behold the siren, but the illusion shatters almost immediately. Then, you might say to yourself “such a shame, not what I expected” and move on with your life; while some others may roll their eyes, and, you guessed it— they move on too.
How congruent are your actions towards the concepts you desire to embody?
How likely are you to embody the concepts, if you keep acting the way you currently are?
The more congruent actions you can stack, the better. Hence, why I agree with @Sub.Zero method of using a sub grounded in your current reality.
How much energy can be mustered towards embodying the concepts? The more the merrier
How accommodating is you energetic/body system to the concepts?
Imagine using cognition subs, but never sleeping properly. Running sexual/social subs but never leaving your house. Or using physical shifting and never eating properly.
This one is the most interesting one, that I’ve observed out of the rest, and, it boils down to one question
How much of your mind can you harness towards embodying the concepts?
Sub input, speed of processing, processing density (feeling the heaviness of the sub in your head), energy demand are all outcomes from that one singular question.
Another interesting observation is that—consistency is so underrated in building up this capacity.
What is real and what is false?
What is me and what is not me?
What if everything you’ve ever known and might ever know is just a part of the truth?
Does the problem exist because of the answer?
I’m right here wrestling with this desire to go deeper, to the depths were light avoid. To become the light for the purpose of conquest over that which I consented power over me.
To use them as fuel for the unification of identity—the mastery of self. To behold all within me and use them for my purpose.
But something bothers me. What if this is all an elaborate ruse to escape from something else?
What decision am I going to make? Perhaps, only time shall tell.
Behold the outcome, embrace the input.
Mindless action without a vision is you wasting away, a state akin to death. Stuck in the lowest, less rewarding rungs of a greater cycle. Madness, by ignorance.
If you have a vision but never walk towards it, you leave your reality to chance. And nothing happens by coincidence.
Washout done, and, well the desire to go really deep into myself is even stronger.
I’ll give it some more time.
Behold I stand before a box spanning as far as my perception can take me. I know something is there with me.
After being for so long, even though it’s just glimpses, I can finally sense it. Not solid, not liquid, but formless, that which I have deemed as alien.
But why does it feel so familiar to me?
I can feel pulses emanating from you, affecting my very reality, but why can’t I touch you? Why can’t you come to me?
Perhaps, you couldn’t break the cage I put you in. Maybe, you’re patiently waiting for when I’m ready.
I would be with you right now, but I haven’t found the key. Neither can I remember why I locked you up in the beginning.
No matter how long it takes, I’m coming regardless.
Do you truly create reality or are you just re-imagining it?
Fragmented self, strewn as far as perception can contain
Mixed with falsities and illusions
Alas, I consented to it
Perhaps, even did it myself
Time to cast away what isn’t me.
This is interesting.
I was writing out some things that I thought to be beliefs or existing in my current reality.
I noticed as I was writing some of them, my inner voice would retort “that’s a lie, this right here, is bullshit” And would then proceed to give me a list of my experiences that prove otherwise as evidence.
It became obvious that it was a matter of incomplete conscious perception on my part that lead to a false belief.
In the end, I couldn’t even bring myself to write some of them as my current reality because it is simply not true. And that will be me forcing a lie on myself.