For the longest time I’ve been here, but nobody truly home.
Who has been living my life?
Planned to micro loop RotNW for 30 seconds using @Sub.Zero style.
Forgot I was playing a sub, fell asleep, it kept playing till it got paused somehow. Listened to four subs total - RotNW masked & ultrasonic, then R.I.C.H masked & ultrasonic.
Woke up, didn’t remember the situation till I was brushing this morning. No recon, no overexposure symptoms, not even the feel of stud FB being added to my processing queue like usual.
Just leaving these here
To what end?
Does the end truly justify the means?
Haven’t dropped a proper review in my sub use for quite a while now, even though I’m getting spectacular results.
Compilation of reviews incoming today.
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Love the journal man cool posts 
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It’s nice hearing that from someone who posts cool shit too, thank you
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Everything in my reality exists for my sake.
They all exist for love, service and mastery.
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That reminds me, I forgot to update on this
I got a burst of results in less than 5 hours, with R.I.C.H overshadowing RotNW.
- Free food
- Other free stuff
- Birthday well celebrated
- Consistent flow of income till now
No recon at all, except some ear fatigue (still occurring), probably because of listening to ultrasonics at such high volume.
The part I’m not satisfied with is that, my means of financial manifestation is to effort and time intensive. That has to change.
I remember when I used to get recon from R.I.C.H, but cycling it with Khan St1 for two different cycles helped resolve the deep issue.
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Mastery cannot be forced, but it can be made efficient.
And you would remain a fool to keep ignoring the truth before you.
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What is there to balance when the other end of the spectrum isn’t even accessible?
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It seems H:TLTB will be coming in soon. It’s the literal condensation of most of my insights from the last 8-9 months, with most remaining on a cognitive level. But h:TLTB puts them all into practicality.
It’s either I have been getting presults or it was made for me.
Now, how to reorganize my stack.
From my private journal 4 months ago
Mastery is dominance.
Mastery is control.
Mastery is flowing.
Mastery is balance.
Mastery is beauty.
Mastery is purpose.
Mastery is expression.
Mastery is wisdom.
Mastery is dedication.
Mastery is understanding.
Mastery is identity.
Mastery is complex.
Mastery is simple.
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And another that changed the way I train
Training is meditation, movement is meditation, movement is medicine.
Movement is mastery
I have always been a more cognitively oriented person, which has inhibited what I can allow flow through my life — most of my insights/breakthroughs remain on a cognitive/mental level, energy can’t flow freely through my body, bodily intuition low, power can’t be felt, insights can’t be felt.
The experience is not complete.
On a journey where I’m the center of everything?
Not acceptable.
I thought my first step would be a mastery of identity; a unification of everything currently within me. But what sort of identity do I want to build without solid grounding? In a body that isn’t being properly utilized? Weeping, telling me it’s death was near?
I’ve had the desire for the longest time to train my physical body to channel something beyond me, something arcane, perhaps even divine.
I finally obliged that desire, but I kept getting the ping that I only managed to creak the door open. And the price?
My body broke down faster, as it couldn’t keep up.
Now, I won’t let it remain the same, not anymore.
Needed information just resurfaced again.
This is my second time coming across information on a highly underrated part of the human body — the fascia system. Spanning about 22% of the human body. Present within organs and muscles alike.
And then researchers assumed it was pointless or less functional?
How did I even forget this in the first place?
Also came across a proper way to “looksmax” by going back to more natural state — looks as a reflection of true bodily health.
Interesting how information I need keeps finding me faster these days. More research is required.
Training has been put on hold and will be for a considerable amount of time
Is this the limit of your resolve?
BREAK IT
How can you experience true formlessness without a mastery of form?
Had a dream where I was in conversation with a guy and a woman. The woman seemed sexy energetically, with red (#FF0000) tinted iris that had the look of how people’s eyes transform to get clearer and brighter when they are healthy.
Her sensuality was weaved into her very being — speech pattern, behavior, gaze, everything. It wasn’t loud, wasn’t expressed to seduce, it was simply her way of being; I didn’t get aroused, I was marveled, more like enjoying her presence.
She wasn’t ashamed, she said what she wanted to say. The setting was bright like we were standing under beautiful sunlight and it seemed she was teaching me and the other guy some things I can’t remember.